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Cazmia's Shadow Writing

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I'm a little hurt tonight..okay a lot hurt. Who would've thought a new age, would create so many new age problems? Some days you're on top of the world, and others you feel like the freak no one wants to talk to.

Ehh, I dunno..I've lost the capacity to care and yet, I do. The idea that I might document my life on the internet once appealed to me. Now that very same idea horrifies me, because that desire was one of an artist who wanted to capture a vision..a certain, powerful point of view, a world inside. Instead, I feel lost to a trend where life is a public affair and NOTHING is left unsnapped, unfilmed and uncaptured.

The viral internet, it's cheapened the dream I once had. It's too easy to peer into a thousand different people's lives and I'm afraid I just almost got pulled into the trend.

Almost. You see, my hubby has a Facebook page now.

Me? I've never been a social butterfly. Had I been as mature as I'd like, it wouldn't mean a thing that I'm not on his friend's list (although a picture of me is in his profile collection..I'm not a complete leper!).

I have noticed, though, that he hasn't accepted my friend request.

That, combined with having been alienated by another person I (once) called a friend, can make a person start to ask too many why questions about themselves. See, I've always thought I was a fun an easygoing soul..

When you've been barred from a friend's list or to, it suddenly makes you feel as if people might not receive some of the "fun" vibes you send, the way you meant them. It's like that guy on the twilight zone who innocently gets out of bed one day and finds that everyone around him has suddenly started to speak jibberish.

For a while, he's sure all his friends and loved ones are daft, that there's something out of kilter with the whole universe. But it just goes to show that any one exposed to a contrary notion long enough..starts to believe it.

By the end of the episode it was him who finally started to ask, "could it be I'M the one there's something wrong with"?

And that's how I'm feeling. A little alienated..a little shaken..a little lost..

Because I hate second guessing myself..and I hate caring about being a part of something I abhor. I guess it's human nature. A sad aspect of it anyhow. Strange, how a phenomenon that seems custom made to make it easier for people to share, can also tear them apart.

It's the way of the world, I guess. I'm looking for a silver lining, but I find more fear than anything else of this brave new world...

I've lived a lotta' life in a short time

Though life is rough.

It'll never be enough

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It's not worth sweatin the little things

Cause life's too short, life's too short

It hurts, you're falling apart

Though you can't change a thing

You blame yourself

Cry...cry..but what's meant will come to pass

When your eyes run dry