Life is Suddenly very Serious

I seek a purging of the soul and a chance to feel something a little more different than that which I was feeling yesterday or one year ago. I am in a strange place really, a culture unlike the one I have lived most of my life in, where it seems things do not carry over easily from one day to the next. Or at least they so not carry over in a way I am familiar with. I want to carry over to tomorrow the good and better thoughts and feelings I have and distance myself from anxiety and despair but it is impossible really. Instead I find myself more and more developing a philosophy of resignation, of simplicity of life and minimal expectations for the future. I no longer find myself seeking to eradicate despair but trying to learn to live with it and function from inside it.

I am resistant to doing this blog site even. I can often write and fill up pages easily but I am not passionately compelled to. I had received some comments and usually I do not even read comments anymore and have considered blocking that option, but I decided I would try it for a while. One poster was the imbecile with a computer and the Neolithic rudiments of an opinion. I deleted their posts from the site the way I would remove a slimy tick from a pedigree dog. I went to their site out of curiosity and found it to be a blithering cesspool of inanity and no talent. Juvenilia. I realize I am not here to be part of some little community of bloggers though I do not resist that either. I just forget what a bizarre world the Internet can be and how easily one can sucked into the abyss here.  

But I am not here to respond to garbage rather I am here to be selfish and maudlin when I choose to be. Even megalomanical if necessary in the way Nietzsche was when he wrote Ecce Homo. To sound a little off the deep end because that is where I find myself.  To deal with what is happening in life and write it down and hope that by putting things in words they make more sense later. I haven’t time to deal with children who own a computer anymore. There is a seriousness about life suddenly that I cannot ignore.

Simon Fripp

11 Oct 06

8:44 AM - 10/11/2006 - post comment

G'DAY SIMON.

I came across your blog of fine writing and ideas and just decided to say g'day. I hope you won't mind me poking my head into your blog from time to time to say g'day and how you going? May the dove of peace and love spread her wings over you.
(((hugs))) from Dawnie :-)

Edited by DAWNIE on 10/15/2006 at 2:26 AM

DAWNIE - 1:24 AM - 10/15/2006