I start my day with a big yawn and a curling in my warm and cozy bed;
not thinking that I would absorb such informations from a friend so
dear. I took my shower and my breakfast without a hurry to go to
school. Knowing that is was hopeless to go to school without making a
tardiness note
from the discipline officer, I lest home with such an ease. I passes by
the bank to get my daily allowance, and to know that it was only 500
cash. After putting the greens in my wallet, I swiftly rode a jeepney
to the school avenue which I got a computer and opened my accounts:
email, friendster, and blog, waiting for my time to run out for me to
get in my class in the afternoon. It was 8 o'clock in the morning when
I realized that I have work to search in the internet. A speech. A
speech needed for the following week and also costumes for the upcoming
play.
It's 11:45 in the morning when I arrive in the school's front where
the
eateries are situated. There, I waited for my friends to get from their
classrooms and join me in the eating. Anxious to get up to the rooms
and see someone, I quickly finished my food and waited for my
companions, then rushed up the corridor to meet her. But unfortunately,
she wasn't there, but rather with her friends. So I decided to play
cards, and for a couple of games, I won them. Then seeing her walk
inside our classroom, I instantly left the play area after the game,
placed my bag on my desk, and went to my locker to get my things.
Reaching the room, there I saw her. She hugged me and I too. I hugged
her tight as if I haven't seen year her for years. Then, I bent my head
down close to her ear and asked, "Are you mad at me?". And she
answered, "No! Not you." But I asked again to make sure, and I still
received the same answer. My heart seemed to stop beating. But then I
realized, I'm safe. And my assumptions had been erased. I hugged her
still.
Classes were finished. It's time for me to attend my appointments.
Meetings which were for the organizations. Then I got back to our
classroom where the casts of the play in which I am part of were to
have a meeting. We had our acting exercises for the play. We practiced
some moods in which needed for the play.
After that meeting, I decided to leave the campus and head for the
street to lead her to her ride. Together with my friend, we walked with
her and we reached the place where her ride was. Then, after she
stepped on it, my friend and I left for a snack bar where I finally got
to talk to him about things again: about life, love, and experiences.
There I shared my experiences, my thoughts and learnings. He asked me
about love and about the person he is in to. I explained things related
to situations we had and lived through. Things I learned form
experiences and problems he and I encountered. There I showed him my
friendship and love as a friend.
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Realizing everything that happened, I
pondered and stopped for a second to think of what will happen after. I
did not think of it. I wasn't prepared for it to happen. But one thing
is still haunting me. I am afraid of it. I do not think I am ready to
face it. Love. That's what it is. But i cannot release myself from it.
I am afraid of it... but I need it.