I made my decision and I'm going to stick to it. No running away now. I don't think I'll be able to live with that. It's a stupid one, I know but I chose this road. It's like a dilemma anyway. Why was I ever cursed with this one? Whatever it is, it's useless to know now because I'm in too deep. I don't know how I feel. I'm not really sure of them as the moment. I've never been in this situation before. I'm scared as hell, yeah. But somebody up there will guide me, right? I just hope I listen to Him. Note to self: PRAY more. I do not understand how a simple gesture could have all that I spent building come crashing down on me. But there's no use whining about it now. It's over; it happened. I just need to get a hold of myself and face the actions I did. Even if it'll all come crashing down on me, I can't say I didn't take responsibility for it. I am now a villain in this fairy tale yet why is it that I didn't feel any guilt earlier? Tsakto gd: masarap ang bawal.