Trapped again by this crippling addiction, It grabs me and spins me around. It is just a symptom of my damaged mental health but destroys me just the same.. I am lost and scared and nobody understands, that I do not wish to be like this or make such mistakes.. I am a drug addict, sexual deviant, and overall just fucked up.. who will help ?? I cannot stay clean or manage my emotions or feelings.. I feel so very trapped and bound by the bondage of self.. so sad.. Someone please rescue me from crystal"s grip on me, from it trying to kill me and take my life.. BPD is the disorder and addiction is a symptom.. but together they are tearing me apart.

R.C.