ok, now i dont remeber bothering anybody, especially omar. i mean?i dont get his attitude.

it all started when i went to my science teacher to give her my hw. he was coming out the room and i was going in, then he said to me nobody wants me in the classroom, which he doesnt really do, so i was like all confused. then on the lunch line, the kids were pushing to get in, and he was on the line too, and then when i got in, and he didn't, i caught him looking at me so i stuck my tongue out at him, cuz i wasnt talking to him. then when me and julia went to her house, he was walking the same way as us. then julia said tht she caught?him looking at me. but i really didnt care. then we started to walk behind him, and i knw i'm mad at him, but he said "what?" the cutest way yesterday lol. ok, back to being mad.?we just passed him, cuz well, i am not speaking to him, not at all not al all.

and today, when me and my friends came downstairs from lunch detension, he was down there, and then as soon as we?sat down, he got up and went upstairs. i have no idea y he's so fuckin angry at me?when i didnt do shit. goddamn it! i'm just tired. i truly am tired. and i dont give a fuck if he's reading this cuz?he needs?to knw the fuckin truth.

and by the way, angelo cut his hair. he looks muchhhhhhhhh better now.

Today was my class trip to the Intrepid, which is this big ship in NY harbor. The only reason why I want on the trip is because they had a McDonalds in there, so you know that story lol. when we were walking to school, it was raining. and it was raining as we left to get on the train.

when we got there, we went into this theatre we we saw this wack movie. then me and myra went onto this flight stimulator in which i and neither did myra know how to control so we kept going around in circles, but it was really fun. after that, we went and looked around the ship and then we went to eat at mickey d's. then we left to go to the gift shop in which i bought a pen and pencil and a "star" globe which is really cool. then once we left the musuem, i found out that i lost my wallet, but i found it thank the lord.

well thats all i've gots to say about my day, so i'll see you guys around. peace.

Ok today was like one of the most beautifuliest days in my life. lol. the weather was wonderful, and plus school ended 3 hours earlier then it was supposed to. although, there were some problems that had to ruin the day. but let me tell u wht happened:

i met up with my friends in which myra baked this beautiful cake(thnx a whole bunch). we went to school together blah blah blah... when i got inside the school, some students and my math teach gave me some money, which has never happened to me b4. then, we had the party during gym and then we went home.

we some how got distracted and went inside the playground to have a snow ball fight lol. and while we were waiting for god knows wht, i saw omar coming down the block w/ kimberly. then she was like to him "omar come here' and then, she kissed him. i dunno if it was on the cheeks or lips, but i just know that she did. i bet they go out now. but i don't really care. cause well, i sort of get used to this stuff because it like always happens to me, so i mean what can u do??

then while we were in the playground, we were having a snow ball fight in the hot weather, and the snow was melting into slushy ice. i wanted to leave but "he" was there, so i just stayed and man did i get hit with madd snowballs. then someone through one at him, in which he was all upset and swearing to his mom  (they swear too much lol) and then he ran to his bro and was like, they  hit me and blah blah blah it was really funny. then they left to the outside of it and then they started throwing ICE in which on hit me right on the thigh, but i just hope it was accidental.

well, tomorrow my class is going on a trip to the Intrepid, and well it should be very nice so, i'm going to go bye!!!

sorry guys that i couldn't come on yesterday, i had soooo many things to do. but the good news is that i am back today. well i'm going to first tell you what happened yesterday:

me and my friends had 40 min off of school, so we all went inside the yard which was full of snow and had the biggest snowball fight. there was this guy named michael who kept tackling me like we were playing football or something. my back still hurts from that.

then today, we had another snowball fight which went to out of hand. i mean, there was practically the whole school there. and to make things worst, some of the snow melted so it turned into slush and ice, which they were using me as a target, and someone hit me in the eye! i mean ouch!!! not funny at all!.

ok, now that i got that topic over with, let me tell you what a certain sumbody did. ok, it was lunch time, and he was on the lunch line, he was right behind me, with my friend arthur right in front of me. then he took out his cell phone and put it right in arthur's ear. i mean don't he think sumtimes?? then hector came and was like to him that that song was nice and stuff, and he was like "all puerto ricans like that song" i mean, what does he have against PRs? I have PR in me, but o well. then when i was arguing w/ jonathon, he yelled right in my ear, talking about some shut up. so i just turned around and screamed at him and was like don't yell in my ear. and he gave this look, he looked like he wanted to laugh, but he was just holding it in. so i repeated what i said, but this time i was all in his face(on purpose duh!) and he didn't say anything, i mean if some other girl were to go up in his face and do the same thing, he would just yell back at them. but he didn't do that and he didn't do it last time. so i'm just going to take this as a good thing. but then like 10 seconds later, he had the nerve to ask me to pass him milk. and not just one carton, but two. i did it anyway, because well, i didn't want to seem like the mean girl who doesn't seem interested. and then later on, there were just 4 packets of ketchup, and i took them all, and then he gave me this puppy eyed look, talking about some, "can i have one please?" and i was just like "i passed u milk, not u want my ketchup?" but he was just going to walk away, and then i was like omar wait, and i gave him one, thts it. lol hahahahahahahahahahahahhhhhahahahahahahah(cough)hahahahahaha.

oh yeah, and then on our way home, or should i say the snowball fight, omar was leaving the building, so then myra pushed me, and then had the nerve to be talking about some, "chynna, y u walking so fast?" and then he turns around and gives me this smirk. and to make myself innocent, i was like i dunno, u tell me why, but then, he switched the direction he was going in and came behind me. he is veryyyyyy confusing. well i have to go now because it's almost time for american idol so peace.

today was one of the strangest days ever. it was one of those days that it wouldn't be wierd if someone were to jump off a bridge or sumthing. i woke up arund 7:10, and my mom was downstairs waiting for my bro's bus to arrive (which it never did, go figure!). so then an hour passes, and she still didn't come inside the house. i was waiting for her to finish curling my hair, but i just did it myself, which it didn't come out so bad.

i had to take my bro and sis to school, so i didn't get to class until 9:50. there were not many children in today, which made things go by much smoother. we had to go to science third period, and which to my luck, omar's class was just leaving. he was still there helping ms. nurse, and i had the plan to try and start a convo w/ him today. so the subject was his mom. i just sweetly asked, "was that your mom i saw saturday?" and then he looked at me, and i saw that he got blue contacts. he looks soo freaky with them on. well now i know that his mom is fat, just like mine (hehehehehehehe).

then came time for gym. we were able to have free time, in which myra kept getting hit in the face w/ basketballs lol. then when it was time to leave, i saw omar coming out the gym. i was going to make fun of his eyes, but then i was like nah... but he had to be the stupid one to make fun of my name again,(but i just realized after speaking to my cuz that that is way form of flirting, go figure!)  tht idiot. then while i was in CA class, he was getting scolded by the principal, assisant princpal, and a secerity gaurd. i was just soo shocked that he didn't seem to care (well, not actually, cause i met boys like him before at my oldest bro's school, but this is like my first time liking one, and having one like me back lol). and his bro was there too, talking about some "oh, i swear to my mother..." now wouldn't it be funny that something were to happen to her(GOD FORBID!!!) just for him saying that? no it wouldn't actually lol. then when mr. st. aubain came and closed the door, omar came and he was just looking through the glass, at first i started to give him the "hey your cute look(lol!)", but then I was getting annoying, so then i just turned my head, but then when he left, myra was like he was starring dead at me. at that point, he was getting very freaky.

then at lunch, myra her hungry self was like the first one on the lunch line, so then we all followed her, and then omar was there too. i was like one person behind him, and he was talking to this boy about his contacts. and the boy was like " blue eyes don't look right on Puerto Ricans" and i know it wasn't any of my business, but i just had to agree. but then he was like to me, "i'm not puerto rican, i'm dominican" i just reponded with a i knew that, in which i actually did know, since i read it in one of his social studies letters.

then in SS, he came in the classroom, pretending to have to get sumthing out of the closet. but then like 10 min later, i saw his bro come up to the door's glass, and stare dead at me! i'm soooo scared now.

well thats enough of my love life, let me talk about my school life. as u know, i came close to the cut-off score for Brooklyn Tech, and that i was going to apply for a spot in their summer school so that i can be accepted, but that won't happen because i needed a 485, in which i was shy of 8 points, which is like 2 questions, which is very painful. well i just know that sumthing good is going to come out of that because EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON!!! well i'm going to go now, so bye yall!

hello again guys. It's a blizzard here in NY and news is saying that there may not be any school tomorrow for us . it's soooooooo boring today. i can't go outside and play, nor can i talk to anybody besides my Blog audience.

theres nothing really interesting to say about me, so i'm going to address the issues of WolfGirl . I think it's ironic that your ex's cuz likes you. i mean, he doesn't care or know what happened between you and michael? i mean, what does he think, your going to go with him too? i mean, that would make a ho or sumthing, which we all know your not.  and i think that David is trying to be a real cupid, don't you think? he's trying his very best to get me and omar together lol. well i can't wait til tomorrow cause if we do have school, there is going to be a big snowball fight!!!! see ya!

I know, I know, it's a saturday... why am i writing journal entries on a saturday? and i bet you answered your own question with "oh it's probably another dream, or she has to talk about her 'love life'" well, it's sort of like tht. let me explain:

my mom came home from work with my bday cake (and hopefully myra, i can save you a piece, if i can hide it from april!) and she asked me what i wanted for the party. i said pizza and we were on our way to Pathmark to get the pizzas and to stock up on the food for the blizzard.

i had to mail my magazine subscription, and i did, and we were own our way to the train station to buy our car fare. we were near omar's house, and i was looking at it to see if he was home. next thing i knew, the gate flew open. and i was just hoping and praying that it was his neighbor coming out. then i saw a lady come out. i was like phew! but what do you know, he comes out right behind her. and to my luck, it  wasn't his brother, nor his sister. it just had to be him. he had on this white hat that made him look like a marshmellow lol. i was just whispering to myself "you've gots to be kidding me" he just walked down the stairs very slowly looking at me and probably thinking "what is she doing here?" then he and his mom i guess went inside the cab where he just sat there waiting for me to make my move. the only thing i could think of was "take our your cell and call myra to make yourself busy". so i did. he was still sitting there as his "mom" asked the cab driver to take them to their designation. so as i was talking, i just gave a little wave, and he gave me a "head's up".

and five minutes later, while we were waiting for the bus, there was a car accident. it wasn't big, but the rear end of a car was damaged. and while all of this was happening, i was still thinking "lord, i thought i asked you to let omar be the last person i see!" lol!!!!!

well once we got to pathmark, it was reallllllllly crowded there, so we ran back home with just a little bit of stuff. well, i'm going to go now before my mind goes completely balistic! peace.

Hey guys i miss this place soooooooo much! The reason why i couldn't come on here was becuase i was on punishment again! well, i'm going to try my best to try and remember everything.

Monday- i was walking in the hallways minding my own business. but then myra's stuoid self pushed me into omar. so then later on, i pushed her into him. it wasn't a good experience for him, but it didn't feel nice to be in his arms lol

Tuesday- because of the extended day for very slow students, my afterschool didn't start til 3:27pm. so until then, me and shakalya and myra went walking around when we ran into a fight that was between two girls.

wednesday- i dont think anything happened this day. i'm trying to remember, but i can't sorry.

thursday- gabrielle and her stupid self went and told omar that she THINKS that i like him and that he should ask me out. and after that, he's been scaring me like crazy. and kept looking at me, more than usual at least. and at lunch, i thought that he had left, but he actually didn't. he had came near my table, looking for me. and when he saw that i wasn't near the table, he looked towards the lunch line. then i started to dodge him, at which he started to laugh at me and then he he just shrugged his shoulders and went on his way. i tell u, i am sooo funny lol.

now today- umm well let's see. today we got the results for the specialized high schools, and unfortuneatly, i didn't get in, but i missed by like 5 questions, which is ironic cause there was like 5 questions tht i didn't understand. well on the plus side, i got the highest score in my entire school which was a 477!!!  but still, it's pretty sad now. but let me get to the craziness of my day. ok, at gym, i lost one of my earrings. and i didn't relize it til i got into math class. but lucily i did find it. and then afterschool, i was just acting really stupid. i saw omar coming, so i wanted to slow down for him so i was moving "slow motion" and then i felt stupid that he passed me, so then i started to walk in "fast motion" lol! then once we got outside, david came up to me and was like tht out old classmate tiffany was wondering why he didn't get left back like she did. but then stupid omar came up to him and started talking about latisha. but then myra was calling him a f***ing pussy, but he just ignored it. but she kept saying it, and then he was like "i admit it, i said that your f***ing ugly" tht was not right for him to say, but still she didn't have the right to say tht to him either. well, he kept looking back at me to see if i was talking about him, but i seriously have no time for him.

well thats all i gots to say peace. o and yeh i hope tht everyone has a better valentine's day than mine, cause mine is going to suck.

i'm ova at my friends house writing my blogs right now. i had like one of the best days of my life. now i am sre that he likes me now. i had to sacrifice gym to help my HR teach get her bulletin board up. and tht same period, omar's class was with her. i was soooo nervous, it was like i couldn't really do anything. and there was a time tht i had to go inside the classroom and get sumthing. and then as soon as i walked inside, the class was all like "hey chynna" and stuff and he gave me like the weirdest look of all. and after tht i didn't want to go inside the classroom anymore, cause i didnt know wht his next approach was going to be.

the next time i saw him was at lunch. there was problems behind and me and then i turned around to see wht was happening, and then i saw omar there looking at me. i just slowly turned around cause he was really freaking me out. then when it came time to go on the line, omar was bothering this girl, and i was like don't mess w/ her, but then he was like "it wasn't me, i can't reach tht far..." and he kept looking at me to see if i was going to do sumthing about it, but i was like nah...

then it was last period we wanted to help our teach out again, which by coincident his class was there again... so we were waiting in the back of the class room waiting for ms. O to correct the papers. and then there were times at which he would turn to look at me, but i pretened not to see him. and then he got madd jolly that he was in Ms. Nurse class for afterschool. and he got a promotion in doubt letter. i swear he has issues. well i'm going to go now becuz my friends pc keeps disconnecting. so bye!!!!

I bet once you saw the title, you thought something bad happened to me today. well something good actually happened today. but i think that it was a lie, although, i really don't think hat it was a lie because why would he say him out of all people? but before i get to tht, i would like to let you knw that today was crazy. there was fight, after fight, after fight in the cafeteria. and also my SS teacher is being mean. she gave me lunch and gym detention which i think is really unfair because i did my work, and i didn't talk, all i did was laugh at juan for getting the detetion. but now i'm going to ignore her, so that should make things much much better for me :)

ok, back to the happy part. today, my good ol' friend from kindergarten came up to me afterschool and was like "you know i love yo right?" and i was like i love you too, but then he said "you know who else loves you?" and I was like who? and then he said "omar, that guy right there w/ the cap on" i swear, i was speechless, i couldn't really say anything, all i could do was say ok?? and then walk away. but once i got outside tht building, i was running w/ joy and just screaming and stuff. but i really don't know wht to do next. myra says to ask him out, but i really don't ever have those good moments. i ususally have one or two, but they come unexpectingly. i just wish that i had powers like Raven, but, i guess that would take the fun out of people's lives, wouldn't it? lol. well i'm going to go now, so i'll see ya tomorrow, peace.

hey guys. today was a day where it wasn't like exciting, but it wasn't boring either. O yeh and thanks arny for that comment, that did sort of make me feel some what better, just besides the part that you said i had issues, cause i can actually see that already. well i'm going to go see American Idol now so peace.

Hey you guys! I would like to say that I am feeling alittle better now. I'm not saying that he actually DID something, but I dunno, I just be in my moodswings sometimes lol. but thanks fightingfemale for commenting. i don't have anyone i can really talk to besides my friend from kindergarten, but he hardly comes to school so i guess that spy plan is over. lol

but i guesss that I shouldn't worry, i mean he doesn't really tease me heavily, it's just that he keeps giving me these freaky looks. well, i can't really blog now because i have two research papers that are due tomorrow so see ya!                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           

Umm ok, I now see that its not "him" who is too shy. It is me. I am the one pushing myself from him. I had the perfect oppurtunity to talk to him. THE PERFECT OPPURTUNITY!!!! But no, I automatically got away somehow. Heres what happened:

It was third period and his class was coming out of science. I had science next, and when I walked inside the classroom, he was still there. So I started to talk to Ms. Nurse, and tried to buy me time until he left. He sat right in Sara's desk, which is the desk next to mine. So, you know can see why I didn't seat there.

What I've could have done was sit there and say whts up or just sit there with my notebook out. But I see I am not capable of doing that. That is why I feel hurt inside. I always push him away. And I can't make fun of him, cause that just makes him upset. And I really do feel like giving up, but something just won't let me. I just wish, I really do wish that there was something that I could do to go back in time and don't meet him at all. In fact, I wish that I didn't even attend Newton, that way, he couldn't have met me. But i guess that I just have to face the fact of knowing that we will never be together.

well, off that subject now, let me tell you what happened in school today. It was last period and we were going to our next class from lunch. Bernard had tried to pick a fight with Angelo (omar's bro) and well, Bernard didn't want to(good boy!). But, Angelo came inside the classroom and started to punch him and stuff. So then Jissette and Aseena told Bernard that he should stick up for himself. but, bernard still didn't want to. Then Ms. Tarter came and kicked bernard outside the classroom w/ angelo!! that was the meanest thing she could ever do. I actually felt pity for him.

ok, back to me. My heart is really hurt. But it's not like I can just stop liking him unless he does sumthing disgusting or uncool, then that would stop me. But he would least likely do that. I guess I could also stop if he was just ugly, but I guess that will never happen. unless he got caught in a fire or somthing (GOD FORBID!!!!). But I would love it if you readers would just wish the best for me. Ok peace out.

I wanted to hurry up and write this dream down before i forget it, it seems to mean something:

ok, I was at a police department, where i was looking through the book to see who've they arrested. i found out that Arthur B and Omar were arrested, so i sneaked them out the back with the help of a few other police officers. we were on top of a roof, and then we were in kings plaza. Afterwards, we were in fornt of our school waiting for a bus to come and pick us up to go on the trip. Tanika and the entire eighth grade was there. Omar's hair has grown back.

I have no idea what this dream is trying to tell me, but I just have a feeling that I am going to need it later on. See ya later!

Nothing really happened today. I mean, things did happen, but it wasn't something that i would come on here and scream about. but now my life is getting too boring :| I just wish that something out of the blue exciting would happen. And my SHSAT results come in two weeks, and i am feeling very nervous. I doubt that I am going to get into any of the schools. It would be great if I did, but yet again, if I do, I would most likely be alone w/ someone that i don't communicate with, or i'll just be alone period.

Ok now, I really need to get things straight with Omar. Myra says that I should just forget about him, and once he sees that, then he would be crawling to me. But I really don't think that that plan would work, since he would think that I am not interested. His bro was giving me this weird look, and if him and Omar are "keeping" something from me, then I guess that I better watch out. i bet he thinks that Myra likes him, since yesterday I was like Myra therwe goes ur BF, and she actually said hi to him afterwards. But if i were to say hi, he would be all jolly and stuff. O and did I tell you that once lunch first started, i was in the sit facing the front of the cafeteria, which is where he usually sat. But he didn't even sit there. He sat like at his table. Coincidence, I don't think so. He was even talking to his bro, which when I see them together, it kinda creeps me out. i be having the feeling that before they go to bed, they talk about me.

I just had a thought, what if his bro liked me first, and then he just wanted me to make his bro jealous? but then later on, he really did started to develop feelings for me too??? that would be so sad, but that is kinda how i felt too. I just saw him as a good looking guy. but once i finally talked to him, well i dunno, my brain and other parts just went balistic!!!! Now, I would feel so sad if he really didn't like me, o well, i guess thats how life is.

well i don't to bore you guys anymore, but there is one last thing i have to say... my school is going to be dismissed at 2:50 starting Feb. 6!! I'm soooo happy, that means that I can have an extra ten minutes to myself. Well i'm going to go and find another way to entertain myself, so tata!

Ok, things are getting too confusing for me, so i'm just going to leave it alone. i just can't keep up with him. Today was sooo boring, i just wanted to sleep. I wish that things can get worst, so worst that he would just leave, then things will put the cherry on top. well i'm going to go do my homework now, so peace

o and by the way, if you think that i am really not going to give up, trust me... I am. no more looking for him, and no more talking about him, i'm just going to live my life... seriously.

I am really ready to give up  now. He is the most confusing person I've ever liked. Yesterday, he was just talking to me, but today he's not. He even hit Myra w/ his gym clothes, right in front of me!! i mean, I think that he is making me jealous. When will this "phase" wear off??? I mean, there is still 4 more months left of school *sigh*. I want o surrender, but I just can't, so i will mond my own beezwax tomorrow, Peaaaaceee

OMG! Today was soooo crazy. i think that I am in BIG trouble. With who? Omar, of course. Let me tell you wht happened today:

Ok, it was lunch time and me and myra decided to get on the lunch line. And somehow, myra 

 skipped the entire lunch line, so it was just me, David, and Omar. Next thing I know, I hear Omar talking about me to David. Here is how the convo went(well, as well as i can rememebr it lol)

O: You hit that yet?

D: No, did you?

O: I tired 3 times!!!(note that he didn't even attempt not once before, tht liar)

me: hello!!! i'm right here listening!!!!

O: we weren't talking about you, we were talking about Chinatown!( both laugh)

O: Angelo,(his older bro)  Chynna said whats good.

AHHHHHHH!!!!! I mean come on!!! He is really getting me scared now. So scared, I just had to hit him( and i actually did):

It was last period, straight after lunch and Gabrielle was calling him tomato head. Then he walked inside of the classroom and pulled her hair. And i'm happy of what she did back, she punched him! And he actually punched her back!! And he was all like "i don't hit girls..." to myra, please! So then i was like " don't mess w/ her!" and then i punched him!!! i was just waiting for him to do something back, but it was taking too long, so i just apologized and ran away laughing!!!!!

I seriously don't know what to do. Well, I guess I should keep doing what i am doing now and don't change a thing. peace

I woke up with such a nervous feeling. I got to school like 5 min late, and I had to stand outside w/ myra and the rest of my friends. Then myra came and told me that omar was right there in front of the school. then i began to feel nervous again. I was just acting like i didn't see him, but I couldn't help but look at him. then i caught him smiling at me, i guess that he saw me looking at him, so he just wanted me to feel "nicer".

Then at lunch, i saw omar and eric coming my way. i was getting soooo scared man, i didn't even know wht to do. but then myra decided to go to see out friends shakayla, and elizabeth. and wht a coincidence, omar was right at that table. but i didn't want to go and make a fool at myself. but like 5 min later, i was like "wht the heck that can happen?" so me and sara left to go with myra. then when i sat down, i saw him in the corner of my eye just looking at me with this weird look. i was just sitting there madd scared. then later on, i went to get my lunch. i could of sworn tht he was on his way to get on the lunch line but he didn't. i was soo sad. and then when i went to the snack table w/ myra, and when he was about to sit down and eat, he ran farrrrr away. and then he said sumthing to eric, thts just how i knw tht he was talking about me.

i just hope tht he doesn't have anything against me because well, i am desperately tyring to get him, and i am going to try again tomorrow. so peace out guys.

Sorry that I couldn't write yesterday. I was on "punishment" but yesterday made me think alot, and I mean alot! well, my school went on a trip to NY Hall of Science and so did, Teacher's Prep. I saw all of my former classmates, such as Fabius, Amanda, Naeem, and not to mention Christian. And he was the only one who didn't say hi. I mean i was like "eww, chistian.." and he didn't even say anything back. all he did was look, roll his eyes, then went on his way. He has changed alot though. He grew to about 5' 10" and slicked his hair down. but his face is like a horror movie! his eyes are droopy and his pours aren't so great either. And to find out, he and fabius both have girlfriends. I mean I wish Omar was there so I can show him off. and speaking of him, he didn't even come on the trip. He was all i could think about too. I got to find a way to get him to show him that I'm interested. ut there is always a failure in anyplan. i'm going to try again monday, and hopefully, if i try hard enough, it will work. well now i'm going to go to sleep so good night all.

well, i cannot make fun of omar anymore, well because he shut me down. he cut off his remaining hair and is now conceided. i caught him looking in the car mirror. that little bumb, and he even suggested tht my long friend david sleep w/ me. well i dunno wht to do, so i'm just going to leave it as that because  i am soo happy, that he actually noticed me, that loser its like almost 2 months later. but anywayz i have to go so peace out.

before i start, hello everybody. how was your day? i had to take a state exam today, and the next part is tomorrow. ok. but now anyway, i gave omar a new nickname and here is why:

ok, after the test, the entire eighth grade had to go to the gym. and the didvider was closed so, it was only partially open. so, i was on side of the gym, and omar on the other. i was watching him play basketball, when all of a sudden he turns around. i told myra, but she didn't believe me. so then i told her to stand there. nothing happened. but when i was there, he would just happen to turn around again!!!

well thts all tht really happened today. so i'll speak to ya guys tomorrow, peace

Today is Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. day and all schools, banks, P.O, and other government ran businesses are closed. Its pretty cold today and I'm trying my very best to stay inside. well the reason why I came on here today was to say tht i am getting very freaked out. and it might not be anything to get freaked out by, but i just dunno.

Last night i had a dream that i was looking out the window and looking at Omar's house. I saw the lights go out and said to myself that he's outside. i did see him outside, and he was walking w/ his brother and other friends. but then they were hanging outside of my house, and i was getting worried. then they started to play in the streets. i had went into the kitchen and got something to eat. but when i came back, i saw tht his bro was lying on the ground. I ran downstairs and asked wht happened. and they told me that he had got hitten by a car. so then the next day, i  asked my friend shakayla how he was doing (in the dream she was their neighbor) and she told me that he was going to be in the hospital for a week or too. then my friend myra told me that this is a great chance for me to get omar. but i couldn't get to him because we were seperated by these fences.

the strange thing is that while i was eating breakfast, the pc video channel played "O" by Omarion, which is like my lil memory aid for omar. but that song is like so old, and the video channel usually only plays the newest songs. then when i went to lay down, and listen to my iPod, it played tht same song first! it usually only plays jesse mccartney or my chemical romance first, since i listed then as my fav artist. thts y i'm so freaked out like i don't get it. well, i'm going to find a site where i can translate my dream so peace.

I know alot of people don't believe in that day, and i don't either. in fact, nothing bad really happened. it was pretty cool today.

again i went to school at 7:45. that went by pretty fast. i went through the day pretty easily, but in PM homeroom was when all of the drama happened.

Dazzil (myra's crush) and his friend came up to the door and was pointing at myra saying to his friend "thts her, thts her" and she got madd happy. once we left the school, she decided to stalk him, but he was too far up, so we walked around the block. and on our way there, we saw omar in the basketball court. myra had called a loser lol and i couldn't help but laugh. and when he saw me laughing, all he did was walk away. he always does tht, when i yell at him and when i laugh at him, he seems speechless. but then i was like to her, it's funny how he responded. and she was like he know he's a loser. and i think he heard tht because then he was like "fu*k you, i'm going to f**k u up" to myra and stuff like tht.

and just not too long ago, i was on the phone w/ myra  and latisha. and guess wht! dazzil knows she likes him, and that he said sumthing good about myra, but latisha won't tell us the rest well because she's a bum. but anyway, i'm sooooooo happy man! like omg, go myra it's ya bday. ok, i have to go now, so i'll talk to ya sumtime later. peace.

Today i woke up with a good feeling. And today was a very good day. I went to school at 7:45 like i usually do and didn't get out til 5. but i'm ok because today was great.

in the mourning of 2nd period, we had to be evacuated from the school. they say it was a "fire drill" but, it didn't seem like one cause there was firefighters and police there. then, we found out that there was a strong smell coming from the basement. well everything was ok, but on the way i saw omar, and well he was looking at me, and i was looking at him, allll the way until we got inside the building. i wonder if that means anything. and in the hallways, he looked back at me!!!

well, before i get carried away, in gym, we received a new student. her name is julia and she's really cool. at lunch today, omar didn't even run upstairs like he usually did. and he would usually be the first one on the lunch line. but this time he waited til i got on the line. but then he like

skipped me on the lunch line. so now he went from cutie to bum. lol. but anyway, i am truly happy that i am finally getting sum kind of attention!!!

o and yeh, he's really getting alittle too attached to my friend myra. i mean, when it was time for afterschool and she was waiting out side the door, he gave her a "lap dance' and i don't know if he knew i was looking or not, but i made sure he knew because i yelled " i saw tht" tht loser. lol

hope he gets the help he needs.

but anyway, i have to start my book reports for class tomorrow, so i'm going to go right now. peace.

i hate leaving the title blank, so i just put anything there. well, today was very ok. we took another practice test, which i can't seem to get passed a 20 on. i hope we can practice some more. I was pretty depressed today, again, and well, i think the reason is because i am putting sooooo much pressure on myself. and i have the tendacy of "planning" things before the day comes, and I don't pray before i plan, so its sort of like i am cheating God, but i just don't know wht to do. its sooo hard to find advice these days.

again i had to go to school 0 period, and good thing that its just for two more days. but tomorrow, i have gym, and period 0 and afterschool, so i am realllllly going to be pooped when tomorrow comes. and my heart might(God forbid) would collapse from the shallowness of a certain person. i am too afraid to list his name because i think that there is a GOOD JINXER  reading this and might just hope that the person would do the opposite that I want to happen.

but anyway, i think that i should put my troubles away and concentrate on my friend. she has a very difficult problem with being "rejected" its sort of funny, but she's like my best friend, so i can't really laugh in her face. although i do sumtimes lol. and besides, once her troubles are all cleared up, i can finally get help on my topic, I mean i'm an aquarius. I must help others, but when i need help, it just can't seem to find me. so i think i can take a dive for her. well thats all i have to say. i just hope that the day will come for me tomorrow( hahaha jinxer, I got u!!) peace.

hello, I'm kinda of seeing that people r getting annoyed with me arguing with "other people". sorry, i just can't help it. I mean, I can't talk to my school counselor, she has the BIGGEST mouth in the world, and I would talk to my friends, but they are in their own little world. So the only place i can turn to is the audience of the internet blog users. sigh, i wish i had control over things, but i see i only make things worst.

i had to start school at period 0, which is at 7: 45, and plus i had to attend afterschool for another 2 hrs, which now i'm pooped! and to make things worst, all day we did english!! When it was time for science, "it's ELA(English Language arts) time!, Spanish" It's ELA time!" and even Social Studies "It's time to take out ur ELA books!!! I mean AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! alll freakin day, for 9 hours!!!!! i feel like crying. but i'm ok. and they're doing this so we can pass the frakin state test with "flying colors". I mean, i think we understand it already. and i have to go through the same process tomorrow, and the day after that, and the day after that!! And you know the day of Martin Luther King Jr., well, they want us to come to school on that day too!! From 9:30- 12 they say. and for my class, it's mandatory that we come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i think that i'm going to explode from all of this work. i really miss the seventh grade.

And to put the cherry on my day, i am still being ignored by that certain "loser" I mean, he came to my teacher and told her that he couldn't come to afterschool because "there was an emergency at home" and blah  can't make it and blah blah blah, so the teach let him go, but when the class was over, me and my friend decided to go to Beacon, this org. filled with activities, and who do i see there, the freakin loser!! And o boy, he knows that I saw him, cause then he got madd worried. you see my mom and his mom went to school together, so... if she finds out that he cut class, and went to play basketball, oooooooooo he's in big trouble, but he's lucky i'm not a snitch, all though i still should have done it because of the way he's been treating me. but anyway, my life is slowwwwwllllllyyyyyy becoming sadder by the days, so if i come on tomorrow, bring a box of tissues. peace.

OMG! I could of sworn that I fixed things. But it seems I didn't. He's still ignoring me today. And to make me feel even worst, i had to go to science, and to find out his class was just about to leave. Then he saw me, in which he "forgot" something and had to turn back, which i think he "pretends" to forget something. But sadly, he still hasn't tried to communicate iwth me. And I think that he is too slow to understand that I gave up trying to keep a convosation with me. He is just a loser!!! I mean come on, it's been over a month now and your still clueless!!!!!!!! And even if you aren't, why won't you make a move and stop leaving up to me all the f***ing time. just please, if your too scared to do anything, don't do it at all because you are really hurting my feelings. And i'm sure that you saw me crying at lunch today, you f**king beyatch. I am tired of giving people second chances, and them they abuse them. so don't talk to me, I don't even want you in the same room as me. so just forget everything that we said and did because i'm fed up with you!!!  

Hello, today was a great day. i am keeping things under control now and hopefully things can stay that way. i yelled at omar today, and well he didn't say anything. i have no idea wht that is supposed to mean, but o well. him and his bro tried to jumo myra today, or at least that wht she thinks lol. there was a fight today in the caferteria, and it was a big one too. but thats about it. i hope everyone has a great weekend and peace.

Ok, before i start, i want to tell bittersweet that it is ok to add me. and i am glad to entertain you with my entries.

Ok, i knew that today was going to be great ever since i saw a spider webing this morn, which is a sign of good luck. i  went to school and took a test. the test started out easy, but went to extremly hard at the end. i got the second highest score, and i am very proud. Later on today, we went to lunch and when we were going to our next class, i saw omar. he was going to the bathroom, and for like two weeks later, i finally talked to him! he was asking if the bathroom was open, and i told him no, and then he gave the i don't believe you look, but i was actually right. then myra was like to him, whts your name agian?? and he was like, i forgot myself... i swear he needs help.

in afterschool, we had a party, but omar didnt come. and when they handed outthe reading books, i accidently took his. tht just shows u we were meant to be .

omg, i forgot to tell you journal. My friend sara, got hit by a car this morning. but the funny thing is that she came to school, and showed me her cuts and bruises, and told me tht she got hit w/ a happy face. i was sooo worried, that i couldn't believe her. she is known for telling lies, BUT THIS TIME SHE WASN'T!!! like omg. so sara, if your reading this, then i hope u r ok, and next time, get the guys license plate! ok, well thats all i have to say, and maybe tomorrow, i can have a "real" chat with omar. so bye!

today, wasn't bad at all. nothing good happened, yet nothing bad happened to me. the best thing i can said is that when we were leaving school, i saw omar waiting there, then starting to leave once he saw me. then he kept looking back at me. then he went next to the park, and when me and myra was walking by him, he just kept looking at me. well, thts all for today, i might not be here tommorrow cause well we are testing all day in every subject so bye!!

Today was the first day of school in 2006!!! A whole bunch of children came back to school looking so different. Especially, omar. He cut the side of his hair off!! he looks so different. and funny. i didn't want to tell it to his face, because i didn't want to hurt his feelings. but my friend kept calling him carrot top and everything, it was just so funny, i couldn't help laugh in his face so... i'm an angel. And, when I had to talk to him, I just couldn't because I was afraid that I might break out laughing! So you see, I tried to play nice. And today, in afterschool, ms. ojeranti was always picking on him. he would just sit there, and she just had to say something bad about him.

well, enough of that crazy topic, I am moderator for my school at ratemyteachers.com!!! Yeah i'm sooooo happy. well thats all i have to say so i'll see you tomorrow peace out.!

I can't believe I almost ended my day w/o saying happy new year and happy birthday to MJ. Well, it's raining right now and tomorrow i have to go back to school. There is  also probably going to be an afterschool party, but i doubt it. Before the year ended, I went to Kings Plaza, bought Myra's christmas present and got my ears pierced. They earrings are very nice and they bring out my face. Hope that people notice them, espcially the guys(cause if they don't, then I'll have a big problem!) so anyway, thats all I have to say. I finished my science reprt which probably an A+ because it took alot of effort. I did have some typos, which mytyping program didn't pick up(stupid program). well, i'm going to go now. hope you all have a awesome 2006!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last night i was listening to music and just thinking about Omar. Then I was thinking of what his last name might mean. I was all like "it could mosquito. hahahaha, thats would be funny if it did!" And well I said that today i'd go to freetranslation.com and translate it. And well actually, it doesn't mean "mosquito" it means "It annoys" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Now i'm going to do some more last name translations...

ok, so i tried other people, and his name again, but it's not giving me nothing now (i went to another translation site just to make sure) so, maybe it doesn't mean "it annoys" but still, that is very funny!

Today is verrrry foogy, that when you go outside, you can't see the end of the block. For Christmas this year I got a iPod Shuffle, which is charging right this min. It takes 4 hours, so  I won't be able to download the songs on there until this afternoon. My brother got a Slurpee maker and I just can't wait to get some icees!! My younger brother and sister got instruments, and the middle child, my other sister, got a Bratz doll.

Well thats all I have to say for today. I have to get started on my Science project this week, and well thats going to be a real BOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! So I would love to wish happy holidays to everyone, around the world and lets share the love. Peace out

And for all those nonchristians, happy holidays! Today I'm just here drinking some eggnog. But I forgot to tell you about what happened yesterday.

My class had a little celebration at the end of the day, and so did my friend Myra. So i went to both, which were both fun. I can't really write right now, cause i dunno!!! But again, I would LOVE!!! to wish you all Happy Holidays from my family to yours!

Ok, I had to start a new journal entry for this one because i am going to email it.

Well, it started with me and Myra going shopping right afterschool. We went into this mall, where we ran into Omar. He was all like " You too go to my school right?" but then he left. Then we came to school the next day and saw him in the caferteria. he came up to me and was doing this weird and shake, but I couldn't get it. So I just gave up and said" just give me a hug" and he gave me such a compassionate hug. Then he invited us to sit with him, and we did. He kept joking on my name, when Myra was like "at least her name is original, and isn't the same as a famous monkey!" so then we just left back to our original seats. but then he came over to us and then he tapped me and was like" come over... not you Myra" so I went, and He took me to this corner. He was holding my hand and stuff, and then he told me that he like me and then he kissed me... on the cheeks though.

Today was like one of those days that I just want to scream "yeh"! Because of the strike, again we had to get to school at 10:30. but that would end cause they are back to work!! Well, we spent the most of the day at our school's christmas show. When we were leavin the show, i had to tie my shoe. so i was hopping hoping to find a place to rest it until Gabrielle came to talk to me. So then I put my foot down when Omar tripped over it! He just looked at me, then I was all like "sorry" but then his friend came up next to him and started talking to him. But it was lunch when the fun began

Me and Myra decided to walk around the caferteria alittle bit. we went to our friend elizabeth, who told us to hit this guy named Eric. but when we went over there, both Omar AND Dazzil were at the same place. It was like a mere coincident.When I was talking to Eric, Omar was just looking at me like i was crazy. 

Then afterschool, Omar was back in afterschool!!!! I was sooooo happy. And when it first started, Ms. Ojeranti was asking people to read the board. But no one raised their hand. Then Myra yelled out" Chynna wants to read!" and I was all like, no i don't. But she picked on me anyway. I read the first time really well. And she was all like wow you are a very good reader. then she had another articleto read. She was like how she has a great reader and then she picked on me AGAIN! and to find out Omar wanted to read. I felt like just saying, let Omar read, but he wasn't the only one, so it would make it very awkward. But later on, Omar finally spoke to me!!! He was all like Chynna whts up??? Then he said Arthur said Whats good and stuff, but I just called him a f*** off.

well thats all i have to say. I'm much better from yesterday, and I hope that he would decide to come back to afterschool.

For the TWU: You better had gotten ya'll butts back to work!!!!!!! I want to still see that half fare price next week you losers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes, there is still school at 10:30, but the schedule went as normal as it could. but it was still only 25 min. long. and yes, Omar is still trying his best to avoid me. He went so far that, he runs his way to his next class, he eats upstairs with his HR teach, and he tries his best to get home as fast as he can. Well, i don't know what to do now, but ignore him too. Did i mention that he looked inside the auditorium, then left tuesday because he saw me there waiting for afterschool!?!?!!? ok, now i feel like a loser, how is he avoiding me like this? it's not like i stalks him or whtevr, but he brought this ion he's self so just WHATEVER!! to him. I wanted to wait til high school anyway. O yeh and i also forgot to say tht, today in gym tht i got hit with a rope, which made itself say, "I O" which is very odd. but whtever, i bet it was just a coincident.

school is really getting out of hand. this year is ending horriblly. i want to make it end nice, but i can't. i just can't. and thats all i have to say today cause now i am getting very weary, so bye!

Today started out really weird, and of course ended really weird. we had to spend first period of math with 803, and the next three periods in math still. but we had gym afterwards, and two periods of spanish. then we went to lunch around 1:50, when there was a fire taking place two blocks from there. We then went to CA, which we couldn't even do anything becuase it was only 20 minutes long. Each period was only 20 min. long, which made the day go by really fast.

I saw Omar today, but he didn't say hi to me, nor come to afterschool. I want to just forget about him but I can't, he's whats making me who I am.

I am supposed to be getting my hair done right now, but i'm waiting for my mom to get home so i'll ttly peace out

Awwwww mannnnnnn!!!! the stupid MTA didn't make a deal with the TWU, so no subway or buses are running. how can they do that to 7 million + people, who need to get to school and work, and not to mention how they're not going to be able to go Christmas shopping. I bet there are going to be thousands of children without a christmas this year in NYC. Well as for me, I think there is still afterschool which i am very happy to say, and now i just hopefully have to pray that Ms. Ojeranti didn't kick Omar out her class.

well, i bet your confussed. How come I'm not at schol?? well because my school doesn't start til 10:30 thts why. so i just have to wait until 9 now to get ready for school. Hopefully, I can get my hair done today, and they would come up with a contract by now. but it looks like thts not going to happen, and my entire plan to get Omar is ruined. o well, there's always next year. so hopefully, I can come back later and talk to you but right now i have to go, so peace out 

today was how can i explain it? out of the ordinary i guess. it by madd fast, when i blinked it was already in the middle of the day. Me and my friends skipped gym to help with the dorr decorations. we were the smart ones to do both doors. It looks really nice and i hope that we win the prize or whatever it is. but anyway, i'm going to tell you about how my love life has changed today...

well, ok, it hasn't really changed but, i feel really better about trusting my feelings. today while we were doing the door, we decided to take our lunch upstairs and guess who i see come upstairs too. Omar of course. he was "helping" ms. jones with her door, but i truly doubt it. i think he was just up there to act a foul. we have a weird vibe now after he talked to me. i think tht he's one of those people who see that they like the person, and tries to ignore them so they don;t make a fool of themselves.

but anyway, when it came to last period, he had the same teacher that we were staying with meaning that we were in the same room and also i was able to figgure out if he was good with his work,. which he is, so if your reading this Omar, I'm sorry i doubted you. but in math class, he seemed to have a nervous break down knowing that i was going to be in the classroom. but he did show effort. he participated and answered the right answer. Ms. ojeranti asked the class wht was dilation and this idiot answered it wrong. so then Omar raised his hand and she picked on him and he was all like, "dilation is when the figure becomes larger or smaller" and she was all like excellent. and u should have seen how his face lit up. almost like a christmas tree!!! 

well if you were to ask me if i wanted to go out with me, i dunno i'd glow to i guess. but i really don't want this story to be another joshua story. and if you don't know what the joshua story was, just read my blog from the beginnig. i want this to be cinderella story exactly.

well thats all i have to say for now. o yeh, all those people who live in NYC, please o please just hope that there is no stike tomorrow morning. i would love to be able to wake up two hours later, but i don't want to miss my hair apointment and plus i have to go christmas shopping. so all TWU workers, DON'T DO IT! i know you want to teach the MTA a lesson, but you are not benfinting from it, and you are hurting those students who depend on you everyday to get the education you deserve. thats all i have to say. Peace

today me and my friends went to this show at CCC. it was ok there. i really don't fell like talking right now cause i have a headache so bye.

today the MTA was supposed to go on strike which would hurt the city terrible. but they didn;t lucily. but anyway, i think i have much worst news. i have no idea wht is going on between me and omar. he acts like he likes me, but then again, thats afterschool, when more than 3/4 of the school is at home. but i mean, i feel heart broken. i have a better friendship w/ him than myra and her little guy. but i think he's trying to avoid me now. he didn't even come to school today, but he's crazy brother did. 

i hope he's still in my after school class, because he's on my teacher's rouster, but she didn't write him down on her "attendance list" she worte ashley's big head instead.

well enough of that, our so called "good christmas" is ruined thanks to our dumb science teacher. she rescheduled it to next month, jan. 20 which is just wrong. but at least i get to bring my ipod! and hopefully i'll have omar by thn. *omg i'm such a loser. i said i wouldn't talk about him anymore  * ok, i'm fine again. but anyway, these next few days may be very boring, so i'd like to wish everyone a happy christmas, happy hanukah(sorry if i spelled it wrong. we really need a spell chek) and a happy kwanza. o yeh, happy new year and happy chinses new year cause it may be a reallllllly longtime until i come back on so, ByE!!

today was one of those days that you just don't understand, and will not understand. i saw omar today, but i tried to ignore him for only God knows why. and all during lunch there were food fights and real fights trying to break out. and afterschool there was a fight. and omar's twin bro, angelou(who is a COMPLETE idiot) ran to the fight risking his life. he almost got hit by a f***ing truck! i swear, i ask omar like almost everyday," are related to him??" and sadly he says yes but always ends it with, "he's my own brother and i don't like him!"

o journal, i almost forgot to tell you about yesterday. While we were waiting for afterschool to begin, Omar came up to be and whispered my name again. so then i said his name, but then he started speaking chinese to mock me, but then he went up to dennis and told me wht my name was for some reason i don't know why. but he is soooooo cute, and i liked him before but now, it's like a crazy like. and i finally told him myra about him today in gym. she was all like, "eww, u like 'the idiot's' brother? well he's ok, but not that cute." well at least she didn't call him ugly lol.

o yeh and one more sad thing. i had the saddest dream that Jesse McCartney died at age 19, which is next year. i read it in a magazine and that he was shot as soon as he stepped out the shower with a tazor gun. so that means that he was electricuted. and also i read that the murderer had patted him dry and laid him on the ground wrapped in towels. then in my dream, i attended the fans' cerenony and we all lit candles and waved them in the air. it was sooo sad, that i woke up crying. well thats all for today. hopefully i can come back write again if there is anything exciting going on.   

ok, journal. sorry again for not really having the chnace to write to u. well, to make up for tht, i'l going to write a VERYYYYYYYY LONGGGGGGGG entry ok? so just go grab a cup of coffee, kick off ur shoes, and relax ur feet lol!!!

Today my science took her classes to the American Museum of Natural History in Manhattan. When we got there, our homeroom teaher let us go "explore" by ourselfs since we were old enough to be reliable for our own actions. So, me, Myra, Latisha, Sara, Gabrielle, Markita, Kadeem, and Ashley. But, Juan, nashalie, and Jonathan joined our group anyway, so it was like we had the whole 801 class with us, so our original group decided to ditch them lol so thn we went to explore some more, when halve of our group wanted to waste time and look at the stupid animals, so we dithced them too. so it was just me, myra, sara, and gabrielle.

we found the rest of the school in the cafertiria when sara asked ms. ojeranti if we could go explore some more. she said yes, but tht we had to stick TOGETHER . so we went exploring again. thn gabrielle just turned to me and said the only reasn y she went out with joshua was because he dressed nice. i asked y she told me this and she was like because she didn;t really like him. she told me that one time he was laughing and he looked really stupid and stuff. and well she was true!

ok, now we went inside the gift shop, trying to get back to the teacher so we can see the space show. thn we ran into latisha. she was telling thm to take the long way, but thn she came with me and myra meaing that gabrielle, sara, and markita went the other way. so we said they would meet us since we were all headed the same place but, we didn't see them. we ran to ms. ojeranti and told her, and we were all worried and angry, y didn;t thy stick with us in the first place. and the show was about to begin!!! so she said that she'd wait outside the theater and wait for them.

we went into the waiting room where i saw this cute boy. but thn we saw that he had a girlfriend and stuuf so we just forgot about him. when we got inside, i noticed we were right behind him!!!! he was kissing his girlfriend trying to make me jealous i think. thn in the middle of the show, they were making out again when ashley kicked their chairs!!!! thn when it i was able to see wht they were doing, i saw he was playing with the other girls hair, right in front of his girlfriend. th nhe kissed her!!! He was being a white pimp and it was really funny!!! thn after the show was over, we finally ran into sara, gabrielle, and markita. they both said that it was sara's fault and she got in trouble. i don't think that she would be taken on any trips anymore.

on the train ride home, jonathan was mocking a man on the train. he was soo good at it, i almost peed my pants! thn he tried to mock this lady, but thn she was like "someone's gonna shoot you if u keep doing tht" me and gabby got really scared. thn, later she aplogized and gave him pamplets to gove out. and to find out, it was for church lol! he was actually reading it too.

well thts the end of the best trip so far, but i have more!!! afterschool, me and myra went shopping by ourselves!!!!! we wnt to target to buy me some more clothes and stuff. thn afterwards we went to get some pizza. i really had a ball today. i hope there r many more to come. o yeh, and before christmas comes, she said that we were going to the hall of science which i hope is relly fun. well, thats all i have to say today. did u like it????

o yeh i forgot, tomorrows thanksgiving!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't wait to eat  

Sorry Journal. I bet u were worried about me. but all is good here. but there are a lot of changes. let me just start tht Michael Seater had a starring role on my favorite  sci- fi show called Strange Days @ Blake Holsey High. AND it comes on every day except sundays for 1 hour!! so tht means a daily dose of him every stinkin day. now thts awesome.

oh and yes, i bet when you read this, u will be very sad, because the beautiful blonde, Jesse McCartney has DYED HIS HAIR BLACK!!!! Others said tht it's brown, but  i say black. but he really doesn't look bad, although it did take me a day to get used to it. I hope this is just a "early life crisis" lol.

ok, now in school, we have four new students. and they all came in the same week. the first one came from upstate, her name is Aseena, and she fit in the same day! The other two were Amy and Cadieanna, from 813(they broke up the class, so it's no longer 813) Cadieanna is pretty shy though, she hardly talks to you. and speaking of shy, we have another new student who just came today. his name is Darius, and he can't even tell his name to the teachers. And he's like in love with Sara. He'll only talk to Sara. It's pretty pathetic. He reminds me of York. This year would be a great twist. If Joshua just decided to come back. Oh well, we'll just have to wait till then, peace out.

hey today was alright. sorry i didn't write yesterday. i was, but then i got distracted.

today went by horrible. i think i deserve to die. this may be my last entry so goodbye journal. keep the memories alive.  

today's weather was beautiful! so beautiul that i could take off my coat. today didn't go so bad either. nothing really happened though. well thats all i have to say so peace out. o yeh and one thing... I  Michael Seater. I really need to find the perfect icon for him(hehehe).

Today not that many ppl came to school cause they chicken, they didn't want to get hit by no eggs. of course i got home safe. but in school was a nightmare. the school decided to "merch" classes. so all through the day we ahd math and english. and one messely period of gym. but it did go by fast. and plus we got out early so i'm happy. well, that's all i have to say right now. peace out. oh yeh i forgot, this month is thanksgiving. i hope i can win the eating contest.

today nothing spectacular happened, but it was better than yesterday. and also my friend myra got cornbraids. she looked so ridculous. well thats all for today. live long and prosper.

today things didn't go so well. i really don't feel like talking about it. but at the end, i did get to speak to ms. reese. she told me that she moved back to oregon, which is pretty depressing because she was a great teacher well that's all i have to say now. peace.

Today nothing really happened. our science teach didn't come in, so we had gym and our old science teach as a coverage. i was also able to give in my high school application. i hope i get into a good school. well thats all i have to say. peace out

today it was raining pretty hard because hurricane wilma finally hit ny. but it was enjoyable. today in ca, my teacher complimented me on my essay and read it aloud to the class. and they weren't hating either. they were like they liked it too. i was so happy and so proud. after school me and myra went to dunkin' donuts. oh shoot! i just had a vision that i saw joshua, which will never happen. well thats all i have to say. see ya laterssssxzzzz.

Today i the guidance counselor FINALLY handed us the high school applications. and i'm so happy cause she said that she could hand them in this week meaning that i could get my first or second choice!! but hopefully, i won't have to go through this silly process.

and also today my whole class and a few other students were talking about the test. and their experiences were so humorous! my experience was that myra was the only one laughing. nashalie's experience was that she had to sit in the chairs that were nailed to the floor and that this girl kept kicking her seat, so she was about to fight her, but the student proctor told her that there was no fighting, but she told him "u want a piece of me too?" now that was funny. and bernard told me that he had to walk up stairs all the way to the sixth floor while we were able to take the elevator. but i have to say, even if none of us get into the schools, it was a nice experience for us. and i pity the people who couldn't go, like my friend jissette(poor thing. she told me that she was crying that no one would take her)

well thats all i have to say, oh and yes, i'm still daydreaming that my future of the way i planned it comes true! peace out.

As you knw, today was the shsat. i left with myra and her mom at 10:45 and got there 11am. there were a good hundred there already. by 12, the whole auditorium was full! there were students next to me that seemed nervous, others seemed like they didn't care. before the test, they had us watch the Robots, that movie is pretty corny. but anyway, my and myra were able to be in the same room. the test started out easy and ended easy, not like the practice test i've been taking. i hope i do well.

after the test we went to get pizza where we saw plenty of our schoolmates. but if u were to ask me if the test was hard, i'd just say please(hope that doesn't curse anything)!

Tomorrow i take the shsat. i tried my hardest to stop the other kids from putting brooklyn tech first, cause 1) they won't fit in, that entire neighborhood is white(or acts white) and 2) thats the school me and myra realllllly want to go to cause there r cute guys there and her sis goes there already(and we want to hang out with her and bug her and stuff.

am i nervous? no not at all. cause i made a plan. hopefully, 70% of the applicants will put stuyvesant first, so even though they get higher than me, they will most likly go to stuyvesant while me, i'll go to brooklyn tech. see smart right? and brooklyn tech has 1,200 seats for the freshman class next year so... hopefully my plan will work. but so far, i'm not worried

i have to be there at 12 pm, so i get to sleep late yay! i am going to relax to the music. so i'm logging out peace. o yeh, and as soon as i get back, i'll write all about my experience.

Today was when the high school applications were ready, but the guidance counselor didn't hand them out. And I won't get minme til wednesday because me and myra r going to an interview for a high school. i really don;t want to go, but it looks like i am. and i also i have to prepare for the shsat this saturday. man am i tired. but anyway, there this great dream i had that ugh! i was thinking of all day.

i had a dream about Michael Seater(derek from Life w/ Derek, the Disney channel original) and like OMG he was my bf and everything. we were looking at one of those japanese book thingys(u know the ones with fighting and sex) and in it it had all of the sex positions you can do. amd he was just looking at me, like he wanted to do it. and i wanted to them all with him too, but my dad was over and i had told him that Michael was my step brother.so all we did was make out. and omg it felt madd nice to me next to him. i just wish that i meet someone like him in high school.

oh yeh and also today, in the middle of math, Jissette is going to ask me for the fifthith time if i saw joshua. and then she was like "u said he didn't move to pennsylvania right? did he tell u wht school he goes to now? cause i want to go there too." i told latisha wht she said and she said that she was going to smack her for being a stalker. i hope she does, cause even though i still think of joshua, i mean its because i hope hes ok, especially now that i know what he went through.  but i mean come on, going to school with him just for selfish reasons, unless she has other reasons(hopefully) but i wouldn't want to do that. i would just u know, want to still have contact w/ him, become closer friends. but i guess that chance is over and thats ok. i just know that i was the fool, not him. but anyway, i still hope that latisha slaps her. well thats all i gots to say peace out.

Again I am soooooo sorry, i couldn't write friday cause my mom was on the pc, and the same for yesterday. nothing happened friday, so i'll tell u what happened yesterday.

I went to school for the last day!! I was sooo happy, and every1 else was cause they were acting pretty stupid. then afterwards, I went over to myra's house and we left to the brooklyn hs fair with her father. we had a great time cause she was acting really stupid there. she was calling people names and laughing at others in their faces. she seriously needs help.

but now i'm nervous. i wasn't nervous for anyother test until now. the SHSAT is THIS SATURDAY!!!!! and i've been thinking of it all last night. dream after dream after dream. now i don't know wht to do. i don't want to go to high school alone. i want SOMEBODY, ANYBODY to go to the same school as me! and 2morrow is when they are giving out the application. and all i think of is midwood, madison, murrow, goldstein, and health prof., not partically in tht order. but i need to think of 7 more schools fast, cause the thing is on a first come, first serve basis. and i want to get in to one of my first 3-5 choices. i really need help. i want to give the paper in by next week. but by the rate i'm going, i don't think it will happen since i need to help out myra with hers too. well now i'm going to start on my H.W. so peace out.

oh yes and please journal, and all reading, just hope for the best of me, my high school choice depends on my future.

Today I've finallllllllllllllllllllly waken up and spelled the coffee. it's well over a month now and i've haven't relized that school is no longer a place for me to fanticise about my boos(josh and others in my past), and is not a socialize place. i have forgotten that the school year has begun; not ended. It's terrible because it finally hit my brain that i need to start my path to get into a reallllllllllly good high school so that i can leave out my dreams.

today, myra was finally transfered to my class. my math teacher knew her cause her older sister was in her class and now goes to brooklyn tech. then she started saying a speech that only serious minded students would go some place well minded for their time. then she told us that she had two students that gotten into a school in Columbia University which specialized in pre-med. then she said that there were thousands of applicants, but they got in cause they were sooooooo serious about there work. thats when i was thinking. i know that i am smart, but i don't put so much consideration into my work, so thats why its hard for me to get the things i really deserve. so now i'm going to try me hardest to concentrate on my work.

today was very weird. to start, i wasn't really great in the academics and i was very sleepy although I went to sleep early. maybe i should sleep late then i'd be well rested. and everyone was leaving. i didn't feel important, like i usually do. later on today, on the way home, Michael tried to make me jealous by putting his arms around myra and sara. but it didn't really work because i don't like him anymore. but i don't know if he knows it.

oh yes and myra pointed out something. she has always found a way to be with me. she did it in 5th and 6th and 7th and now 8th. heck, she'll probably do it in high school. but she beat my curse. everyperson that i have become close w/(friend or relationship wise) has left me. there r like a million of them that i can't list them all but joshua(of course) was the latest and hardest event to understand.

well thats all i have to say. i hope that things get really worst tomorrow. i want to see how worst it can get.

Today is columbus day so the schools here in ny r closed!!! i'm just here relaxing hoping that the rain will go away cause i don't want to get my hair wet. but anyway, tomorrow when we go back, my friend myra will be official in my class. now she can finally see how crazy my class is. and also, my family gets the mula, so i'm going shopping. hope everything goes well 2morrow. peace out.