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3/1/2008
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Emotionally Paralyzed
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So many emotions all the time that I deal with.. This sadness that I feel right now is so very powerful.. I just wanna medicate so I do not have to feel it anymore. I feel that I want certain things but cannot obtain them, I feel that life is so cruel and unfair..I feel this chronic emptiness and darkness inside of me that I am not sure if it is from the Crystal that depletes my happy chemicals in my brain or just the overall state of my emotions working against me or something else.. But I feel so very down and not sure how to pull myself up. What will help, or will anything?? Will it just get worse and worse as time goes on or will I find a way out of this madness?? These questions and so much more plague me everyday..I want things but am afraid to ask for them as I fear that people will tell me No which crushes me . |
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