ok, now i dont remeber bothering anybody, especially omar. i mean?i dont get his attitude.

it all started when i went to my science teacher to give her my hw. he was coming out the room and i was going in, then he said to me nobody wants me in the classroom, which he doesnt really do, so i was like all confused. then on the lunch line, the kids were pushing to get in, and he was on the line too, and then when i got in, and he didn't, i caught him looking at me so i stuck my tongue out at him, cuz i wasnt talking to him. then when me and julia went to her house, he was walking the same way as us. then julia said tht she caught?him looking at me. but i really didnt care. then we started to walk behind him, and i knw i'm mad at him, but he said "what?" the cutest way yesterday lol. ok, back to being mad.?we just passed him, cuz well, i am not speaking to him, not at all not al all.

and today, when me and my friends came downstairs from lunch detension, he was down there, and then as soon as we?sat down, he got up and went upstairs. i have no idea y he's so fuckin angry at me?when i didnt do shit. goddamn it! i'm just tired. i truly am tired. and i dont give a fuck if he's reading this cuz?he needs?to knw the fuckin truth.

and by the way, angelo cut his hair. he looks muchhhhhhhhh better now.

Today was my class trip to the Intrepid, which is this big ship in NY harbor. The only reason why I want on the trip is because they had a McDonalds in there, so you know that story lol. when we were walking to school, it was raining. and it was raining as we left to get on the train.

when we got there, we went into this theatre we we saw this wack movie. then me and myra went onto this flight stimulator in which i and neither did myra know how to control so we kept going around in circles, but it was really fun. after that, we went and looked around the ship and then we went to eat at mickey d's. then we left to go to the gift shop in which i bought a pen and pencil and a "star" globe which is really cool. then once we left the musuem, i found out that i lost my wallet, but i found it thank the lord.

well thats all i've gots to say about my day, so i'll see you guys around. peace.

Ok today was like one of the most beautifuliest days in my life. lol. the weather was wonderful, and plus school ended 3 hours earlier then it was supposed to. although, there were some problems that had to ruin the day. but let me tell u wht happened:

i met up with my friends in which myra baked this beautiful cake(thnx a whole bunch). we went to school together blah blah blah... when i got inside the school, some students and my math teach gave me some money, which has never happened to me b4. then, we had the party during gym and then we went home.

we some how got distracted and went inside the playground to have a snow ball fight lol. and while we were waiting for god knows wht, i saw omar coming down the block w/ kimberly. then she was like to him "omar come here' and then, she kissed him. i dunno if it was on the cheeks or lips, but i just know that she did. i bet they go out now. but i don't really care. cause well, i sort of get used to this stuff because it like always happens to me, so i mean what can u do??

then while we were in the playground, we were having a snow ball fight in the hot weather, and the snow was melting into slushy ice. i wanted to leave but "he" was there, so i just stayed and man did i get hit with madd snowballs. then someone through one at him, in which he was all upset and swearing to his mom  (they swear too much lol) and then he ran to his bro and was like, they  hit me and blah blah blah it was really funny. then they left to the outside of it and then they started throwing ICE in which on hit me right on the thigh, but i just hope it was accidental.

well, tomorrow my class is going on a trip to the Intrepid, and well it should be very nice so, i'm going to go bye!!!

sorry guys that i couldn't come on yesterday, i had soooo many things to do. but the good news is that i am back today. well i'm going to first tell you what happened yesterday:

me and my friends had 40 min off of school, so we all went inside the yard which was full of snow and had the biggest snowball fight. there was this guy named michael who kept tackling me like we were playing football or something. my back still hurts from that.

then today, we had another snowball fight which went to out of hand. i mean, there was practically the whole school there. and to make things worst, some of the snow melted so it turned into slush and ice, which they were using me as a target, and someone hit me in the eye! i mean ouch!!! not funny at all!.

ok, now that i got that topic over with, let me tell you what a certain sumbody did. ok, it was lunch time, and he was on the lunch line, he was right behind me, with my friend arthur right in front of me. then he took out his cell phone and put it right in arthur's ear. i mean don't he think sumtimes?? then hector came and was like to him that that song was nice and stuff, and he was like "all puerto ricans like that song" i mean, what does he have against PRs? I have PR in me, but o well. then when i was arguing w/ jonathon, he yelled right in my ear, talking about some shut up. so i just turned around and screamed at him and was like don't yell in my ear. and he gave this look, he looked like he wanted to laugh, but he was just holding it in. so i repeated what i said, but this time i was all in his face(on purpose duh!) and he didn't say anything, i mean if some other girl were to go up in his face and do the same thing, he would just yell back at them. but he didn't do that and he didn't do it last time. so i'm just going to take this as a good thing. but then like 10 seconds later, he had the nerve to ask me to pass him milk. and not just one carton, but two. i did it anyway, because well, i didn't want to seem like the mean girl who doesn't seem interested. and then later on, there were just 4 packets of ketchup, and i took them all, and then he gave me this puppy eyed look, talking about some, "can i have one please?" and i was just like "i passed u milk, not u want my ketchup?" but he was just going to walk away, and then i was like omar wait, and i gave him one, thts it. lol hahahahahahahahahahahahhhhhahahahahahahah(cough)hahahahahaha.

oh yeah, and then on our way home, or should i say the snowball fight, omar was leaving the building, so then myra pushed me, and then had the nerve to be talking about some, "chynna, y u walking so fast?" and then he turns around and gives me this smirk. and to make myself innocent, i was like i dunno, u tell me why, but then, he switched the direction he was going in and came behind me. he is veryyyyyy confusing. well i have to go now because it's almost time for american idol so peace.

today was one of the strangest days ever. it was one of those days that it wouldn't be wierd if someone were to jump off a bridge or sumthing. i woke up arund 7:10, and my mom was downstairs waiting for my bro's bus to arrive (which it never did, go figure!). so then an hour passes, and she still didn't come inside the house. i was waiting for her to finish curling my hair, but i just did it myself, which it didn't come out so bad.

i had to take my bro and sis to school, so i didn't get to class until 9:50. there were not many children in today, which made things go by much smoother. we had to go to science third period, and which to my luck, omar's class was just leaving. he was still there helping ms. nurse, and i had the plan to try and start a convo w/ him today. so the subject was his mom. i just sweetly asked, "was that your mom i saw saturday?" and then he looked at me, and i saw that he got blue contacts. he looks soo freaky with them on. well now i know that his mom is fat, just like mine (hehehehehehehe).

then came time for gym. we were able to have free time, in which myra kept getting hit in the face w/ basketballs lol. then when it was time to leave, i saw omar coming out the gym. i was going to make fun of his eyes, but then i was like nah... but he had to be the stupid one to make fun of my name again,(but i just realized after speaking to my cuz that that is way form of flirting, go figure!)  tht idiot. then while i was in CA class, he was getting scolded by the principal, assisant princpal, and a secerity gaurd. i was just soo shocked that he didn't seem to care (well, not actually, cause i met boys like him before at my oldest bro's school, but this is like my first time liking one, and having one like me back lol). and his bro was there too, talking about some "oh, i swear to my mother..." now wouldn't it be funny that something were to happen to her(GOD FORBID!!!) just for him saying that? no it wouldn't actually lol. then when mr. st. aubain came and closed the door, omar came and he was just looking through the glass, at first i started to give him the "hey your cute look(lol!)", but then I was getting annoying, so then i just turned my head, but then when he left, myra was like he was starring dead at me. at that point, he was getting very freaky.

then at lunch, myra her hungry self was like the first one on the lunch line, so then we all followed her, and then omar was there too. i was like one person behind him, and he was talking to this boy about his contacts. and the boy was like " blue eyes don't look right on Puerto Ricans" and i know it wasn't any of my business, but i just had to agree. but then he was like to me, "i'm not puerto rican, i'm dominican" i just reponded with a i knew that, in which i actually did know, since i read it in one of his social studies letters.

then in SS, he came in the classroom, pretending to have to get sumthing out of the closet. but then like 10 min later, i saw his bro come up to the door's glass, and stare dead at me! i'm soooo scared now.

well thats enough of my love life, let me talk about my school life. as u know, i came close to the cut-off score for Brooklyn Tech, and that i was going to apply for a spot in their summer school so that i can be accepted, but that won't happen because i needed a 485, in which i was shy of 8 points, which is like 2 questions, which is very painful. well i just know that sumthing good is going to come out of that because EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON!!! well i'm going to go now, so bye yall!

hello again guys. It's a blizzard here in NY and news is saying that there may not be any school tomorrow for us . it's soooooooo boring today. i can't go outside and play, nor can i talk to anybody besides my Blog audience.

theres nothing really interesting to say about me, so i'm going to address the issues of WolfGirl . I think it's ironic that your ex's cuz likes you. i mean, he doesn't care or know what happened between you and michael? i mean, what does he think, your going to go with him too? i mean, that would make a ho or sumthing, which we all know your not.  and i think that David is trying to be a real cupid, don't you think? he's trying his very best to get me and omar together lol. well i can't wait til tomorrow cause if we do have school, there is going to be a big snowball fight!!!! see ya!

I know, I know, it's a saturday... why am i writing journal entries on a saturday? and i bet you answered your own question with "oh it's probably another dream, or she has to talk about her 'love life'" well, it's sort of like tht. let me explain:

my mom came home from work with my bday cake (and hopefully myra, i can save you a piece, if i can hide it from april!) and she asked me what i wanted for the party. i said pizza and we were on our way to Pathmark to get the pizzas and to stock up on the food for the blizzard.

i had to mail my magazine subscription, and i did, and we were own our way to the train station to buy our car fare. we were near omar's house, and i was looking at it to see if he was home. next thing i knew, the gate flew open. and i was just hoping and praying that it was his neighbor coming out. then i saw a lady come out. i was like phew! but what do you know, he comes out right behind her. and to my luck, it  wasn't his brother, nor his sister. it just had to be him. he had on this white hat that made him look like a marshmellow lol. i was just whispering to myself "you've gots to be kidding me" he just walked down the stairs very slowly looking at me and probably thinking "what is she doing here?" then he and his mom i guess went inside the cab where he just sat there waiting for me to make my move. the only thing i could think of was "take our your cell and call myra to make yourself busy". so i did. he was still sitting there as his "mom" asked the cab driver to take them to their designation. so as i was talking, i just gave a little wave, and he gave me a "head's up".

and five minutes later, while we were waiting for the bus, there was a car accident. it wasn't big, but the rear end of a car was damaged. and while all of this was happening, i was still thinking "lord, i thought i asked you to let omar be the last person i see!" lol!!!!!

well once we got to pathmark, it was reallllllllly crowded there, so we ran back home with just a little bit of stuff. well, i'm going to go now before my mind goes completely balistic! peace.

Hey guys i miss this place soooooooo much! The reason why i couldn't come on here was becuase i was on punishment again! well, i'm going to try my best to try and remember everything.

Monday- i was walking in the hallways minding my own business. but then myra's stuoid self pushed me into omar. so then later on, i pushed her into him. it wasn't a good experience for him, but it didn't feel nice to be in his arms lol

Tuesday- because of the extended day for very slow students, my afterschool didn't start til 3:27pm. so until then, me and shakalya and myra went walking around when we ran into a fight that was between two girls.

wednesday- i dont think anything happened this day. i'm trying to remember, but i can't sorry.

thursday- gabrielle and her stupid self went and told omar that she THINKS that i like him and that he should ask me out. and after that, he's been scaring me like crazy. and kept looking at me, more than usual at least. and at lunch, i thought that he had left, but he actually didn't. he had came near my table, looking for me. and when he saw that i wasn't near the table, he looked towards the lunch line. then i started to dodge him, at which he started to laugh at me and then he he just shrugged his shoulders and went on his way. i tell u, i am sooo funny lol.

now today- umm well let's see. today we got the results for the specialized high schools, and unfortuneatly, i didn't get in, but i missed by like 5 questions, which is ironic cause there was like 5 questions tht i didn't understand. well on the plus side, i got the highest score in my entire school which was a 477!!!  but still, it's pretty sad now. but let me get to the craziness of my day. ok, at gym, i lost one of my earrings. and i didn't relize it til i got into math class. but lucily i did find it. and then afterschool, i was just acting really stupid. i saw omar coming, so i wanted to slow down for him so i was moving "slow motion" and then i felt stupid that he passed me, so then i started to walk in "fast motion" lol! then once we got outside, david came up to me and was like tht out old classmate tiffany was wondering why he didn't get left back like she did. but then stupid omar came up to him and started talking about latisha. but then myra was calling him a f***ing pussy, but he just ignored it. but she kept saying it, and then he was like "i admit it, i said that your f***ing ugly" tht was not right for him to say, but still she didn't have the right to say tht to him either. well, he kept looking back at me to see if i was talking about him, but i seriously have no time for him.

well thats all i gots to say peace. o and yeh i hope tht everyone has a better valentine's day than mine, cause mine is going to suck.

i'm ova at my friends house writing my blogs right now. i had like one of the best days of my life. now i am sre that he likes me now. i had to sacrifice gym to help my HR teach get her bulletin board up. and tht same period, omar's class was with her. i was soooo nervous, it was like i couldn't really do anything. and there was a time tht i had to go inside the classroom and get sumthing. and then as soon as i walked inside, the class was all like "hey chynna" and stuff and he gave me like the weirdest look of all. and after tht i didn't want to go inside the classroom anymore, cause i didnt know wht his next approach was going to be.

the next time i saw him was at lunch. there was problems behind and me and then i turned around to see wht was happening, and then i saw omar there looking at me. i just slowly turned around cause he was really freaking me out. then when it came time to go on the line, omar was bothering this girl, and i was like don't mess w/ her, but then he was like "it wasn't me, i can't reach tht far..." and he kept looking at me to see if i was going to do sumthing about it, but i was like nah...

then it was last period we wanted to help our teach out again, which by coincident his class was there again... so we were waiting in the back of the class room waiting for ms. O to correct the papers. and then there were times at which he would turn to look at me, but i pretened not to see him. and then he got madd jolly that he was in Ms. Nurse class for afterschool. and he got a promotion in doubt letter. i swear he has issues. well i'm going to go now becuz my friends pc keeps disconnecting. so bye!!!!

I bet once you saw the title, you thought something bad happened to me today. well something good actually happened today. but i think that it was a lie, although, i really don't think hat it was a lie because why would he say him out of all people? but before i get to tht, i would like to let you knw that today was crazy. there was fight, after fight, after fight in the cafeteria. and also my SS teacher is being mean. she gave me lunch and gym detention which i think is really unfair because i did my work, and i didn't talk, all i did was laugh at juan for getting the detetion. but now i'm going to ignore her, so that should make things much much better for me :)

ok, back to the happy part. today, my good ol' friend from kindergarten came up to me afterschool and was like "you know i love yo right?" and i was like i love you too, but then he said "you know who else loves you?" and I was like who? and then he said "omar, that guy right there w/ the cap on" i swear, i was speechless, i couldn't really say anything, all i could do was say ok?? and then walk away. but once i got outside tht building, i was running w/ joy and just screaming and stuff. but i really don't know wht to do next. myra says to ask him out, but i really don't ever have those good moments. i ususally have one or two, but they come unexpectingly. i just wish that i had powers like Raven, but, i guess that would take the fun out of people's lives, wouldn't it? lol. well i'm going to go now, so i'll see ya tomorrow, peace.

hey guys. today was a day where it wasn't like exciting, but it wasn't boring either. O yeh and thanks arny for that comment, that did sort of make me feel some what better, just besides the part that you said i had issues, cause i can actually see that already. well i'm going to go see American Idol now so peace.

Hey you guys! I would like to say that I am feeling alittle better now. I'm not saying that he actually DID something, but I dunno, I just be in my moodswings sometimes lol. but thanks fightingfemale for commenting. i don't have anyone i can really talk to besides my friend from kindergarten, but he hardly comes to school so i guess that spy plan is over. lol

but i guesss that I shouldn't worry, i mean he doesn't really tease me heavily, it's just that he keeps giving me these freaky looks. well, i can't really blog now because i have two research papers that are due tomorrow so see ya!                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           

Umm ok, I now see that its not "him" who is too shy. It is me. I am the one pushing myself from him. I had the perfect oppurtunity to talk to him. THE PERFECT OPPURTUNITY!!!! But no, I automatically got away somehow. Heres what happened:

It was third period and his class was coming out of science. I had science next, and when I walked inside the classroom, he was still there. So I started to talk to Ms. Nurse, and tried to buy me time until he left. He sat right in Sara's desk, which is the desk next to mine. So, you know can see why I didn't seat there.

What I've could have done was sit there and say whts up or just sit there with my notebook out. But I see I am not capable of doing that. That is why I feel hurt inside. I always push him away. And I can't make fun of him, cause that just makes him upset. And I really do feel like giving up, but something just won't let me. I just wish, I really do wish that there was something that I could do to go back in time and don't meet him at all. In fact, I wish that I didn't even attend Newton, that way, he couldn't have met me. But i guess that I just have to face the fact of knowing that we will never be together.

well, off that subject now, let me tell you what happened in school today. It was last period and we were going to our next class from lunch. Bernard had tried to pick a fight with Angelo (omar's bro) and well, Bernard didn't want to(good boy!). But, Angelo came inside the classroom and started to punch him and stuff. So then Jissette and Aseena told Bernard that he should stick up for himself. but, bernard still didn't want to. Then Ms. Tarter came and kicked bernard outside the classroom w/ angelo!! that was the meanest thing she could ever do. I actually felt pity for him.

ok, back to me. My heart is really hurt. But it's not like I can just stop liking him unless he does sumthing disgusting or uncool, then that would stop me. But he would least likely do that. I guess I could also stop if he was just ugly, but I guess that will never happen. unless he got caught in a fire or somthing (GOD FORBID!!!!). But I would love it if you readers would just wish the best for me. Ok peace out.

I wanted to hurry up and write this dream down before i forget it, it seems to mean something:

ok, I was at a police department, where i was looking through the book to see who've they arrested. i found out that Arthur B and Omar were arrested, so i sneaked them out the back with the help of a few other police officers. we were on top of a roof, and then we were in kings plaza. Afterwards, we were in fornt of our school waiting for a bus to come and pick us up to go on the trip. Tanika and the entire eighth grade was there. Omar's hair has grown back.

I have no idea what this dream is trying to tell me, but I just have a feeling that I am going to need it later on. See ya later!

Nothing really happened today. I mean, things did happen, but it wasn't something that i would come on here and scream about. but now my life is getting too boring :| I just wish that something out of the blue exciting would happen. And my SHSAT results come in two weeks, and i am feeling very nervous. I doubt that I am going to get into any of the schools. It would be great if I did, but yet again, if I do, I would most likely be alone w/ someone that i don't communicate with, or i'll just be alone period.

Ok now, I really need to get things straight with Omar. Myra says that I should just forget about him, and once he sees that, then he would be crawling to me. But I really don't think that that plan would work, since he would think that I am not interested. His bro was giving me this weird look, and if him and Omar are "keeping" something from me, then I guess that I better watch out. i bet he thinks that Myra likes him, since yesterday I was like Myra therwe goes ur BF, and she actually said hi to him afterwards. But if i were to say hi, he would be all jolly and stuff. O and did I tell you that once lunch first started, i was in the sit facing the front of the cafeteria, which is where he usually sat. But he didn't even sit there. He sat like at his table. Coincidence, I don't think so. He was even talking to his bro, which when I see them together, it kinda creeps me out. i be having the feeling that before they go to bed, they talk about me.

I just had a thought, what if his bro liked me first, and then he just wanted me to make his bro jealous? but then later on, he really did started to develop feelings for me too??? that would be so sad, but that is kinda how i felt too. I just saw him as a good looking guy. but once i finally talked to him, well i dunno, my brain and other parts just went balistic!!!! Now, I would feel so sad if he really didn't like me, o well, i guess thats how life is.

well i don't to bore you guys anymore, but there is one last thing i have to say... my school is going to be dismissed at 2:50 starting Feb. 6!! I'm soooo happy, that means that I can have an extra ten minutes to myself. Well i'm going to go and find another way to entertain myself, so tata!

Ok, things are getting too confusing for me, so i'm just going to leave it alone. i just can't keep up with him. Today was sooo boring, i just wanted to sleep. I wish that things can get worst, so worst that he would just leave, then things will put the cherry on top. well i'm going to go do my homework now, so peace

o and by the way, if you think that i am really not going to give up, trust me... I am. no more looking for him, and no more talking about him, i'm just going to live my life... seriously.

I am really ready to give up  now. He is the most confusing person I've ever liked. Yesterday, he was just talking to me, but today he's not. He even hit Myra w/ his gym clothes, right in front of me!! i mean, I think that he is making me jealous. When will this "phase" wear off??? I mean, there is still 4 more months left of school *sigh*. I want o surrender, but I just can't, so i will mond my own beezwax tomorrow, Peaaaaceee

OMG! Today was soooo crazy. i think that I am in BIG trouble. With who? Omar, of course. Let me tell you wht happened today:

Ok, it was lunch time and me and myra decided to get on the lunch line. And somehow, myra 

 skipped the entire lunch line, so it was just me, David, and Omar. Next thing I know, I hear Omar talking about me to David. Here is how the convo went(well, as well as i can rememebr it lol)

O: You hit that yet?

D: No, did you?

O: I tired 3 times!!!(note that he didn't even attempt not once before, tht liar)

me: hello!!! i'm right here listening!!!!

O: we weren't talking about you, we were talking about Chinatown!( both laugh)

O: Angelo,(his older bro)  Chynna said whats good.

AHHHHHHH!!!!! I mean come on!!! He is really getting me scared now. So scared, I just had to hit him( and i actually did):

It was last period, straight after lunch and Gabrielle was calling him tomato head. Then he walked inside of the classroom and pulled her hair. And i'm happy of what she did back, she punched him! And he actually punched her back!! And he was all like "i don't hit girls..." to myra, please! So then i was like " don't mess w/ her!" and then i punched him!!! i was just waiting for him to do something back, but it was taking too long, so i just apologized and ran away laughing!!!!!

I seriously don't know what to do. Well, I guess I should keep doing what i am doing now and don't change a thing. peace

I woke up with such a nervous feeling. I got to school like 5 min late, and I had to stand outside w/ myra and the rest of my friends. Then myra came and told me that omar was right there in front of the school. then i began to feel nervous again. I was just acting like i didn't see him, but I couldn't help but look at him. then i caught him smiling at me, i guess that he saw me looking at him, so he just wanted me to feel "nicer".

Then at lunch, i saw omar and eric coming my way. i was getting soooo scared man, i didn't even know wht to do. but then myra decided to go to see out friends shakayla, and elizabeth. and wht a coincidence, omar was right at that table. but i didn't want to go and make a fool at myself. but like 5 min later, i was like "wht the heck that can happen?" so me and sara left to go with myra. then when i sat down, i saw him in the corner of my eye just looking at me with this weird look. i was just sitting there madd scared. then later on, i went to get my lunch. i could of sworn tht he was on his way to get on the lunch line but he didn't. i was soo sad. and then when i went to the snack table w/ myra, and when he was about to sit down and eat, he ran farrrrr away. and then he said sumthing to eric, thts just how i knw tht he was talking about me.

i just hope tht he doesn't have anything against me because well, i am desperately tyring to get him, and i am going to try again tomorrow. so peace out guys.