The Dark feelings and thoughts come without warning, attacking me from every possible direction, leaving me paralyzed and empty, Unable to regain the strenghth that I must possessed and the Joy that I once lived with.

It is the Hope of past times and future dreams that give me a new breath, a second chance, and the ability to go on with this life... what am I to do ? where am I to go ? who will save me, who will take me away from this nighmare of a life? The answer is nobody, no one understands my struggle, my pain and sorrow , sees what i see or feels how i feel.. they say "it will be ok" or "take it easy" But they do not see the world as I do, they do not know what it is like to doubt who you areif anyone loves you or what the next five minutes will be like, they do not know what it is like to be inthis skin,have to maintain a smile when all you wnat to do is cry, they have no idea.

R.C.