Why am I not selected?

Why? Why? Why?

I am looking forward to this trip for very long.

I think that this trip can allow me to gain new friends, knowledge and experience.

But now...

Why is she selected?

Why am I not?

Why are the criteria?

I am feeling so down.

Take a look around
Don't you see it
See that you are
the only real face in the room
No one here has a clue
to what you are feeling right now
Don't feel bad
Keep your sadness alive

Look at all these happy people
Living their lives
Look at all these plastic people
There is nothing inside
Look at all these shallow people
Telling their lies

Don’t you know
The Misery loves company
Yeah I heard
The Misery was looking for me
Happiness, is a face
that don't look good on me
Yeah I heard
The Misery comes looking for me
Whoa, misery's my company
Whoa, misery is looking for me
Looking for me

The hands are up now
Everybody see it
Everybody is moving
They program their feelings
They are syncronizing,
And criticizing
Don't feel bad
Keep your sadness alive

Don't you know this misery loves me

So you are tired of running
You are tired of hurting
You are tired of living in their lies
You are tired of listening
You are tired of hurting

Keep your sadness alive, alive

My results for the MYE were being released yesterday.

I expected to fail some,but I did not.

Even so, I didn't really pass with flying colours, not even with ' walking colours'.

I think I am going to fail my combined humanities.

I did not really want to fail any of my subjects.

I am going to study harder while the rest are resting because I have a lot more to catch up.

I got a 2.4 km re-test today during P.E. lesson.

I had to re-run even though I passed.

I am glad that I made an improvement, by one second...

I just do not understand why must some people run away from problems.

Why are they so timid?

Is it so hard for people to express their thoughts, feelings?

I am so tired.

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!
NO MORE NONSENSE!

Dao di shi shui?

Wo zhen de shi hen bei ai.

Zi ji xi huan shui dou bu qing chu.

Shi  ta  hai shi  ta ?

Ta liang de bro zhen de shi hen ba gua!

shi bu shi wo tai ming gan le?

wei he ta liang zong xi huan send wo yi xie rang wo zhe ge mi hu 'chong' hui wu hui de msg?

Agrr~! Fan si ren le.

 Ta  kan bu qi  ta  zi ji, ren wei  ta  bi jiao shi he wo.

Wo ne, jiu ke neng mi hu dao ba yang mu wu jie cheng xi huan.

 Ta  na me duo cai duo yi, jiu lian  ta  ye jue de zhe yang.

 Ta  xi huan de nv sheng shi yao ke ye bi  ta  hao,tan qin bi  ta  bang,

and I am no where near that standard of his.

Er wo ren wei  ta  jiu bi jiao hui he hu yu teng ai wo.

 Ta  ye bu hui yao qiu wo shen me.

Huo xu ta bi jiao shi he wo.

Zhe ke neng jiu shi wo she wang de ping deng ai qing ba.

 Ta shuo  ta  bu xiang zai zhe shi kai shi shen me lian qing,

yin wei  ta  ren wei wo men xian zai de zhi ze jiu shi yao du shu.

Bu zhi cong he shi kai shi, mei ri xiang  ta  sa jiao, yi cheng wei le part of wo de timetable! 

-hehe- lum lum shuo bu guan shi shui, wo dou hui xiang ta men sa jiao!

-siao liao la-

I am so frustrated!

So who is the one I like?

-bored-

Is  he  just an illusion of mine?

Is  he  really the one for me?

I start to have doubts in my feelings towards him .

Why is  he  so nice to me?

Doesn't  he know that cancerians are very sensitive?

Oh man~

I am so pathetic cause I don't even know who is the one I like.

I really don't wanna think so much, but I just can't help it.

-hate this brain of mine-

Oh my goodness! Simply just cannot believe that  I am going out with  him !!!

E maths and Physics Is like a total disaster...hope that Chemistry can be better!

 -oh my,my owner is love-strucked again ( smitten too! )

Today's exams ( a maths & HCL P2 ) were like a  'tsunami after a  tornado' ...

Like my passage in my HCL P2.

Will translate into english and post it up here after all my exams.

Will be experiencing more 'storms'...

Gotta study,

Chaos~

It is exceptionally warm today! -> Global Warming

 Can't sleep,

Can't study.

Need to drink lots of water,

am going to visit the toilet more often.

Don't wanna fall sick before the trip.

imy.

Can't wait for the day to arrive.

I wanna SING!!!

I wanna SING!!!!!!
I WANNA SING!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Is HE coming?

 Is HE singing?

 OH GOODNESS!!!

 -sad-

Feel like dying.

Can't help it anymore.

All I do everyday,

is to think of him.

Am I over smitten?

I wanna forget him,

but I know this is an impossible task.

ilh.

happy birthday to him.

Why must people think that I wanna fight with them?

What do I have in me that they see,that made them want to treat me as their rival?

Why did THEY treat me like that?

What did I do wrong?

Why must they ignore me?

Why must they irritate me?

Can't we live together harmoniously?
-sad-

Are we fated to be together?

I love my besties-ECP,ERP,SLE,KJE,Lum Lum,lee 'huang',racheal,sheryl,evan,mina,fiky,councillor's 'family',

although it might be only for just 1 ++ more years,

this is enough,

I will keep these happy memories in part of my memory~

- smiles-

might never forget him

I think I am falling to pieces...

well,don't wanna let him know how much I feel towards him

this totally sucks a lot.

didn't regret confessing my love...

Ilu.