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4/1/2008
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That is it, I just wanna Quit !
| Frustrations in life that make me so sad Living in the 3rd world there are so things that are different than that in developed nations and one of those is Internet access, I live in a city with more Internet cafes than hospitals, police stations, and restaurants combined but for some reason the cable company does not have the ability nor the desire to provide such access in my area of the city. I live on a street that runs to the south and the cable company does not have access in streets that run north-south outside of the downtown area. Only east- west and the frustrating part is that I live 3 houses away from a street that they do provide such access and yet they say it is not possible to extend service. Three damn houses ? If I had known this I would not have moved out of the center. So, I tried for DSL service with the phone company. No problem right ? This is not New York, London, or even Mexico . I learned that you can only get DSL service if your phone number starts with a 311 extension and not a 315 one. To complicate matters more you can only get that 311 number after you have had phone service for over five years. I thought, of course money talks in these kind of countries so I will be OK, I mean I am not rich by any means but I offered to pay them $100 for such a number and they would do it (wouldn't you ) but there are no more 311 numbers left so I have to wait months and months until one becomes available. Leaving me with only two options and those are two satellite companies , one charges $200 per month for service and the other only $70 but the installation charge is $200. The phone company does offer satellite service as well but they charge $75 per meter for installation, per fucking meter !!! So, although I have two awesome computers I am forced to go out everyday across town and to a bar or hostel that has Wi Fi and sit amongst people that make me uncomfortable and do my online stuff. I want to just sit at home in my boxers and do the dozens of things I gotta do daily online, I wanna get online at night, when I wake up but cannot. My recovery and sobriety depends on me getting support online but cannot fully. Leo ( my wife ) gets frustrated when I complain about this problem, when I get depressed and such. She thinks, it is just internet, not a big deal. The ability to get online is secondary to breathing for me and not being able to do so for such trivial reasons makes me sad, mad, and ready to just get on a plane and say goodbye to the third world and return to the first world. Today the likelihood of me getting arrested is high, I have drawn a map of my house and street and will go to the cable company making hand movements fighting for a solution, I will do this as none of the fuckers speak English. I feel like those postal workers who are wronged so they go and shoot up the office. I will not go that far as I am not violent but I feel like this. This is my rant, it is stuff like this that causes me to drink, use, and slice up my flesh. Ahhhhhhhh is how I feel. I just wanna toss up my hands and quit. |
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