Hello All:

I am back again. Just a quicke update on my job situation. My job is coming along just great. I am one of the cooks at a local elementary school out here in nomans land. I have been here for a month or so. I am getting  the hang  of prosedures, and the other employees have made me feel right at home. So my job is not the thing that has me confused and depressed.

The current problem is with some of my family members.

I have been trying so hard to prove myself to every-one that was in any way affected by the stuped thing I did last May that landed me in jail. For you who don't know what happened, last May I  got tyed up in an email scam, where I was told that I will receive payments to a foreign company. I than would cash the checks, keep 10% for myself than send the rest Westeren Union to another location. I got some checks, chashed a few. And they ended up being counterfieght. So into jail I went. It upset some family very much. My Wife has forgiven me my ameediate family has forgiven me. But I have a Step-daughter and her husband, that just seems to hold onto the anger and resentment so tightly. It is like they are watching for every little mistake that I make so that they can say "see he is just a no good bum. Not worth trusting. All he will ever do is lie and deceive."

My Son inlaw is supposidly a good Catholic person. So there is times that I want to tell him that he should read the Bible again. Especially the parts that say that we need to forgive  all people. That we are not to judge. And also where when the people brought the prostitute to Jesus to see what he would do. All the people wanted her stoned for her sins. How ever Jesus sent her on her way. Then he told the others, "Let him who is without sin cast the first stone."

But I suppose that it would not do any good. So I guess I will just carry on. I am doing my best to prove myself once again to my whole family, and I will continue to do so. It will be on them that will not accept my efforts.

I love all of my family so very much. And did not intentally want to hurt any of them. I love my Step-children as much as if they were my own flesh and blood. But it is just so disscuraging when my efferts are just not recognized.

I guess though that as long as my Wife sees and appreiciates my progress, That is all that matters.

I suppose that I have done enough to depress and bore you all that I will leave for now. I promise that the next time I write I will be a little more up beat.

PS   Please excuse any misspelled words. I can not find the spell check on this thing.