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7/20/2007
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I should be on COPS!
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Right... so last night my crazy ass sister punched me in the face!! She is now in jail! Crazy ass bitch! But really Its been a while so let me give you the whole story. My sis is 25 yrs. old. 4 weeks ago she gave birth to my beautiful nephew, Avery. There were some complications durring birth and they had to do a emergecy C- Section. It was horrible, and scary. They did'nt know if Avery was going to be ok, or if my sister was going to live through it. After 2 weeks in the ICU Avery was able to go home, and my sister was highly medicated on some very strong pain killers. Did I mention that my sister was addicted to heroin for 2 years and methadone for another 2? Well she cant handly alcohol....at all!! When she drinks she fights with everyone and anyone around her. And when she wakes up the afternoon after she dosent remember a damn thing! Every once in a while she will go off the deepest end. Pissoff every oone she knows and disappear for weeks at a time. Leaving my mother and I to clean up her mess and search to the ends of the earth to find her. All the while trying not to let everyone else in the family whats going on. I know 42 tons of fun right!! Well back to the here and now.... Last night my sister told me she wanted to get a bottle of red wine to make some burgandy mushrooms. Im a asshole! I agree to get the very nice $5 bottle of overpriced yellowtail wine. After we get home to her apartment not even a hour later the whole bottle is gone including the cheap bottle of chard I bought to make piccatta. Now dont get me wrong I know it was stupid to buy it, but its been over a year since one of her episodes. So I didnt really think she would do anything totally retarded, but of coarse I underestimated my darling sister! Not only did she kill all the wine in a little ove a hour, but then shitty drunk wanted to pick up the baby! I was soooo not having that! She couldnt even walk straight! So when she threatened to kick me out of her apartment I woke up her husband. And the shit went down from there! After fighting with her for about 3 hours (her husband and I) She told me that she would give me two choices. 1 I could pack my shit and walk my happy ass to the bus station and go back to Dallas and never speak to her again, or 2 she could call the police and have me thrown out! So what do you think I did? .........................I handed her my cell phone and told her she could call the cops on my phone! I also reminded her that the number was 9-1-1! LOL!!! So then the police came, mind you her husband is fucking pisses! As am I! So we explain what is going on and assure the officer that everything is fine. Then my sis decided to come in the room. Eyes bloodshot to all hell, slurring her words and walking crooked, plays like she didnt call the cops, and has o idea what is going on! I was sad and funny! Really I was just worried about Avery! So before the cop left he asked if there was a safe place the baby could go being that sis was wasted and her hus had to go to work in like 2 hours. So he told the officer that if thingsgotbad and he was gone I was to take the baby to a hotel. And that I had his permission. So then after 2 more hours of trying to get her into bed to sleep it off he had to go to work, but by this time she was just cursing the world and crying about all the injustices of the world blah blah blah.... And this whole time was coming up with weird ass reasons why she needed his keys to the car! So anyway, he left and she was crying and asking where her husband was and when I told he for the 10th time that he went to work she would argue that it was only 2am. And every tie I had to correct her that it was actually 5am. When she suddenly had this great idea that the baby needed to sleep in her bed with her. Despite the fact that she was wasted, and that the baby sleeps in the living room in this swing bed thing everynight! So I didnt let her pick him up, so then she started to scream at me "Dont get between me and my child!!" But shes a good 2 inches shorter than me and still healing from surgery. So I didnt think she would do anything stupid. And again.....It was me that was fucking stupid! So the next thing I know Igot a impressive right hook to the jaw! Im fucking shocked !!!! But Im cool a little really pissed off but my 1st concern is the baby so I dont back down. she didnt like that so she decided to grab my fucking hair and wrestle me on the ground. I didnt want to hurt her and i easily could have. So i called the cops for the 2nd time that evening. Told them what was happening and that i needed help right away. While I was on the phone with them she took the baby to her room and left him alone. Hes fucking 4 weeks old! So I went to the room to check on him, She didnt like that either so she gabbed my hair again and kicked me out of the apartment. I was smart enough to get my cell phone in the struggle. So I called the cops again and updated them on what was happening. I then had 3 cops at the apartment and being sober I had the upperhand in the situation. I honestly didnt think they were going to arrest her, but when they had her sitting in the kitchen in her pajamas and were telling her to put shoes on did I realize what they were doing. I watched my sister get put into a police car and then posed for evidence pictures of my jaw! I was happy that I had at least put on some make-up for the first visit from the cops! She is still in jail. There are actually some funny parts of that night Ill post next entry. I should be on COPS! It was fucked up! But her husband cracked up when I told him she got arrested. But the babys fine and thats all that really matters right now!
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2/11/2007
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So much.....
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I love to hate G and I hate to love him. We got in so many fucking fights last night! He just acts like a fucking child all the fucking time! I dont know what to do with him! I love to like Dragon! He wanted to come to Texas. But I told him that I would go to him! I dont really want him to be in texas. So now the plan for the moment is we are gonna go to guam together! Who the hell knows? I have been job hunting online today, ood stuff! My mind just went blank.
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2/9/2007
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Valentines Day
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My valentine is getting surgery on Valentines day! So I asked him if he wanted to do something before Valentines Day to celebrate? What does he say? "Sure why not" All nonchalant like he dosent give a fuck. And Im like fuck you! What the hell? I dont know whats wrong with me today! I was in a OK mood earlier, I just keep getting pissed off. Maybe it has something to do with Dragon hooking up with his ex-girlfriend! Which I cant really get mad at him cause I have a boyfriend too! But I just miss him so much! I miss everyone so much! My mothers being a bitch! Well everyone can just fuck off!
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2/9/2007
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Walking At Night...............
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So I walk at night. All the fucking sudden my mother is sooo worried! Whay are you walking at night? Its so dangerous! Maybe that is why I do it! I need to get the fuck outta here! The drama never ends! It just gets worse and worse! I cant stand it here! And it has only been 12 days since I got back! Where should I go? Another country maybe? Russia sounds good!
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2/8/2007
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Dragon
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I dont know what to do! I had this fling with this guy on the ship named Dragon. But when I got home last week my ex boyfriend picked me up from the airport and we picked up right where we left off. We never really broke up but he was in texas while I was in hawaii. So we were talking the other day and he told me he wanted to marry me and I agreed. I lovehim very much and I know we would have a great life together. I miss Dragon so much and he called me today. He handed the phone to my old roomate Sparrow and I told her that I might be getting married. She then told Dragon, when he get back on the phone he was shocked! I dont really blame him. But then he was like "Well in that case I'm not gonna sa what I was about to." So I pushed him to just tell me. And he said that he had been really depressed and been drinking alot and then it just hit him like a train. "I miss my kitty Cat!" He has been depressed because I have been gone and he missed me so much. My heart just melted! I felt like crying right there! I want to be back on the ship so bad! I cant wait to see everyone from the ship again! I dont know what to do! I think I love Dragon! I miss his warm arms wrapped around me holding me tight while we dream together. Cuddling together for even a 30 minute power nap. He made me very happy. I miss him. He wants to come to texas when he leaves the ship. But I dont know what drama that will cause. I dont know what to do!
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2/2/2007
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It has started
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I cant stand this place. And they know it. Cause they cant stand me here either. The first day I was back I got a forced pat on the head for loosing a little weight. Iam still pretending that I dont smoke. I have somewhat started looking for a job. I cant wait to get out. But I still dont have a car. Its lucky for me Im no scared of the city bus. Well... not that scared. My three goals for the next month are 1. get a job 2.get a car/ license 3. Get out!! The getting out part might take more than a month. But I can start school in the meantime! But what am I going to choose for school? Russian seems like the best for now. Translate while I go to culinary arts school. I have so many passions. And possibly a future fiance! I did tell him that he needed to ask my uncle for my hand before I could give an answer. But I mean it would be a yes from both of us. Thats if he ever asks me again. I really love him alot.
So more about the asshole Step dad....... I was talking about firefighting, and I got a letter of reccomendation from the captain of the ship and the fire fighter. If I choose to I could go to fire training school but the it would only be half as long cause I have over 100 hours of training and volunteer fire fighting. So Asshole then trys to tell me all this bullshit about why firefighters do this and that...Blah blah blah....
I just wanted to tell him to fuck off!! I swear he always makes me look like an idiot, or tries to make it crystal clear that hes smarter than Iam. I dont want to be here more than 3 months. And thats if I can survive that 3 months!! I want a cig so fucking bad right now! I dont know what to do. I just want to get drunk right now. Make me forget where and who I am. |
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2/2/2007
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Back in Texas......Again
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This time I resigned from the ship. 3 fucking months as a trainee while 7 fucking men get promoted over me and then demote me. Fuck that! I might go back to ships, but 6 months without a freakin day off is just sucking my life away! But in the meentime my ex boyfriend and I have been spending alot of time together. He met my parents, and I met his mother. That was so fucked up! Before he had told me that she couldnt wait to meet me and blah blah blah. Yet after I slept over at his house and went down stairs with him to leave.. we run into her!!!! She seems kinda whatever. Not really too pumped to see me in her house, much less meet me for the first time face to face. He tells me that she has never liked any one he has dated. And that she is a really mean woman when it comes to women in her sons life. But its ok cause she will be nice to my face but ask him when hes gonna break up with me or whoever!! Crazy!! I mean I love him and he tells me all the time that he loves me too. But you know how moms can be! And hes an only child! I just want to run the hell away! But hes leaving for 8 weeks to go to training for the coast guard!After that he will get stationed somewhere. And from our conversation the other night it looks like the plan is for me to go with him. Which is fing, great whatever but I just hope its not Alaska. Hell its too fucking cold in Texas. Im gonna die in Alaska. I guess its safe to say we are back together. But although I slept over at his house, we did not have sex. Despite his valiant efforts. I just couldnt have sex with him in his parents house! No matter how cool he said they were!! There was some talk about getting married too. Im not how to go about that. I dont really want to tell anyone, and yet I want to tell everyone! I dont know what to do. For now im just looking for a job so I can save some cash for school. Now I want to be a transulator. Russian and farsi to start with.
I know Im crazy, but hey its not your problem! LOL! I cant wait to get the fuck out of Texas. I love Texas, but its soooo time for me to move on! And I know Ive only been back for less than a week, but whatever.
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9/1/2006
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Turn on!!
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So I did something I thought I would never do...I went skinny dipping in my parents pool at night! It was such a turn on!! I wasnt really planning on it. But I felt like taking a dip. So I decided to put on my top and this cute corona cotton skirt I got in cancun. I sometimes wear over my bottoms and swim in.....But this time I didnt wear anything under! and after I got in I just took it all off. It was in reach at all times just in case someone came out. It was exactly what I needed! It totaly cheered me up and turned me on! I just need to find some cute chick to have "fun" with for a few hours! Wish me luck!!
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9/1/2006
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Mother F@#&ing Son of a BITCH!!!
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So I mow know why Im not on the ship yet.......The fucking assholes in Miami seemed to forget to tell me that I had to take another drug test. Which would'nt be a problem if it wasnt a huge pain in in ass to get to it cause its in Fort fucking worth! And that I was cleared almost 2 fucking weeks ago!! Iam totaly clean for the drug test but the last time I went it took me like an hour and a half to find the damn place after it had already taken me 3 hours to get there! And its like 100 fucking degrees!! If I had known this earlier I might not be so fucking pissed. But it also takes them like a while to get the results!! I just want to go back to my ship! Not the aloha, not the Hawaii, My fucking Pride of Aloha!!! Why is this so hard?
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8/31/2006
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Skazhi Zachem (Stars)
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Why am I waiting for the phone to ring? Why do silent clouds float towards me from afar then melt? Why didlove touch us? Why am I crying for the first time?Why do I want you now?
I dont know.
Im a star, your a star. We were meant to burnout. Someone handed over and took the address of our meetings. Eyeson the celling and no will discover. Voices crack and the ice breaks. And noones clueless. And I could have gone to bed it is time to switch off and they're at their end. Smile, Unwind. Cloaked mirrors rip apart and say "I died, I died" Lock up and lie becoming nothing. And your hand wont quiver, Everythings OK with my hand. Its possible to get revenge 2 times 2 you jump in the taxi. YOU SUCK And never forgive never ask. Very well, Very well. I've found my revenge. Sugar coat everything. Multiply by six. Dont call,Dont call. Im tired Im tired. I DONT WANT YOU! IM FUCKING SICK OF YOU!!
Why am I waiting for the phone to ring? Why do silent clouds float towards me from afar then melt? Why did love touch us?
Why am I crying for the first time? Why do I want you now?
I dont know.
Never anything, nothing to start. Never anyone. Die in silence. Not to search. Not to love. No regrets and no sleep. Never anyone. Noone to set free. Not together. Just to kill watered down dreams. Not yours not mine. Wires here, wires there. Heroin, No pulse.I DONT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU!
Why am I waiting for the phone to ring?
Why do silent clouds float towards me from afar and melt?
Why did love touch us?
Why am I crying now for the first time?
Why do I want you now?
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8/29/2006
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To my redneck..
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MisCatt
To my former redneck.
Gomensai, as I have said many times before. I know that it is over. there is no more Us. It is no longer all about us. And thats OK. I know thats its not just a break. I value the love I have and had for you. You will allways be my redneck. But it was not meant to be forever. I will never forget about how. No. Im not goinginto that. Eto Tema. But I do wish you all the love in the world. I hope for you all the happiness to be had. Even if thats not with me. Good luck with everything. I love you Becca. You were the only one to break th rule. But now the rule is back and now stronger than ever. Goodbye Becca.
For every one else...Gomensai is Japanese for "Im Sorry" And Eto Tema...Look it up on you tube Its good. But gomensai is better. It used to be all about us. And all for her.
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8/28/2006
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Nothing is What I feel!
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| Nothing. As though Im just watcching everything happening. But I dont care any longer to stop or change it. Idont feel happy about things that normaly make smile. But I also cant feel sad about anything either. I dont really know if that is somrthing wrong with me or im just done with it all. J wont return my calls. Our friendship is over. I feel sometimes like it is my fault. Becasuse I introduced her into the life she now lives. Yet I still just dont care. It wasfun when we did it, but I did away with it longago. She hasnot and it now controls her much more than it ever did before. I need to disappear for a while. Find a new name and new life again. I have done it before. I think its time again. But this one Ill do better than before. Run alittle farther this time around. Who the hell knows? I havent been drinking at all tonight for those that are wondering. |
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8/26/2006
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Drunk Driving
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Have you seen these new Drunk Driving ads on Tv? Its so damn funny! One guy is in a truck full of what we are supposed to think is beer. Another in a sports car full of "Vodka" Im guessing cause it had olives floating in it. and the last in a luxury car filled with red wine. It all spilled out when they rolled down their windows to talk to the cops. They dont look drunk untill they show the GUYS gettingg breathalized. And then they are falling down eyes rolled in the back of their heads! Its so fucking funny! It almost beats the wouldnt cure my depression I dont know what would!
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8/26/2006
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Topless!!!!
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MisCatt
Ok, so today my mother took my brother and all his shit back to colledge station. So they were gong, my sister was at school, and the step asshole was at work. So I took advantage of the wonderful few moments I had alone. And I went out side and jumped in the pool with my iPod speakers on full blaste plating all the music everyone hates me playing cause Ive already burned them out on it! (t.A.T.u.) After I lathered my self in Hawaiian Tropic tanning oit I jumped in the pool. The idea quickly came to me that I could swim topless and noone could say anything! I was so fucking great! And really sexy!!!! I cant wait to do it again! Hopefuly not alone! But Ill have to work on that! (Evil giggle!) That was the highlight of my day!
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8/25/2006
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Fuck
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MisCatt
Its been too long since my last post! So much has been going on yet nothing at all! I thought I was going to go back to the ship this week but the guy is so fucking stupid! I dont know when I'll be going back! I was going to try to go back to the Aloha ship. Because the redneck is there but I not anymore. I called her about a week ago, yes I was kinda drunk but I didnt say anything too retarded on her voicemail. Just "hey how are you just called to say hi. Blah blah blah" But she hasnt called back. So thats it. Im not going to call her anymore. If anything else is meant to happen it will. But Im not going to push anything.
Also I have been trying to call Jto go down to San Antonio to see her and get Rdnx money back to her. But Js phone has been turned off and she wont return my calls to her home phone. So I dont know what the fuck to do about that!
My sisters getting married and Iam to be the maid of honor! Very happy for her! My brothers are back at school. One in OU and the other at A&M. The other is going on his mission in a couple of months. We dont know where yet. And my little sister is just tortured and unresponsive. The parental units are boring and fake.
I want to leave the country. But I dont know where I want to go.
I told mt sister I was a lesbian. She said she thought I was just bi. I told her I thought I was too although now Im sure that Im a lesbian. I just dont find men attractive anymore. And those men I was with.... were all long hair and soft bodys. But anyway... Her reply was "Badass! Thats so cool that I have a lesbian sister! As long as you are happy that is what truly matters!" I love her. Welcome back everyone. |
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8/17/2006
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YA SHLOSA S UMA
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MisCatt
All the things she said running through my head!
Im in serious shit.
i feel totaly lost if Im asking for help its only because being with her has opened my eyes could i ever belive such a perfect suprise?
I keep asking myself wondering how. I keep closing my eyes but I cannot get out. I want to fly to place where its just you andme nobody else so we can be free.
Now im all mixed up feeling cornered and rushed.
They say its my fault but I want her so much.
Want toi fly her away where the sun come in over my face wash away all the shame.
when they stop and stare dont worrie me, cause Im feeling for her what shes feeling for me.
I can try to pretend, I can try to forget but its driving me mad going out of my head!
all the things she said running through my head! |
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8/13/2006
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WTF!!!
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OK, so I have another journal on a music site. Why? Two reasons. 1. I have no life. 2. Because im a big music dork! I love everyone one on this journal site! everyone is either really cool, or keeps their fucked up opinions to their own damn self! And I love it!! ASo any way... on this other blog I have the same profile pic. two beautiful women kissing! a beautiful photograph, a beautiful piece of art! Fuck! So this bitch sends me a comment on it..."whats with the picture? are you gay so something?" So i commented back yes. Iam a lover of women. and this is a great
photo! so tonight she sends me this comment......:you are digusting and no one wants to read that shit you lesbo! dont write about how you fuck other women on the internet! no one wants to hear that!" what the fuck??? I dont have the imagination to describe my conquests to the other people on the internet! So I told her to go fuck herself and asked if she had some strange feelings she didnt understand? not to be scared and that the closet is for brooms.LOL!!! lets see what she has to say now! oh i also called her a bigot!! |
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8/13/2006
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8/13/2006
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my favorite coffee cup says this.
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Dance
As though no one is watching.
Love
As though no one has hurt you before.
Sing
As though no one can hear you.
Live
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8/13/2006
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not sure what to title this.
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Many people will walk in and out of your life. But only true friends will leave footprints on your heart!
Yesterday is histoy, tomorrow is mystery, and today is a gift. Thats why we call it the present. |
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