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What I really want for my birthday is a device that can measure my maturity. I really want to know how matured I am. I wonder if I still have the brain of a 5 year old or am I acting my age. These days, the distinction is very blurred to me. Sometimes I feel I'm acting like a spoiled brat while other times I feel like I have inspirations or breakthroughs in thinking if that actually makes any sense. Certainly, my grammer has taken a back-seat and is regressing to the standard of a secondary school student. Also, I feel I'm not as competent in studying as I use to be. (not that I studied really well initially) However, the problem I'm more worried about is how matured I am. I can't seem to integrate myself well to the adult world. Being an adult has many implications as well as responsibilities. I do realise these points at least. The extra freedom I get from being an adult has a price. My parents aren't too bothered about what time I get back as long as I notify them where and what I'm doing. I even get a house-key. I don't read the newspapers very often. Regret is what I feel but I can't seem to bring myself to read the articles, always believing I can spend my time in better ways. Well, one of my resolutions for this year is to change this bad habit of mine. It is important to know about world news. It may not affect me directly, but it can still affect me in some ways I never even dream about. After all, having more information is better than having less. To me, this is a sign of maturity. Politics is another area which I ought to pay more attention to. After all, I can (or must) vote in the next election! While I know about all this things I still feel I have a Peter Pan heart. I want to have fun and do all the things children below my age love to do. I like to play TCGs, MMORPGs, computer games and listen to boy bands sing. Basically whatever a teenager likes to do, I also share the same likes. I may no longer be a teenager but I still yearn to lead a life like one. The joy and laughter that one can derive from this kind of life is a far cry from the life an adult lives.
Is it wrong and immatured to want a life like that? Is this just escapism on my part from the newly-found responsibilities of adult life? How I wish for maturity-meter to tell me the answers. Or is it just my 'maturity' showing for my reliance on a fantasy device that probably won't even show up in fairy tales? Wonder who can tell me the answers... |
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Iwant to say that i'd really wish i had a maturity-meter too, and actually if it could be on a scale of 1 to 10 (oops we just heard it a while ago) how nice would it be. But we know that there wont be any scale such as this, and the best form would take on the advice from friends or just constructive feedbck from others. Personally, mature or not is always a relative question, but what i truly want to say is that our mannerism, involvement in any kinds of hobbies, activities, pastimes, are a choice, not an accurate reflection of our level of thinking. There are many adults outside doing "childish" activities too. Just like Wei lin said yesterday in the ice cream analogy.
Personally, i think maturity is the ability to think, reflect and initiate spurs of growth in one's life. it is the innate, something internal and personal. It cannot be said to be right or wrong. Reflecting on the issue of maturity is part of the process of growing up, just like many of our same age friends always do. But maybe just another cent worth: the next positive step that we could make is to acknowledge our realisation, accept our current rating on our own maturity, and optimistically learn to appreciate. I'm not suggesting we stagnate at this level of maturity, thinking that we are mature enough, but rather we always tell ourselves that we are mature, but we can be more mature. Afterall, u've said that sometimes there are bouts of maturity that u've shown urself. We need to capitalise on these and apply positive psychology. If that spark of maturity is a spark, we fan it to a fire. We must never bring in a fire extinguisher to dampen it. We must never blame ourselves for our experiences, cos it must and will inevitably lead on to new dimensions of our life. Life is never the same each day. Any kind of ordeals, be it innate or external exist for a reason.
Ok, i think probably this is just what i have to offer. We can talk it out! really love to hear from u. Afterall, we're going to be bunk (oops i mean dorm mates) Lets grow together! :)
Cheers,
(U'll never walk alone)'s friend!