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1/25/2008
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My explanation (poem)
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Nothing ever stays the same but changes in ways I cannot explain I wonder how long this game with last as I get fed up with constant visons of my past. Love, hate, moodiness, distraught, and much more are the feelings that consume me and every five seconds send me running out the door. I love you, I hate you is what I say and I am so sorry to treat you this way.. It is not my fault or own doing but something inside of me that continues brewing I feel such anguish and painful nothingness and everything I try for eventually becomes a mess. Nobody understands me I cry out and nobody cares I say but is this true or just more of my irrational fears.. I want to change and be normal like everyone else , when will I ever accept the hand that I have been dealt I feel crazy and lost all the time and never know what is truly mine... I search for answers but none appear, please God tell me why am I still here ? Please try to see why I act this way and do not blame for for being Gay..Please tell me that I am good and not evil I do not know how else to explain who I am but to say.. It is just me.... I have many faces and this disorder that covers them all and maybe one day, I will learn how to crawl.. |
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