jennie and me

so its 9:00 in the morning, college started half an hour ago but our lectuer aint in (woowho) actually not woowho, i couldve stayed in bed today if i knew he wouldnt be in :-( ah well, shit happens!

so the sun is shining and im feeling tired but good, had to get up at 6:20 to drive in today, tis a bitch! so eden is on this sunday, dunno if ill go tho. jennie wants me to go to cjurch with her this sunday aswell, shell be singing so it should be nice! having dinner with her and jennie tonight so am looking forward to it!!

when we were out on thursaday, she told me she was going home, and i was like why (me being totally drunk and legless) she looked me in the eye and said (because ive got a girlfriend waiting for me at home) it was like being she ripped on my heart and showed me it. i wish i couldve drank more to numb the pain but i felt so phiscally sick i had to go home!! she has a girlfriend, i knew that, yet i didnt. i mean we hung out and there were good time yet i blocked it out..i blocked it out cause i wish it were just me and her, in the college bar, having fun. making fun of eachother. me making her laugh...but now its me, her and regina. now she sees me crying but doesnt know why, i cried when she luked me in the eyes the nite we walked home and told me im here for you, cause your not. you think you are but your not. not the way id like and it kills think of  it!

7:59 AM - 6/27/2005 - post comment