The relentless turmoil has tormented my days for almost a week now to a point where  I know I've reached the pinnacle. The last two days  I've given myself for casting a decisive turnabout  on how things should become for me and our lives thereafter are about to unfold, today being the first of the two.

I was almost at the brink of exhaustion when I finally got my better choices laid out before me and yet each of them  compelling options may pose several predominating setbacks, almost opposite of the other. Alas, my desperation's salvation only brought about a more confusing situation for me.

My loyalty is now at stake but pragmatic concerns beg to call my attention far louder than the former. I can barely justify the compulsion to stay when I know I am as repulsive to it as two poles of a magnet repeling eah other's pull.

I would never have known how the forces would have conspired to keep me within the borders of my limits, but transcending the limits is what I am bound to do best. This is what I have come to realize in the years of being in the industry and in the years  experience has taught me on the purposefulness and multi-faceted aspects of  occupation. Work has taught me well and yet my knowledge deemed feeble and meager compared to an old oak whithered by the sands of time. The masters of my craft have perfected their skills and honed their strategies that I am left at the mercy of their open hands, right at the tip of their ballpoints, at the snap  of their fingers.

My choices are limited, either way I am the risk of losing the other. The possibilities are limitless and yet my alternatives have been cut down to two- both equally enticing,  both equally worthy of risking. Or are they?

Mind-boggling questions roused through my mind just as timely as I've learned to play my cards on the table. If they have mustered the execution of the game, why can't I? The aces are still on my side.  The difference is how you put the stakes to your benefit and how you roll the dice.  The game has just begun. It may not matter which battle you have won just as long as you win the prize.  Victory may be sweeter than  defeat but to achieve your purpose for triumph is the sweetest victory of them all. Will you consume or be consumed?