Sea Witch

Sea Witch

Her eyes looked into mine

from across the distant sea

eyes that flickered like candle light

into a mist of hazel.

Held enraptured

blood organ attributed to love

stops for half a beat.

Air caught within the throat

my pulse thumped within the

vein.

Entangled in the woven spell

I thought I saw her smile

or was it just a play in light.

Through the winds I would travel

if I could cross the oceans

to come close to you.

IN my dreams I know you call me

I heard the melody echo in my ears

so you taunt me like the fog and

shadows.

Never is close enough

each step in your direction

only draws you farther from me.

You are my illusion

conjured from smoke and mirrors

but still my love manifested

real.

A self-curse placed upon myself

I try to close my eyes against it, but

you are already ingrained within

my mind.

Counting the beats of my soul

until I may lay eyes upon you again

hear your voice inside my bones

to know that I will never have possession

of you, but still you are always

a part of me.

11:42 PM - 9/11/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Diuretic

3:28 PM - 9/11/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

When Moonbeams Die

When Moonbeams Die

Listless moonbeams

melt away

they flounder and flutter

in dying gasps for air,

it would be quite the sight

to see,

if one would not be blinded

with the need to weep.

Oceans collected in each

single drop,

where sirens song heard

in every ill begotten splash,

leaving the stone to ripple

in each crack.

One would search for a meaning

only to laugh when they discover

there is none,

only these moonbeams

that no longer have their place

among the heavens.

8:40 PM - 9/10/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

The Key

The Key

There upon the porcelain table face

flecked in dust that catches

in sunlit beams shined through

the window's glass, lined with

a single crack,

causing a dance, each particle

seems to alight, like a fire

extinguished before it began.

A key was at rest, as if in waiting

for something, though long it must

have sat, silently it possessed

knowledge and secrets that may

never be had,

for somewhere suspended in time

there is a lock, empty and void

its alignments just right

for only one single match,

but the red-orange crust

begins its gluttonous feast

in the growing discolored splotches

of rustic disease.

Stillness lingers and drapes

of cobwebs downward drift,

one may never know voices

that no longer echo here

or movement that is long lost.

so there is a single key

the grand centerpiece

outshone not by a vase

which cradled within,

funeral flowers from so many

yesterdays ago.

4:18 PM - 9/9/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

September Dawn

I just saw the movie September Dawn today and WOW! It was really brutal on Morminsism and Brigham Young. I am surprsied there have not been protests considering how much people love to protest things. Maybe there have in Utah, don't know how many Morons there are in this state, or maybe they are just too shamed to protest and do not want to draw any undue attention to themselves. But they are crazy it was really quite frightening, and I always thought Mormonsim was well a bit crazy based on some of the things they beleived, and I never gave it much more criditablity then Scientology. But it was pretty unbealivable, and I know that Hollywood can be liberal with the truth, but most everything the movie dipicted is supported by acutal histocal documentation.

The thing that really gets me thought, is that near everyone, no matter what you beleive or where you come from, there has been some horrible things that happend in your past or history, but the thing that makes the Morons different and sets them apart from everyone else, is the fact in the case of everyone else, they have by now come forward and said, hey that was a really bad idea, and it should never have happend.

The Morons have not so much as acknolweged that they did this (though they cannot out in out deny it becasue the evidence cannot be ignored), but they have given no sign of apology or regeret that it happend and further more, what is really bad, and well kind of sickining, and to me makes them just as guitly was the ones whom acutally did it, is they still worship and revere Bringham Young and John Smith. They still use his teachigns as the core of thier beleif.. And it just makes my skin crawl to think ther is even a University named after him.

And they try and protect him, they cannot deny the fact the the Morons really did slaughter all those innocent people and tried to use the Indians as a scape goat, but they still try and say the Bringham Young had abolutely nothing to do with it. Even though it was his adopted son that led the Morons against the settalers. And they then used his adopted son as the fall guy for htem all, he was the only one who was presecuted for what happend.

The other thing is that these so called relgious people who beleive in God not only slaughtered innocent men, women, and childern whom posed them no threat, and deviced the Indians into helping them. But they did it all for greed. It is a known and proven fact, that not only did the Morons take all of the settalers gold, cattle, and horses, but they acutally stripped each of the individual bodies of the dead, of all thier jewleary and valubale personal poccessions.

It was also unbeleabve how quick and easy these so called followers of God could just lie, lie lie, in order to get what they want, of course that part of it was just the movies portrayl and I do not know if there is any historical documentation to support that fact of it.

If there really were a god, it would make for quite the amusing thought, to think of all those whom were responseable for that event, and who were acutally there and comitted those acts, rotting in hell right now, and wondering, what they hell happend? So sure they would be exalted and go to one of thier many heavens.

4:45 AM - 9/9/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

My Blossom

My Blossom

A sweet drop of memory

taste of rosewater

planted within me

your warmth would spread

through me.

My heart upon a bed of feathers

for your tender touch

hold me close within your arms

whispered kiss upon my ear.

Your lips upon my eyes lids

stroke me gently with your fingers

so the bloom may grow within me

the flower of my love spread throughout.

Radiating beauty while in blossom

you give me the light

that shines inside

and your kisses are drops

of the moon.

3:49 AM - 9/8/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Verse 15

"We are running out of time" Niccoli stated as he paced back and forth against the intricate rug which was woven beneath his feet, while the fire of the hearth burned behind him, causing him within its yellow glow, and reflected pleasantly off of his face, though such aesthetics Sasha was not in the mood for. She always found it irritating the way Niccoli tended to state the obvious in such a way as if she did not know, or was just choosing to ignore the fact.

Currently she was reclined upon the soft velvet of the couch. One of her long legs hung off the edge of the couch, her heels kicked off to the side her barefoot pressed to the floor, as her other leg was stretched out along the length of the couch. The tight little red number she was wearing tonight, was hiked up slightly riding along the mid of her tight. A few strands of her dark hair made a veil against the side of her face. It made her tired watching him pace as he did. He always worked himself up like this. Sometimes she felt like she had to do all the work.

"Yes I know" She said barely even trying to hide her exasperation. "But we only have one opportunity, there are know do overs, so we have no choice but to wait until everything is aliened just right."

This would bring Niccoli to a direct halt. It always rankled him the way she had to contradict everything he said. He spun upon his heel to face her. "It will not do us any good if the child is conceived." Of course it was true, it was growing near the time now that Luca would choose the vessel and once his seed was planted, if anything should happen to him, the child will unquestionably be a male, and in the time of the child’s development and growth the mother would hold his place and this inherent of his powers, not to mention a great deal of effort would be put into insuring the safety of the child and mother until the time the child ascended and was old enough to take leadership.

"Yes, yes, I know, but unless you have any suggestions, then we have not much choice but to bide are time. If it was so easy then it would be done by now and we would not be sitting here having this discussions." Things had not always been this way, but ever sense they had begun to connive together, it seemed to only be one argument after another, and there was an undercurrent as if they resented each other’s company. Sasha pushed herself up to sit upon the couch; she was not in the mood to go over this again tonight. She pushed herself up to stand as she walked over to Niccoli trailing her fingers just up his chest. "Come one, we can do nothing about it now, let us just go to bed."

Niccoli would not be moved, but instead seemed to harden against her as he turned away. "You always do this, when we are trying to have this discussion, you always change the subject. I wonder sometimes if you have not changed your goals, and if you are not just using this as an excuse to experiment with that new pet of yours." His voice had taken on the unpenatrateable cold tone and she knew he was closed off to her now. He had always hated Fenton from the start, and seemed to gain some cruel pleasure in referring to him as her "pet" she had always suspected he was jealous but did not understand. Could he not see the boy was nothing more then a pawn, a tool for them to use.

"Fine" was all she would say. "I will go bed alone." She turned and began to make her way over to the stairs leaving him to do whatever he liked with himself.  

11:40 PM - 9/7/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Magick to Miracle

Well I was just thinking, and it is never a good idea when I get alone in my head and lost in my thoughts becasue I begin to ponder upon currious things, which is what brings us to todays topic. I do not know how I first got on this train of thought but I began thinking about how funny it is, that things Christains claim are evil and bad when a non-christain preforms them, they somehow seem to make an excuse for themselves to do such things.

What I am speaking of specifally now, is magick, yes I said magick, particuarly with the whole Harry Potter thing, though I am not a fan of Harry Potter I think it is quite ridiculous how so much of the Christain community is against it.

The Bibile just happens to be littered with occurances of magick, and Christains claim they are against magick, and that those who preform magick are allinged with Satan, and there are a few passages in the Bibile that denounce the use of magick, yet at the same time, whenever a Christian preforms an act of magick they slap the word Miracle on it and call it a gift from God.

To give few examples:

First we have the Big C himself Jesus Christ (yes I am using bad rapper slang to talk about Jesus) He is going around turning water into wine, healing through the touch of his hands, and walking on water.

By the way, tranformations, healing, and walking on water, all also happen to be feats that Ancient Magicians were attributed with the ablity to preform.

Then we have Moses parting the Red Sea, and I should point out that like 99.9% of all visual images of him depict a man who curriously looks very much like a wizzard, staff and all.

The there is Noah, who if you ask me really takes the cake here. He somehow manages to build a giganitic arc that is big enough to hold a pair of each animal in the world, and yet still floats, and then he manages in a rather short peirod of time, to gather up two of a kind of every animal all acorss the world, and gets each of them somhow back to the ship, all without getting eaten or trampled upon and somehow keeping the animals from eating each other. Then he somehow gets all of these animals to board the vessal, and in the course of the journey prevents utter and total chaos from breaking out on board with all the aniamals, some of them natural enemies, jam packed together.

Then there is Necormancy (for those that do not know Necromancy is a form of magick that deals with the dead in a varity of ways) now ther is acutally passage in the Bibile the denounces the use of Necromancy, and yet at the same time thier are at least two, perfectly accpetiable occurances of Necromancy in the Bibile, the first being Lazerus rising from the Dead, and the other being Jesus himself rasing from the dead, but of course becaue they are Christian they call it Resserection and somehow turn it into a good thing.

Of course if a non-Christain were to have, or alleedgely have comitted any of the acts listed above, it would be because they were evil and mad a pact with the devil.

10:21 PM - 9/7/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Quote of the Week

Yes for once I acutally remebered to do it on time, I know for a while I have been falling behind on this. I really enjoyed this one, as well it was nice of have a quote from a woman

Artificial manners vannish the moment  the natural passions are touched--Maria Edgeworth

3:18 PM - 9/7/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Suspended Part 2

Thank you all for your comments and support, here is a bit of an update on the situation. When I contacted to ask them to clarify what sort of erotic they allow this is what they sent back to me.

Why was my erotic literature removed?

Written submissions which place undue emphasis upon genitalia or which graphically describe sexual acts in detail will be classified by the deviantART administration as inappropriate material and subjected to immediate removal without prior warning.

Deviants who are found to repeatedly submit this material despite previous administrative removals may be subjected to a ban of a temporary or permanent nature depending on the exact circumstances and number of prior violations.

Which to me just seems silly, if they are going to be that strict or rigid about it, they way to they offer an erotica catagory at all if they do not allow you to acutally to descibe sexual activity in any real detail, becasue to me that is just confussing and I know I am not the only one becasue several other memebers have stories of the name nature as mine (I guess they just have not go caught yet).

The other thing that seemed strnage to me, is they did not even remove all of my erotica stories but they were all of the same nature, so that just further confused me, but when I am allowed back on I am just going to delete them myself so I do not have to deal with it again.

"It does say 'Occurrences of Underage Sexual Activity'"

That is strange, it did not say that when I logged on my account, all it said was pronogrpahic matterail. I did have a story in which a highschool girl was engaged in sexual activity

"Still, how do they know all this? Did someone tell on you?"

I do not know if the staff just happend upon it and saw it for myself or if some ninny decided to squeal even though all of my stories were properly labaled as erotica, and tagged as mature content so it was perfectly clear what would be contained within the stories.

But that is just how it goes. But pretty soon my friend is going to be giving me my own blog on the updated version of his website that he is working on, and he does not beleive in any form of censorship, and already gave me free reign to post my erotica and anything else I want there.

3:01 PM - 9/7/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Suspended

I am so annoyed and pissed off right now I just had to rant becasue I just do not understand.

I went to go on my DA gallery today to discover that my account had been suspended for 2 weeks, they say becasue I posted pornographic mattieral.

Now I had started posting several erotica stories on my DA gallery, but the thing I do not understand is that

A. They have a catagory specfically desginated for posting erotica

B. I have read varrious stories from other members of the same nature of my own, it was reading the stories from different members that first gave me the idea to start writing.

So I am not really sure just why they have decidied to single me out and decide there was a problem with my stories. Or what they decide is acceptiable erotic, opposed to what is not.

And they do not explain anything, as for thier reasons except some vauge explinations but they do not give me the specifics of just why my stories were in violation.

12:19 AM - 9/7/2007 - comments {4} - post comment

Implications

I have recently started reading this new book, and it is intresting so far, but there was this one scene in particular that I found quite intresting, and I think really speaks to the nature of humans, and the human physchology.

There is this man who is subletting this flat he has just beneath his own home, and he is about to meet the new renter for the very frist time, who happens to be this rather mysterous and strange woman. So she knocks on the door, and he goes to asnwer it, and for a moment she is just standing there not saying anything and then out of nowhere she prenounces. "Your neighbor is a thief" thouhg she gives no reason or explination, that is all she says.

Now we do not know ezacdtly how long the man has been living there, but you get the impression it has been a while, and he kows his neighbor, has had his neighbor over at his house before, and other then the fact he finds his company a bit annoying ther is nothing to suggest he has had any other porblems with his neighboor, but now all of the sudden becasue of something some complete strange stated he has started becomming paranoid about his neighboor and watching him out of the corrner of his eye.

9:12 PM - 9/6/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

The Devil

The Devil

6:20 AM - 9/6/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Do drugs and become a vamprie

Ok according ot the latest anti-drugs and drinking ad that I just saw, if you do drugs or drink, you will turn into a vampire.

There was this ad in which this guy is walking through a school pushing this big old mirror on wheels with him, and it is passing through all the people and they all look up and see themselves in the mirror before he comes to stop just before this kid, who looks up, and then cannot see his reflection in the mirror and this voice says. "Yours friends cannot always see the effects drugs and drinking has on them" or something to that affect.

7:28 AM - 9/5/2007 - comments {2} - post comment

Is there a real doctor in the house

I was flipping through the channels when I came across the Dr. Phil show which I never acutally watch, but now and then it can be amusing to watch bits and pecies of it depending who is on the show, and when I happend upon it it was some woman who was afried of her son who is 10 years old, becasue he goes into these violent rages. And normally I tend to just roll my eyes and laugh at people who claim they are afriad of thier childern, becasue if you are afriad of your own kids as a parent then you just do not know how to be a parent and cannot control your own damn kids, and I really have no sympathy.

But watching the video type of the kid that the mom took and hearing some of the things he has done in the past, I think he is really a certifiable sociopath, and it was kind of sad seeing them on Dr. Phil because they have an acutal real problem that requires more then just some phony TV personality, but really they should be getting legetiment help form a liscenced and certified pyschologist.

3:05 AM - 9/5/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Rainbow

Rainbow

By William Wordsworth

My heart leaps up when I behold
A Rainbow in the sky:

So was it when my life began;
So is it now I am a man;
So be it when I shall grow old,
Or let me die!

The Child is father of the man;
And I could wish my days to be

Bound each to each by natural piety.

3:57 PM - 9/4/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Robot Mom

I just heard this story on the radio that AT&T has this website now that lets parents control the cell phones of thier teenagers, like via the website, they can control how many minitues the kids use, or how much they spend on ringtones, or if they don't want there kid making or reciviving calls past a certian hour they can shut the phone down, and if they don't want thier kids text messaging at school, they can block that feature during the time they are in class and so forth.

What happend to parents parenting the old fasioned way? Now they all expect new technology to do thier job for them, the samething with the blocking system on TVs instead of supervising what your kids watch on TV now you can just black certain channels or shows, so you can just sit your kid in front of the TV without having to do anything.

If you don't want your kid to exceede a certain amount of minitues or to rack up 1000 ringtones, then you give them the maxium they are alloud to have and if they exeecde that, take the phone away untill they prove they can be resonseablie and resepct the rules.

If you don't want your kid on the phone at 10 at night, you make sure thier phone is off and stays off, and if you find out they are talking past the time you allowed, you tell them to turn off the phone, and you take it for the night, and tell them if they do it again they will loose the phone for good.

If you don't want your kids text messaging at school, then don't let them have the phone at school, and if for some reason you feel they need a phone at school, tell them it is only for emergency, and if you find out they were using it for anything else, then don't let them take it to school anymore, isntead give them some change to use a pay phone if they really have to make a call untill they earn the privialgage back.

2:57 PM - 9/4/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Verse 14

Slowly Salene felt power return to her body again, and the wicked hold slide away from her with its price extracted and she felt as if she could move once more. Drawing herself up to sit upon the cold hard floor, as she stared in a moment of loathing at the now black eye. She felt the desperate urge to fling it across the room and aware from her, but the idea of her skin touching it made her shudder and she knew it would not shatter, and surely there would be a consequence to causing it such an offense. So she tried to turn away from it, but even blind as it was now, she imagined it watching her every move with hunger, trying to taunt her back in again.

Salene resisted its dark lust and would draw her robe around her milky body. She felt so cold for having touched upon something perhaps greater then the abyss and the image that was revealed if only for that second echoed like a taunt within her mind. It could not be she thought to herself, and yet what place did denial have? Something wicked this way comes. It was a bemusing thought and apt for the situation, but Salene wondered who was it that had to fear? Who were the wicked in this court?

Of course Salene’s loyalty could not be questioned. She would do everything within her power to stop it, to stop HER, and yet, even so, that did not make it right, where was the line between right and wrong? Perhaps a greater person would leave the Blood fall. It was fear that kept them all alive. Fear and power, the two running together were like an addiction.

Now the question was what was Salene to do with her discovery? She knew it was something fragile, who could she really trust with it? She dare not to speak it to any of her sisters but could she go to Luca? She felt a great tightening grip hold of her at the thought it, somehow she thought she needed to keep this to herself for now, and she would find the means to prevent the coming disaster. Everything hung within precarious balance now.

11:29 PM - 9/3/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Quote of the Week

Well I just had to post this one by Shakespeare, and I do quite enjoy this quote.

Few love to hear the sins they love to act--William Shakespeare

3:36 AM - 9/2/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Sound Waves

Becasue of my beliefs, I do beleive that all living things have a soul and some form of conciousness and so I have had a long standing intrest in stuides reguarding plants becasue I do beleive that they have more awarness and intellegence you might say then most pople would think, and this is something the Druids have held to ages ago.

So I happen to be watching Myth Busters and they were doing this expriment with plants, and they were testing that old folk tale in which they say that talking to your plants makes them grow better, or as some say playing music makes them grow betters so they had 7 different green houses set up all with the same kind of plants and same conditions, but one of them had a woman's voice saying good things, and one of them had the same woman's voice saynng negative things, and then one of them had a mans voice saying good things and one had the same man's voices saying negative things, and then one had classical music and the other had heavy metal, and the last was the control.

So I did not catch the beginning of the episode so I do not know just how long the plants were left like that, but I think it was for a week or something, but at the end of it they came and took all the plants to compare thier mass and take mesaurments and it was shown that the music plants in general did better then the rest, but heavy metal was even better then classial, and all the talkling plants were better then the control, and there seemed to be no different between if it was good things or bad things that were said.

And well this made me wonder, if there is in fact something about sound waves in genereal and the vibrations caused by noise, and coices or music that acutaly somehow hopes simtulates the cells of the plants or is somehow good for them. Because that would examplain why the music did so well, becasue the music would send out stronger vibrations then just the sound of a voice would, and well Heavy Metal would be louder, and much stronger then classical and so it would send out even stronger viberations and waves then the classcial music.

12:06 AM - 9/1/2007 - comments {1} - post comment