About Me
Recent Posts
- The struggle within
- Always Seeking
- Help ( poem )
- Been awhile since I posted
- Struggling with difficult choices
Menu
Calendar
| Mon | Tue | Wed | Thu | Fri | Sat | Sun |
|---|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 |
| 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 |
| 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 |
| 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 |
| 29 | 30 | 31 | ||||
Friends
Links
- My Wall
- bpdcentral
- Nimh BPD Info
- kci meth recovery community
- Another great and informative BPD site
- Meth recovery site
- My Other BPD site
- Free Blog
Entry 1 of 336
Last Page | Next Page
3/15/2008
-
Another Rant
|
I never, ever know how I feel. It drives me nuts. I think I feel OK and then depression and painful reflections about my life and how it all went wrong comes crashing in on me. I think I am down and then I suddenly can muster a smile that is not faked . I want to just one time feel a feeling and feel really sure about it and not so torn and confused. No matter what the feeling, good or bad. I just want some consistency and sureness in my life. I just sit there staring into space and not knowing what to do next. I wanna cut, drink, just escape but I don"t. I do not want to be BPD anymore, it has lost it"s appeal. Yeah, now I really sound loony, Talking about BPD having appeal but it certainly has made my life interesting at times. Although it tears me apart and causes me to tear my relationships apart. Gotta get up in morning and move to new place but don"t want to face the world, I just want to sleep. I miss my drugs, I miss my escapes. What do I do ? I know nobody can answer this, I guess I am just venting so I do not feel all of this anxiety and stress pent up inside of me.
R.C.
|
Post A Comment! :: Send to a Friend! |
Permanent Link