You appear as a friend but disguise your true colors so very well

You try to convince me that it will be like it once was and you will

show me joy and relief but we all know that what you offer is pure hell.

I got away from your grip that you once held on my life and I have gone on

to live in better and far different ways but I know that this desire to call you up again

is cutting through me like a very large knife.

The feelings that you create are so very great but it is that you later turn into the devil and

destroy who I am that will be my ultimate fate..

Please go away and leave me alone, I do not want you around, I want to be clean ..However

I know of your capacity to be so very mean..

Fear, anxiety, and all that goes with such feelings fill me at this moment as I know you are just waiting to bust through

the door and have your way with me once again..

I am no poet I know this all too well , I just want to tell you that I do not wish to return to your Hell.

R.C.