today was very weird. to start, i wasn't really great in the academics and i was very sleepy although I went to sleep early. maybe i should sleep late then i'd be well rested. and everyone was leaving. i didn't feel important, like i usually do. later on today, on the way home, Michael tried to make me jealous by putting his arms around myra and sara. but it didn't really work because i don't like him anymore. but i don't know if he knows it.

oh yes and myra pointed out something. she has always found a way to be with me. she did it in 5th and 6th and 7th and now 8th. heck, she'll probably do it in high school. but she beat my curse. everyperson that i have become close w/(friend or relationship wise) has left me. there r like a million of them that i can't list them all but joshua(of course) was the latest and hardest event to understand.

well thats all i have to say. i hope that things get really worst tomorrow. i want to see how worst it can get.