happy new year creeps!

Well here I sit updating from my bedroom, a place I feel most comfortable in, why? Well because it looks like its been lived in! the kitchen/living/dining room has to remain spotless according to my mother, its almost come to a point where you cant eat because it will make too much of a mess!! So my bedroom, is not dusty but not all that tidy either! I havnt looked under my bed all through the holidays incase theres something weird growing under there!!...

Christmas is over!!! Like how did it go by so fast, it crazy!! I enjoyed Christmas even though it holiday spirit was very low!! And all people wanted to do was go out on the piss!! I know that surprising to hear from me, but I love Christmas and its not all about drinking people!! Its about me putting on my ridiculous Christmas hat ive had since i was little and looking stupid but not caring because hey its Christmas!its about getting stuffed on your mothers food and eating enough to last you till next year!! Its about catching up with family and friends and having them reaslise no im not in school anymore! Its about talking bout grand mother stories and wishing she were here this Christmas! Its about singing in the choir eventhough you cant sing for fuck, but hey your miming so it doesn´t matter cause hey its Christmas! Its about watching the wizard of ozz and knowing every line because its always on!

So new years was like "same shit different year"... full of mickey finns, crazy drunk people, sexy straight chicks and me dancing like a dork but having the craic nonetheless ...same as last year...although, it was kinda weird, talking bout chick too my best friends sister (who is such a cool person) in my local pub...im sure I shocked a few people that night, but hey life is short, why hide who you are?!...theres been a lot of people saying we should live life to the full lately, in random conversations or in deep philosophical drunken conversation on the bus ride home! So we come to a conclusion: we are all getting old, and we don´t know how much time we have left, and its almost come to a point where we don´t want to drink because if black outs....i mean it´s a whole night lost! What happened last nite? I don´t know, all I remember being at the bar! The coolest night I went out and got tipsy, a girl from our football team asked I if I were gay! I said yes and she said that´s cool and hugged me and I remember it so well!! I remember thinking why should I care? But I was just happy because I always had a school girl crush on her, the kind where you got butterflys but knowing nothing will happen!! School girls crushes were always a bitch, but it felt so intense where as when you grow up you no longer get that butterfly feeling and life doesn´t seem so exciting! I use to sit in my bedroom at 13 and dream of it, thinking it was another world away but now its here, im free...im a god damn adult and people are getting engaged at my age!!! Its crazy, cause I feel like im still 16, enjoying life and not thinking of the future and living in the moment! It is crazy but maybe the best way to be, for nobody knows if tomarrow is another day or not!

Aye well, thers another week of holidays and my best friend is coming from America soon!! New years was not the same without her!! But I guess we all must live our owns lives no matter how much you love somebody! As someone once said to me, hey just because you don´t hear from me, doesn´t mean Im not your friend! To know theyre just a phone call away is comforting!! Well its late my bed is calling out and my wooden floor is cold anyway!! If these walls could speak oh what stories would be told...of crushes, love, wishes and dream, of me in my crazy teen years and coming to terms with who I am! But it´s the past now, I am now an adult (in age that is)...it´s a new year and we must go on!!

Peace out!!

11:20 PM - 1/2/2006 - post comment

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Oh my GAWD Bernie I am way too hungover to be reading such bright red letters.... I think my headache has gotten worse because I can't focus my eyes now..... Mad one last night, I was off my face in the Stage and made a holy show of moiself! Fun times, had been drinking with Johnny since 3 that day! Anyways cool ya had a good Crimbo. We shall head to EDEN on Friday 13th. You shall join us, of course.

Ned............................ bleh

Anonymous - 9:45 AM - 1/4/2006

Happy New Year!

Bernie Don't Listen to Anonamous!!! I love your gay ass!!! he he Ok been drinkin, read my last entry and youll see why!! HE HE



Love ya! Miss hearing from ya! Hope all is well and good things cum to you in the new year!



Scarlet

MyImmortalLust - 10:42 AM - 1/5/2006