The Borderline lives in a temporary world, when I speak of the Borderline I speak for myself as I cannot for others but I am sure many feel very much the same as I do. By temporary I mean that All that I feel, Live through, and endure in life is temporary and soon passes on and something else takes it"s Place, only for that also to be replaced shortly. I may feel depressed, frustrated, Happy, excited, bored, and on and on but soon that feeling passes and another arises. The trouble is that one never knows what feeling will be next on the horizon. What will take place, what will I have to go through, Good or bad ? I also view loved ones and positive expieriences as Temporary, thinking that it is too good to be true or I will be abandoned or that good things never last. This sense of everything being temporary makes for a very uncertain life, hence why the Borderline seeks to Hold on to everything as if It was Life or Death, not letting go in fear of being left alone and although at times I seek aloneness, It scares the heck out of me because left to my own devices and feelings, I live in a very dark place.

So, there is the search for something real and lasting, a Thing, person, or place that will Fill me up on a more permanent basis and allow the feelings to stay with me, The ability to stay put and follow through without running or hiding is another issue at hand, a way to deal with life on life"s terms, To accept oneself.. Hard  to do when everything is temporary and constantly changing. I Have yet to find this thing, person, place or most important Feeling but I know it must be there, I know of others who have Constancy and Consistency in their Life and are able to be stable and Fuction.  I look at the "Three I"s" as a set of emotions that continue to keep me stuck in this temporay state of Constant Madness. They are - Impulsivity, Irrationalbility and Instability ! These feelings and ways of being keep a person stuck, full of Ego, and on a self destructive path. How does one change it, make better choices and Ultimately come out on top and behave in Consistent, Positive, healthy ways ?? I am not sure but I know that the "three I"s" are a roadblock to accomplishing anything because when you are Instable then you cannot function and do what needs to be done, you are a mental and emotional mess with very few tools at your disposal. when you are Irrational then you do not take sound Advice and act out in ways that are not of wise mind But act on emotions and often this results in making the wrong choices. Finally, when you are Impulsive then you are not in control of your Body, Mind, or Life.. You act out on what you feel at the moment and often it is very self destructive, I picture the three I"s " as being interchangeable and can work together to defeat people and prohibit them from making progress.

There are many behaviors and feelings that cause the Borderline to act out in ways that are counter productive and harmful to themselves and others also but Nothing is clear to the Borderline, they see no Straight line to success or a destination, It is a very confusing, up and down, Painful Life for them, One that does have hope but they need three things.. Personal Insight, Professional Counseling and Medication Treatment, and A Family or Personal support system.. Without understanding and acceptance then the Borderline has very little chance of recovery.. Understanding is the most important factor as We feel misunderstood and to Recover we need to establish some sense of Constancy and Stability in our Lives, How do we do that.. Working one day at a time through the Tornado of Emotions and Maze of Confusion.. One Day at a Time is what it takes, One Second at a time To be more accurate as all is Temporary for Us, and to make some permenant You need Time and Consistentcy.

R.C