Oh, why do you tempt me so..

Why do you remain in my thoughts ?

I know the destruction you will cause but cannot let you go..

I know what your intentions are but cannot resist your pull..

Tina, you make me feel so good and then so awful..

I feel so free and painless when you come over

but then when you decide to leave I cannot hold on to that warm, fuzzy feeling any longer

I crash and burn as they say, the pain increases and insanity sets in..

It is you that started this pattern

it is you that won"t let me go..

people call me weak and judge my every move ,

but they have no idea how hard it is to let go of a life full of sex crazed, free, and wild encounters with you..

they have no idea what it is like to float in the clouds with you my dear..

I know that I must fight and say No this time Tina..

but that is something that feels impossible to do..

as All I want right now..Is You !

R.C.