I tried to see it your way but I can’t. I’m not sorry to say I won’t ever think that way. I only said okay because I did not want to fight this thing over text. The feelings and emotions are not there when it’s all just in cyberspace. A lot of things can be misinterpreted. Maybe even the whole thing can be misread. Nothing beats talking face to face, with the physical being right then and there.

That’s where you need to start, right? Get a backbone and talk to me in person. Do something! All you have been doing is text me or chat in YM. You’re all words…that’s what I have in mind now. It seems you disagree with the quote “Actions speak louder than words.” If confidence can be bought, my friend could’ve bought you one eons ago. Maybe even added spare ones. Plus, he’d also chuck in a backbone for you. Yep, that’s how useless you are in our eyes right now.

Just enjoy our love or whatever this is. No commitments.

I don’t share your sentiment on that. You make out commitments to be just hassles. I know. Even though you say you love me, you don’t want to make commitments simply because you’re committed to her. It’s still her even if I weigh more in that precious heart of yours. I’m just an alibi until the real thing comes in…when will she come home? Oh December. She’ll be coming in December from the land down under sporting a twang and you’ll ditch me to be with her. Why? Your mind says so and that’s the only thing you trust.

What hurts more? Seeing your committed partner flirting with another person or seeing the one you don’t really have a commitment with canoodling with somebody else? I would think the second one hurts more but hey that’s just me. With the second one, you have jealousy sparking in you but then you don’t have any right off it. You’re not together so technically, you shouldn’t feel that way. Doesn’t that pain you more?

So we’re two opposites. Fine. Done. Whatever. We have spent more time in arguing or me getting angry at you or me being hurt than actually spending glorious times with each other.

Everything’s just great. It’s all going smoothly…down the drain. I’ve said what I necessarily need to say and now it’s your turn. Or are you still working on it as what you have said since the beginning?