Another day... some happy.. some sad...

I guess, by the time I finish off with my teens and such problems, I could write a whole thesis on ways to cheer myself up! I'll only be very glad to share, and this stuff helps, for a temporary period of time.. And they say time's the best healer.. So lots of short moments of cheering up- you'll probably never feel a thing..

Uhh, gone off on a tangent haven't I?

I never thought of myself as particularly spiritual or religious, but I'm starting to develop that in me a little bit. All of a sudden (or maybe it was gradual and I just never felt the need for it before), I actually feel at peace in a temple. And I've started believing that nothing's a co-incidence, it was destined. And that something good comes off everything! And, everything happens for a reason, the reasons often quite profound and a soul like mine, thats seeking too many answers, can probably nnot comprehend it yet.. but someday.. I'm hoping.. or no it's stronger than that, I truly BELIEVE that someday it'll all just fall into place- like the pieces of a jigsaw puzzle.

I truly honestly believe I'm meant for great things. It's not being arrogant or too high headed or concieted. Nothing of that sort. Just the amount of energy, hardwork and dedication I put into things (not alwayz, I'm usually quite lazy, but if I deciede to put my name to a piece of work, you can trust me blindly), it has to pay off. If life's fair and There's a God up there - I'll do good.

By great things I do not mean, discovering a cure for cancer type of great. Just ordinary life great. Putting the cheer back in life for people I care about, hanging out, being there for anybody who needs me... I'd do that. I'd go to the ends of the world without batting an eye-lid if I thought anybody would be happier for it.. I just want somebody who'd do that for me! No boundaries, nothing, no limits attached.

I know now, that I got my parents, my bestest pals, my brothers, some of my cousins, etc. but one person who can be totally MINE! lol.. Copyright and all that.. My soulmate. just - mineeee.. lol..

Hmm. I never dated much before, I thought it was just easier hanging back, waiting for him to find me - didn't work. And then, i thought, how would he? So, I dated and found just a series of heartbreaks. Now, I'm basically confused about whats the right way. What do I need to do? Where do I go from here?