Phiuhhh ... hari2 yg bnr2 sucks

Dengan kerjaan yg numpuk kek gunung

dan lagi2 hrs berhadapan dng org2 yg aargghh MENYEBALKAN ... DISGUSTING ...

But it´s ok, toh gw msh bs handle ...

Mungkin krn tll bny org2 munafiik dlm hidup gw

Mungkin gw dulu msh bs bersabar sama kelakuan org2 yg kek gitu

Tp kesabaran jg ada batasnya ...

Kadang gw mikir ... apa sih untungnya seseorg jalanin hidup dng "TOPENG" ???

Waks, cm mrk yah yg tau ..Hahaha

Ga guna juga sih mikirin org2 yg ga pantes tuk dipikirin ...

Nyayangin org2 yg ga pantes tuk disayangin ...

So I´ll just leave them behind n will never look back just to know how they are ...

I´ll never allow them to touch my every single piece of life, my every single sec of time

To Om gendut

Thnx yah udh nemenin gw ... Hahaha ...

Thanks 4 being there laz nite  ...

U can make anger turn to be laugh

U can even make tears turn to be a smile

"Lebih mudah utk mengatakan drpd melakukan .. Jadilah seseorg seperti apa2 yg telah kau ucapkan, CAN U ??"

Mengapa Tuhan menciptakan begitu banyak manusia di dunia ini ?

Mengapa hidup itu harus berhubungan dengan org lain ?

Bisakah aku hidup tanpa harus bertemu dengar org lain ?

Bisakah aku hidup tanpa memerlukan org lain ?

Agar aku tidak lagi merasa lelah ?

Mengapa Tuhan menciptakan telinga untuk mendengar ?

Mengapa Tuhan menciptakan mata untuk melihat ?

Bisakah aku menulikan telingaku ?

Bisakah aku membutakan mataku ?

Agar aku tidak lagi mendengar kata kata yg menyakitkan ?

Agar aku tidak lagi melihat perbuatan org lain yg menyakitkan ?

Mengapa Tuhan menciptakan manusia dengan perasaan ?

Mengapa perasaan sedih itu begitu menyakitkan ?

Bisakah aku hidup tanpa perasaan ?

Agar aku tidak lagi merasa sedih ?

Agar aku tidak lagi merasa sakit ?

Mengapa semua ini begitu melelahkan ?

Mengapa semua ini begitu menyakitkan ?

Bisakah aku menyudahi hidupku ini ?

Agar aku tidak lagi merasa semua ini ?

It’s almost 2 am rite now

But I still cant close my eyes

Nothing’s much to tell

I just miss someone rite now "¦

Miss him like hell "¦

Oh geeze I hate this kind of feeling

The feelings that I cant hide

The feelings that I cant stop

It’s growing more n more each day

The thought of him always on my mind

It suffers me much to know he’s miles away apart

Therefore I cant even see him

I MISS HIM SO MUCH

Please tell me how to stop this ??

Cinta itu seperti kupu-kupu.

Semakin dikejar,Maka ia akan semakin lari.

Tapi kalau dibiarkan terbang,

Dia akan datang di saat kamu tidak mengharapkannya.

Cinta dapat membuatmu bahagia

Tapi ...
Sering juga membuatmu sedih.

Cinta baru berharga kalau diberikan kepada seseorang yang menghargainya.
Jadi jangan terburu-buru, dan pilihlah yang terbaik.

Cinta bukan bagaimana menjadi pasangan
yang "sempurna" bagi seseorang.

Tetapi ... 

Bagaimana menemukan seseorang yang dapat membantumu menjadi dirimu sendiri.

Dan karena itu kamu sempurna.

Cinta itu sebuah jalan.

Cinta bukan sekedar perasaan, tapi sebuah komitmen....

Perasaan bisa datang dan pergi begitu saja......

Cinta tak harus berakhir bahagia.....

karena cinta tidak harus berakhir...

Honestly it has me laughing when I know there is still a person who still glorify friendship,

Who still know the real meaning of TRUE FRIEND & FRIENDSHIP

Whos still willing to help someone he/she doesnt know very well yet

Since the betrayal from my friends (actually my best friends) the image of wonderful friendship has been suddenly fading away

And the worst is when my own family stabbed me from my back "¦

It was just like a thousand needles pricked my body "¦ it hurts "¦ its painful"¦ the most painful pain in life that I have to face it alone "¦ n I starting to hate my family "¦ I dont even want to meet them anymore in any occasion"¦ I miss them so much especially my grandma, though "¦

Since then, Ive given up hope n faith in anything "¦

No one can be trusted "¦ No one can be a shoulder to cry on "¦

To me...anyone, anything they were all nothing "¦ I didnt even want to care about anyone , anything

I feel like im alone, its kinda hard for me to just open my heart  "¦ n I lost my faith in GOD "¦

2 days ago, someone was telling me not to turn away from GOD cuz GOD will know, GOD will listen, GOD will lead me, n GOD will never leave me "¦

His words had me crying all day long "¦

N it has me keep questioning myself "WILL HE??"

I do believe GOD will never leave me,  n I do believe HE always in my every lil step in life

But I never feel HE is there with me "¦ I was thinking what I have been going thru in the past tough 10 yrs since HE took my one and only "strengthen" in life back to HIS laps, it wasnt all  becoz of HIS helping hands

Maybe its all becoz I blame too much on HIM 4 wat has happened in life "¦

And now I realize I was wrong with all my thoughts "¦ Ive found the answer for all my questions

Maybe I cant be grateful for all the blessings

HE just sent me a true friend "¦a friend that I never met in person yet "¦ But hes willing to help me

Without any purpose "¦I do thank GOD for sending them to me "¦

To Yosh n Nonik, thanks a lot .. ur help it means a lot to me "¦

U both might think what u did for me it was just nothing, it was just as simple as making a sushi "¦

But it wasnt to me "¦ in the middle of nowhere, in the middle of losing hope n faith, u both came to me(someone u dont even know very well, someone tat isnt close to u both) n offered me a help "¦ a help tat has opened my eyes tat actually theres still a true friend in this entire world  

Thanks a lot "¦