It has been two weeks without communications and it’s getting harder every time without hearing anything from him. We’ve lost contact since their phone line on their ship is not working. Emails we’re cut, phone satellite is disconnected, and still no network for his cellphone- not until they reach Cape Town, there’s a possible cell phone site on that place. They are supposed to reach Cape Town Port on the 29^th of March, 18:00hrs, GMT+1. While writing this journal, they’re sailing their way to Cape Town at about 06:04hrs of March 29. Waiting and hoping to hear from him because I’m missing him so bad.

After hearing bad news about their ship since the day we lost contact, it doesn’t stop me from worrying about him. Worst, it was announced last Saturday by Capt. Anil during his safety workshop that the Barents Sea (his ship) had fire last Friday. Initially of course I got shocked. It was another bad news from them and it bothers me so much. So when I heard that news I texted Kambal and Mama Ana informing them what I heard. Mama Ana called me up and told me not too panic and to think positive. She advised me to pray that he (they) will be fine and safe. I don’t know if I have to inform also his family about it. But Mama Ana told me not to, to keep them from worrying also.

“Oh my gosh!” I really can’t wait for them to reach port so we would be able to talk with each other. I just home they’re fine- he’s fine. It’s been days and nights thinking about him and what he’s been. It’s been a sleepless nights for me- is he also thinking about what I’ve been? When can we hear each other again? I’ve been so lonely and it’s really giving me pain now. All I see in my dreams is his face, because I think of him so much. It’s hard, so hard to handle a long distance relationship.