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3/28/2008
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Feel like a boy !
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Feel like a boy , people tell me no, wait, or you can go now. Feel like a child, they say I am inpatient, spoiled, or bad. Feel so inferior , I am yelled at, don't do this, wait here, not now they say. Rejection after rejection , No after No, It never stops, of course there are a few who care and do not disappoint.. there are others who get off on letting me down. but how many have I let down ? Too many to count. I don't wanna want, ask, or try ever again. It is doomed to be shot down, I am doomed to fail, it is my fate. I spill a drink, let the puppy play, or fail to impress and people yell.. that hurts don't you know, I am fragile don't they see. I told you that I feel like a boy but you say I am a man. I tell them I am a man in society's view but a boy in mine. Don't make me grow up, the world is scary, let me hide here. I wanna be a boy ! I wanna be a child ! I wanna just stay here where it is safe. Why can't I ? Why do I have to grow up ? |
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