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For Those Who Don't Scare Easily
12:32 PM - October 28, 2008 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoyThe KissThis morning I found myself thinking of an entry I made months ago called "Thoughts That Are Safe Here". Funny how writing isn´t sequential. Well, mine isn't anyway. Sometimes a work is born long before its title.
If I had it to do all again, I thought, I'd have named that entry "The Kiss" after a lovely work of art I beheld once by the same name, and the imagery it mustered.
In this case, the poem just had to grow into it's title. I can't change that poem's name now (that would confuse it!)...but I can still write another one worthy of the name, The Kiss..
I logged on to get some back-up writing in tonight, but the lovely foliage, the smell of Fall and this frosty chill in the air makes me want to do things of another sort. =)
So, without further ado, I present to you..
The Kiss You. With me. Beneath the autumn trees Awash in nature´s majesty Electric sky And dewy life beneath The universe, so vast And we, minute Yet so complete You smile, I grin, Your brown eyes take me in
Deliberate explorers Your hands Moving with a purpose Your fingers snag a curl Around my neck Your stare adores a spot That your lips Might visit next You smile, I grin, Your breathing pulls me in With you I can feel everything- Your head upon my thigh Your touch so sure, Yet cautiously restrained You touch the rain, Upon my breast So cold, So wet, But you´re so warm. Your eyes So calm, so bold And my heart is the storm You smile, I grin Your senses breathe me in.. I whisper, "You have me now" And you smile... I grin... Your blue soul pulls me in.
6:04 PM - October 23, 2008 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoyHalloween PreviewFinding my Victorian roots..
5:56 PM - October 23, 2008 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoyA Little WYAK (What You Already Knew) Goes a Long WayNow, I´m no speed reader (okay I am), but it appears that passportphoto.net didn´t make it onto Time´s Best Websites of 2008 list. I can´t help but wonder why. Every year, the Times saves surfers like us a little effort by bunching together all the best of the net. There´s something for everyone here, and variety has always been the whipped cream on my pumpkin pie {hears a growling down below}. Never write when you´re hungry.. Anywho, passportphoto.net is the only website I´ve visited thus far that a) let´s you get an account started with zero personal info in less than five questions and b) allows you to upload photos straight from your smartphone, without an email link. Shame on photobucket, an old haunt I thought I could count on. Even myspace servers go looney when you try to direct upload from core memory. Dozens of popular photo websites haven´t hopped on the mobile upload bandwagon. Still...the sorry, error-ridden experiences I had at most of those websites paled in comparison to Picturetrail, a site I´d like to call the " lurid back alley of picturedom". Trying to sign up there is the equivalent of a third party gang bang. I felt so dirty. Naturally, passportphoto.net was firewalled at my office. To my delight, they have a "backdoor entrance" at photo101.net. Sneaky. Which means this one´s surely a website after my own heart. I think I´m in wuv. LoL Well, I´ve got my nominee for next year under the handy tools section. Have you anything to add to the top 50? http://www.time.com/time/specials/2007/article/0,28804,1809858_1811192,00.html 7:28 PM - October 20, 2008 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoyMicro ShockI can't believe everything I've ever written is able to fit on something the size of my thumb nail.
My thumb.
This is what my whole life amounts to.
OHH! THE HUMANITY!!
{Faints}
3:47 PM - October 20, 2008 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoyFree Paper ThumperI'm a free newspaper whore, yes I am. If it's fit to print (or especially if it's not) and it costs nada, it's very likely tucked under my arm. I could toss a quarter to that guy on the Grand Concourse for a copy of the Daily News, but I'd walk away hating myself. Why? It's not as if I'd miss the quarter. It's mainly because I have always believed, and still do to this day, that the best things in life are free. And the best things in New York are too. Ballsy thing to say during the onset of a recession, but it bares repeating that I was raving about AM New York way before they sent me a complimentary Tilt. That was icing on my cake. They had me at hello. I was so impressed by the ease at which they sum up current events in a few neat, intelligent paragraphs that I actually started to read the news and not just the horoscope and crossword. Current events often depress me so it's a big accomplishment to have me following the headlines. While I never minded all that buff, oily booty scattered about the back pages in the 90's, it's become over 50 percent arse in the past ohhhh five years. I wouldn't mind it much if all that sweaty skin had a story behind it, but it's just page after page of ads for hair removal, liposuction, swing clubs, health & wellness spas I can't afford. Ug! Talk about overkill!! I'm a New Yorker. Since the genius invention of the low-rider pant, I've been witness to butt-crack cleavage of apocalyptic proportions. There comes a point in every human's life when you have to say, "In the name of all that is palatable, NO MAS!!" I might still have to look at the waist of that woman's size two jeans laboring under the weight of her size ten cheekage on the bus, but, by golly, I wasn't going to choose to be overrun by it in Manhattan's War (and Piece) of T&A.
Like a few people I've known, I found it ultimately lacking in substance and just (yawns) got bored with it. So, I became a rebel. I would fight the glute-tony and put down the Village Voice. For good.
Or so I thought.
One morning weeks ago, the Voice started calling to me again. I passed by it's little case that said, "FREE! TAKE ONE!", sadly still full. Back in the day, you had to be pounding the pavement p-r-e-t-t-y early just to get your hands on a copy of the Voice. I'd forgotten to pick up my copy of AM, and was feeling charitable. Then there was that pang of familiarity, of what me and the Voice once had...(sighs) It wasn't half bad. I've been missing out on a GREAT horoscope by Rob Brezsny and my life would've been lacking if I hadn't caught this year's Best of NYC list which includes categories like "BEST STORE IN WHICH TO GET FELT UP" or "BEST PLACE TO RE-CREATE YOUR ENTIRE VIDEO-GAME SETUP, CIRCA '93" or how about "BEST REASON TO GO DOWN A BUSHWICK SIDE STREET AT NIGHT".
Loose lips sink ships, ya know.
http://www.villagevoice.com/bestof/2008/section/people-and-places-491621/
This butt cleavage brought to you by flickr. 6:05 PM - October 16, 2008 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoyNovel TidbitAlright, so the Jack and Diane novel got...sidetracked. I never seem to be able to pursue a task loyally. Although 2 more chapters have been produced, "Devon and Diane" and "Sex and Diane", they are incomplete. I've got other stuff stewing in my pot and, rather than producing an inferior product, I decided to save to draft indefinitely. I've been having problems getting in touch with my emotions lately, possibly because some of my needs are being met away from the keyboard.
In the heart of a writer, however, there is no such thing as true satisfaction. We are dreamers and the void inside us does not exist to be filled. It exists because we need it to be there, a driving thirst that makes us keep wondering what mysteries and adventures might lie beyond our limited view of the horizon. In other words, a writer's gotta' write. No matter what.
With a limited amount of free time, and change for the better still going on, the one thing I still have time to do during lunch is edit. All my manuscripts are going online, slowly but surely. I've gathered up my journals, sheets of loose paper, napkins, shoebox fragments and various other articles I've written on over the last two decades into a musky pile for just such a task. I am (still) computerless at home right now, so a small bag comes with me to work every day and my fingers, despite being so fast that their speed can no longer be measured in WPMs, have quite a task ahead of them.
This is something I've always wanted to do, and I think I might get a kick out of comparing the me I am now..to the me I was then.
When it comes to genre, I've basically always been a spinner of sci-fi epics. Sometimes it's hard (and disappointing) when you stray away from what you know and excel at. I found the following segment in some eight year old paperwork (that's a rather new pile); It demonstrates one of my crispier attemtps to think outside my category and try something exciting and new. Actually, I enjoyed the hell out myself writing this and someday I do plan to finish it.
It's the beginning of an erotic comedy called, "Levya in the Land of Nymph". I won't give too much away, but there is much talk of nipples and reptilian fellatio is not an impossiblity. Here's a teaser paragraph from chapter one...
'A little while back, I started having these really twisted (though strangely arousing) dreams about a princess in this mystic land called NYMPHA..At first, I'd just wake up in the morning satisfied as Hell and thought nothing of it, and people'd be telling me all day long, "Geeze, Levi, you're just glowing today...Are you using a new shampoo? Wearing a new shade of lipstick?"
How was I supposed to tell them I was getting buggered out of mind in my dreams every night by a shape-changing hunk who knows G-Spots on a woman that have yet to be discovered by 21st century medical science?
I thought they'd go away, but every night they just kept getting more intense...and this character named Phallon, this sorcerer knight, kept getting more and more ardent. So I've started writing my dreams down...'
3:20 PM - September 28, 2008 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoyTroll Book FairsBack in the eighties (shut up), I couldn't wait for this time of year. One of the major events at school was the annual book fair. As soon as we saw the those fliers pasted in the hallways, we'd be giddy in our seats, awaiting our own copy to take home.
To teach, it might have been a sheet of newspaper folded in four and color copied..but to us it was yet another reason to make our parents waste a few bucks on us. Yayyy! I always loved the how-to's and anthology type spook stories. I needed a lot of bang for my mom's buck. Back then, kids got excited about books, yes books, no DVDs, CD Roms or enhanced media included! =P
Stephen King, Danielle Steele and Nancy Drew were all the rage and the idea of becoming a novelist meant that maybe someday..you could be the world's latest obsession, too!
In related news, I had to take a walk to my local library today. For those of you who don't know it, you can't take advantage of eBay's newest instant purchase option on a cell phone's wifi connection. Not that I can consider a device without a sim card a phone, technically. With one day left to snag a Halloween goody I had my eye on and no payment options to speak of, I reluctantly decided to get off my arse and bare the shame of making a (arghhh!) reservation at a public library. Serves me right for being an internet pirate, I suppose.
To my sweet, sweet surprise, I managed to sail in around 3 pm and secure a terminal without waiting on line, even in a room full of school kids. (Didn't get that sweet guy's name, but I owe him one!)
Had I not noticed the long line of people with returns as I was leaving, this blog would not exist... Every single, fruckin' person was waiting to bring back a DVD.
In a library.
Not one book to speak of.
Naturally, on my way out, I glanced up at the building and made sure, first and foremost, that I hadn't accidently walked into a Blockbuster.
Now I know DVDs at libraries aren't exactly a new development, but CHIT, people! It saddens me to know that it isn't enough to write a book in the year 2008. If I'm going to get any recognition at all, I'll have to ACT my story out in front of a video camera.
And, with all the instant gratification available on the internet, I suppose you'll all be expecting a little full frontal nudity, too... Hmmphhfff!
I'll think about it. LoL 12:45 AM - September 25, 2008 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoyWiggy Wit ItWhen you're utterly unique, you don't really have to try that hard to stand out. Despite being the sore thumb that I am, I try to anyway for Fall's first great holiday.
I find myself bored with the odd, freakish and other-worldly. Afterall, all us droids who are in love with Halloween are expected to try and outdo ourselves (and one another) every single year. The idea that everyone is anticipating what I'll be this Halloween sort of...irritates me.
So I'm putting my freak-mojo on hold this year. If I save it up, my powers of strangeosity should've doubled in strength by next Hallow's Eve.
This year, however, I thought I'd be anti-climactic in the name of spite, fiesty fate that she is. So instead of being something else..
I've been looking into the idea of being someone else...
Okay..So maybe I'll get a last minute urge to paint my skin green, slip into a Grecian gown and be a 60's Star Trek alien girl.
8:20 PM - September 22, 2008 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoyDesk Job BluesI'm caught in a rut.
I realized that this morning when the cashier at my favorite fruit stand was waiting for me with a bag and a plastic fork before I'd even reached the counter with my box of sliced watermelon. I sighed and thought of Prince's ole' Starfish and Coffee song, poked at my melon feebly and thought, "I'm tired of working, tired of sitting in the same seat every day for a decade, of getting up at 7:30 and running for the same bus whether I feel like it or not..."
...."I DON'T WANNA' WORK ANYMORE!! WAHHHHHHH..!!" =/
There's no telling what's going on in the head of that woman idling beside you on the bus. Some of us are screaming inside. Hahaha
I can't see working for another 35 years, all hopes riding on the slim possibility that my government will still have saved me some of my own money for retirement.
Methinks I'm ready to hatch a brainchild and make my first million. I'm ready to put some plans in motion, despite the nest I'm sitting in. 1:58 PM - September 15, 2008 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoyExpanding HorizonsSo the Lollipop song grew on me. I mean, it really attached itself..like barnacles. Hahah. 1:34 PM - September 11, 2008 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoyNatural BeautyI caught the tail end of a movie called "Adrift in Manhattan" this weekend.
I can imagine my life as a photographer. The idea of so many New Yorkers allowing a stranger to capture them from close up that way seems absurd to me...
But if it weren't...
If people were unafraid to be seen as they really are, it might make for an incredible collage. It' s an unfortunate aspect of human nature to care about what others think..and some of us care to the point at which we are giving up precious experiences. If a camera captures us at an unflattering angle, we can always just delete the image in one click..
Could these deletions be the most beautiful sides of ourselves going to waste? 10:00 AM - August 24, 2008 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoyUK Humour...I think Simon Tofield is a genius. You'll thank me later... ;)6:24 PM - August 23, 2008 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoyNo YouTube for HTC BoobsThe first (and often default) stop of choice for many new smartphone owners is usually a great video site, like youtube or dailymotion. Sure, we're interested in the thousand other features that avail us, but what better way to show off those awesome handheld super powers than with full motion video? For many HTC Tilt owners, your first visit to Youtube had to have been a nightmare.
I'm writing this blog to help those of you who are fiddling with this beautiful device right out of the box and feeling absolutely alienated, because you know your wifi link can handle the content you're looking for, but your phone keeps telling you to go scratch. After a while you gave up, thought "this 600 dollar piece of crap is going back", and started to play solitaire..
Fear not, all hope is not gone.
This baby can rock FMV with the best laptops out there. You just have to know where to look for a solution. I'm going to hand this one to you on a silver platter, because I'd hate to see another person hunt the web for weeks like I did for one complete fixer- upper. For me, web research can be compared to "real-life" research in dog years. For every hour I surfed the net only to reach a dead end, I lost the equivalent of SEVEN years of my life in the real world. lol
Since I consider that a great sacrifice, I will at least torture you for the length of one blog while I illustrate the process I went through, before I surrender the info.
Or, you can just scroll down to the highlighted link towards the bottom of the page. There's something for everyone here.
The first step in your quest for knowledge will leave you at a loss for words-keywords, that is. You're not initially sure where the problem lies unless you're a seasoned hacker (and I was out of the loop a LONG time ago!) You'll probably google phrases like "Tilt Windows Media problems" or "Can't see Youtube on HTC". You'll get lots of advice from bloggers that think you can fix this by adding a codec to your Windows Mobile player.
Does absolutely nothing.
Now your Tilt's memory is depleted and you're going to have to go into your file manager and remove all the crap you just downloaded that's corrupted your Windows player. You downloaded RealPlayer somewhere along the way, too, didn't you? Now it starts on it's own when you try to play the media you could play before and freezes all your functions for ten minutes...? You poor sap. Uninstall and resist the urge to wretch everytime you see the Real icon henceforth..
If you took the same steps I did, you'll then be drawn to Core Player references. Hmmm, that little black, ticker tape icon just feels like it's gonna' work when you click on it...
It doesn't.
Ahh, and let's not forget Flash Lite, Adobe's exciting new innovation that will revolutionize cell phone technology as we know it, by shrinking big daddy Flash into a neat, little mobile version of itself that your cell phone can read. I'm sure you hightailed it to the Adobe website and seen an ad where a download button should be, then scanned your sad, little Tilt screen for a that button. You've been looking for half an hour (time flies when you're in hell) and you're wondering if you missed it or if your phone just can't see it.
Sorry, button just doesn't exist.
There is an experimental version of Flash Lite out there, but (as stated on it's download page) this is a commercial-only bundle and will not work with actual applications on the web. Wha..? Don't you read the fine print? It's there for a reason! Hacking Flash Lite for free won't solve the problem, but you're taking the right path as far as having figured out that the answer has to do with hacking a program.
Your neck's probably in pain at this point and you just might be sick of looking at your Tilt. Let's hope you'll fall in love with it all over again when you see what it can really do.
The following blogger is the only one I found who combines the correct procedure and the right 2 program extensions-because this one's not only about what you download, but where you download the file(s) to and in what order! Follow his instructions to the tee and you'll get to enjoy the fact that YouTube has now launched a version of it's website tailored to mobile watchers at m.youtube.com. However, you won't even need youtube's mobile site with these codecs and this angel of a blogger has even included a folder full of other compatible websites you can visit. That folder will turn up in your Start menu once download is complete, so you can get straight to the good stuff. Without any further ado, here's the page: http://forum.xda-developers.com/showthread.php?t=339269 If your TCPMP doesn't work the first time, you probably didn't follow his instructions in order. Bear down, focus and start all over again. If you're confused about whether the PPC or Smartphone download will serve you best, I'd go with the PPC. You'll have to register at a website to access the main codec, but the other is a piece of cake.
Now my only problem is saving too much writing onto my hard drive. Have they invented an HTC Tilt zip drive yet?!?!
3:30 PM - August 23, 2008 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoyAnd in the news..."..If you know you're going to be running for office, keep it in your pants!" ~Unknown correspondent on the CW11 News
Yep, there's a quote that should go down in history..
Rest in peace Isaac Hayes and Bernie Mac. (No relation at all to the comment above) Heaven just became a cooler place to be.
5:50 PM - August 14, 2008 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoyNever sound like you´re trying to get a cust off the phone. When that website tried to reprimand meat renter forum. Blog Title: "It Was a Dust Bunny Shaped Like a Mouse!!" 3 or 4 lasted one or two months. I remember this one Korean lady in particular; She passed all of our drug and credit checks, had intense experience in the customer service industry. Her second day here she FREAKED out, shakes and all. That was the last time we saw her. Haha | ||||||||||||||||
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