today was one of those days that you just don't understand, and will not understand. i saw omar today, but i tried to ignore him for only God knows why. and all during lunch there were food fights and real fights trying to break out. and afterschool there was a fight. and omar's twin bro, angelou(who is a COMPLETE idiot) ran to the fight risking his life. he almost got hit by a f***ing truck! i swear, i ask omar like almost everyday," are related to him??" and sadly he says yes but always ends it with, "he's my own brother and i don't like him!"

o journal, i almost forgot to tell you about yesterday. While we were waiting for afterschool to begin, Omar came up to be and whispered my name again. so then i said his name, but then he started speaking chinese to mock me, but then he went up to dennis and told me wht my name was for some reason i don't know why. but he is soooooo cute, and i liked him before but now, it's like a crazy like. and i finally told him myra about him today in gym. she was all like, "eww, u like 'the idiot's' brother? well he's ok, but not that cute." well at least she didn't call him ugly lol.

o yeh and one more sad thing. i had the saddest dream that Jesse McCartney died at age 19, which is next year. i read it in a magazine and that he was shot as soon as he stepped out the shower with a tazor gun. so that means that he was electricuted. and also i read that the murderer had patted him dry and laid him on the ground wrapped in towels. then in my dream, i attended the fans' cerenony and we all lit candles and waved them in the air. it was sooo sad, that i woke up crying. well thats all for today. hopefully i can come back write again if there is anything exciting going on.