Hey, I'd absolutely stopped writing, didn't think anybody was reading (thanks A Face In The Crowd.. I'd love to read your blogs, post the link, please?)

Anywaysss life's just changed so much. Lots happened. God, life doesn't follow plans....

I am *uhhh hold your breath* in a relationship!!!!

He's damnnnn fantastic, let's me get away with anything and I love to talk about him. Lolz, I can be really irritating once I start off. My words of wisdom> Dating/ guys/ relationships/ love/ infatuations none of it make any sense until the guy loves you like crazy, mine does!  That's what I've learnt lately........

It's incomparable.. I thought I'd seen it all, been there, done that. But nothing ever came close to this. He's good to me. He's great with my friends. Takes anything i dish out.

True Love at last?  yumm...

So, my college life has changed... Priorities have changed.. Big Milestone moments....

And you know one more thing? I love myself just a little bit more.... That's the best gift anybody can ever give you....

I keep thinking about other topics to talk about but sorry guys, am a sappy, romantic girl who is obsessed with her first true love.... lol, excuse me..

Hopefully I'll be more normal by next time!

See y'all..

P.s. God I love all these firsts he's given me...... My first metro ride, my first U-special ride, first time I've had so many dates with the same guy, first time I've fallen for a good guy, my first Valentine, first guy to gift me jewellery, first bouquet of a dozen red roses (they knock you off your feet- they do), first guy to go on his knees to propose, first guy i completed one month with, only guy to say 'i love you' so manyyy times and in so many ways, first guy who's worked so hard to give me surprises, first guy who bungles up his surprises so bad that i have to compensate (but i love it), the first guy who travels for an hour to get me just what i want to eat just when i want it, uh can i now just say etc before it turnz cheesierrr. ?

Okay, so my birthday is right around the corner, and not to break tradition, it's time for me to take an account of how life's changed in the last one year..

Let's see, I'm dressing better and enjoying what I'm wearing and that rocks completely. I learnt the basics of tennis, which is a good thing. Lot's of french that I'm not giving up on, its one of the things I enjoy doing the most! I've consciously been trying to taste new things, go for new experiences, diversify.... and I think I've done an okay job of it.

On the other hand, there are a lot of things I intended to do and achieve before 19, that I'm not even close to have done. But waving all of that aside one major problem is, This year, for the first time in my life, I can't deciede who I want to spend this day with.

I mean I have a lot more friends now than I ever had before in my life, but my school friends group has slightly moved on, and with my college friends there isn't enough history. I have loads of other acquantainces, or close friends even, but no group. Except perhaps for my best friend, nobody who would go out of their way to make this day more special for me.....

Not too cool...

Hey today's Republic Day of India and well, Happy Republic Day to us!! .. !!

In other news (ah now I sound like a newscaster).. Have you ever had a person totally declare their undying love and affection for you? You know how fabulous that feels? And you know whats the worst thing you can do then- not feel anything back for them. It's bad for that person to hear, undisputably, but you, yourself... it's not too great for you either! What do you do then, What do you do?? Stop talking completely, break all contact? Talk and explain your position? Settle for what you're getting, not knowing if it'll ever happen again- besides who doesn't like being the centre of somebody's life?... Um, notice how I haven't said if it's actually happening or hypothetical?........

My cousin brother's getting married, Febraury 19th and it's going to be fabulous! Can't wait. Great party and food, and family.

I kinda rambled a little today, didn't I? Hm.. anyways, until next time, then....

Sorry for the short break but hey, things to do.. people to meet..

Ok contemplation unlimited- here we go..

First off, why am I not happy and bouncing off walls?

I thought (wow, surprising, isn't it?) and I realised, everytime in my life I deciede what I want next and move in that direction, I get it.. But it doesn't exactly satisfy me completely and then I sit and do another round of figuring out, and well, its a circle. Can't see an end to it. It's nobodys fault, I mean I'm getting what i want aren't I? It's just that I can't accurately pinpoint what I want or need.

Every New Year sees a whole bunch of resolutions that I follow religiously and still end up trying to figure out what AM i doing wrong? hmm, what?

o, and while we are at that topic, here's this year's inventory-

• Learn to cook at least two new dishes a month.

• Join a gym - about 5 kilos lost and a lot of toning required.

• Won't actually fall for a guy this year.

• No short skirts on first dates.

• Don't be so lazy.

The rest are a little more serious and slightly less formulated so I'm not putting them in here.

A very wise friend of mine (whose lost his phone and won't reply to my emails and who when he messages eventually will be slayed So.. B warned!), once told me I waste entirely too much time on guys. I reckon, he's very right. So, let's add to that list shall, we?

• Won't waste time (or at least not as much) on guys anymore!

Right, this blog was a bit not too upto the mark, hoping for something better next time.

O, what won't I do for a little magic in my life right now........

Been a few days since I last posted, hm, whats been up?

Lots, actually..

Saw Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, first day first show and wowwwwww - it rocked!!! Loved the movie, Good going Mike!!

Had my college Fest, and boy, did it rock! absolutely completely Funky!

The first day, we attended a street play, where all these colleges come and perform a small skit (the audience is seated on all four sides) and it usually carries a social message, also, high on comedy mostly.! Then, there was the western dance competition, again, asbolutely Rocking! The participants, well I'd say they seemed almost completely professional. And then , the war of the DJs where we danced till our feet hurt (literally, I still can't move!)

The next day, we kickstarted it with the fashion show. Actually, me and some friends had volunteered to help out with it, so, we're sitting at the registration counter and meeting the CREAM of the guys (and girls). The judge was the top model at one of the very prestigous modelling agencies here, so... ummm! Yumm lolz. And the participants weren't too bad either. We were backstage, and enjoying ourselves thoroughly. Then there was the rock fest, quite disappointing, so left that and went out.

Wow, last few days have been a lot of fun, hmm. Hope it holds out...

Another day... some happy.. some sad...

I guess, by the time I finish off with my teens and such problems, I could write a whole thesis on ways to cheer myself up! I'll only be very glad to share, and this stuff helps, for a temporary period of time.. And they say time's the best healer.. So lots of short moments of cheering up- you'll probably never feel a thing..

Uhh, gone off on a tangent haven't I?

I never thought of myself as particularly spiritual or religious, but I'm starting to develop that in me a little bit. All of a sudden (or maybe it was gradual and I just never felt the need for it before), I actually feel at peace in a temple. And I've started believing that nothing's a co-incidence, it was destined. And that something good comes off everything! And, everything happens for a reason, the reasons often quite profound and a soul like mine, thats seeking too many answers, can probably nnot comprehend it yet.. but someday.. I'm hoping.. or no it's stronger than that, I truly BELIEVE that someday it'll all just fall into place- like the pieces of a jigsaw puzzle.

I truly honestly believe I'm meant for great things. It's not being arrogant or too high headed or concieted. Nothing of that sort. Just the amount of energy, hardwork and dedication I put into things (not alwayz, I'm usually quite lazy, but if I deciede to put my name to a piece of work, you can trust me blindly), it has to pay off. If life's fair and There's a God up there - I'll do good.

By great things I do not mean, discovering a cure for cancer type of great. Just ordinary life great. Putting the cheer back in life for people I care about, hanging out, being there for anybody who needs me... I'd do that. I'd go to the ends of the world without batting an eye-lid if I thought anybody would be happier for it.. I just want somebody who'd do that for me! No boundaries, nothing, no limits attached.

I know now, that I got my parents, my bestest pals, my brothers, some of my cousins, etc. but one person who can be totally MINE! lol.. Copyright and all that.. My soulmate. just - mineeee.. lol..

Hmm. I never dated much before, I thought it was just easier hanging back, waiting for him to find me - didn't work. And then, i thought, how would he? So, I dated and found just a series of heartbreaks. Now, I'm basically confused about whats the right way. What do I need to do? Where do I go from here?

Bah, I've been way to melancholic lately and thoughtful and  I thought of a thousand different ways to start this blog and all I came up with was stuff that made me balk. What am I, like 80 years old? I want to write something that cheers me up. And lets me vent a little 'mean'.

(If you remember, I just got my heart broken up bad and been trying to get back on my feet.)

So, then Genius Struck!! And here it was,Ta DAaaaaaaaaaaaa..

This one is for all the girls out there who met jerks, who broke their hearts and walked away.

 May He Rot In Hell!!!

Here's a compilation of all the ways I can ruin MY jerk's life-

(Now, I'm not planning on doing any of it, but hey, It Helps! Even just thinking it helps!)

• I could, take a very very cold granita, go find him and shove it down his shirt front! >>> Mild, yeah but satisfying. Oh, the shock on his face if I do that.

• Or, just go Wham! a slap accross his face. >>> 'Course this would be much more satisfying if he was surrounded by some guy friends. Everything said and done, he wouldn't ever have the guts to hit me back!

• I could call up his dad and spill my guts! >>> Very unfair and underhand and wayyy mean. But, hey I'm just thinking it. And all I do in my head is my business!

• I go to an all girls college - I could put his number up on the notice board with a picture (Darn, he's cute) and make a very awesome wanted advertisement making wierd allegations about how deformed and discoloured his character is!!! (Ah, this one I particularly like) >>> Very high probability of backfiring- what if one of those girls calls, and they end up going around? The last thing I want to do is help improve his love life. Bahh.. Shucks!

• Or, throw a party!!!! Soundz wierd?? lolz, let me explain. I'll throw a party for all his ex girlfriends or any girl he ever came accross in his life who he was involved with in any manner. I absolutely don't mind the expense. Better yet, All his exz and their current boyfriends! O, and Best- I'll just leave the cheque up for him to pay. Yum... I feel like the female Devil !! >>> I don't see any reason why this shouldn't work out. It's damn near prrrrrfect!

• Post his landline number somewhere very public and claim he sells dope. That oughta mess his life up completely. At the very least, he would have to get his home # replaced!

Ah, that's just how mean and petty I could think of being right now. Maybe I'll add to the list later! Tell you what, help me out guys, post back. Tell me every wild thing you've ever done for sweet, sweet revenge. Or, anything you've dreamt of doing. Help me in my cause!

Hello.

I'm Meeta. I'm 18 and I'm Indian. This is my first blog, so I guess I'll just write a little bit about myself before getting down to the nitty-gritties of my life.

My zodiac sign is Aquarius and I like to read. Nothing too heavy duty, mostly bestsellers and the like.

I have fabulous friends, from school and now at my university.That's psychology I'm majoring at.

Oh, and I feel like I've just jotted down my resume or something!

Lolz, I'm a fun-loving person, simple, living a pretty charmed life *touchwood*. I get most of what i want and have very few unreasonable demands. Great family, awesome friends, doing well, travelling. But theres one part of my life thats a complete MESS. Ah, I'm sure you guessed it!!

My Love Life.

Lolz. wait let me revise that - My Non-Existant Love Life!

Not that there aren't a few shots in the dark every once in a while, but it always ends up messed up. The complete Jerks always find me, charm me, break my heart, and walk away.

Like this one i met recently, amazing guy. It was a first even for me. I actually thought i was in love! And he jerked around and very nicely in the end explains - Oh, you know how I am.. (didnt mean a thing). Darnnit! Why me?

Not that I'm a saint or something but if theres one principle I follow religiously in life it's the fact that I never lie (uh, almost never). But every guy I seem to like, thinks its a perfectly natural thing to do. And for a psychology student, I'm dumb for not recognising all this. Ah, let's see how it goes.

This is basically my life, and now you can experience it with me!!

Any comments are very welcome.