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一整晚都没有睡着，原因又是老毛病，胃疼！应该是晚饭的时候和幼昆两个人一起喝酒喝多了的缘故吧，真的是好久都没有沾过白酒了，突然之间就来这么一下，还真有些受不了了，不过喝的时候可没有想这么多，只因好久好久没有见到朋友了，能碰到一起吃顿饭就像是亲人一样，和他跟他女朋友说着我们大学时候的有趣经历，真是又一下去回到了那快乐的生活里，因为堆积了好久都没有倾诉的对象。所以可能当时我的话是最多的了，那个人明显都已经不像我本人了。酒精的魔力。酒足饭饱以后自己昏昏的回到了那个有些阴冷，让人感觉不到有人气的屋子里，躺在冷冷的床上，借着酒劲胡思乱想这以前过去，一个个熟悉的面孔象是过胶片一样在脑海里一一掠过。身上凉心里更凉。逐渐的胃就开始作怪了，那种就别而又熟悉的痛楚又来了。那时多么希望能够出现一个人在身边照顾我啊，哪怕只是口头上的安慰都一定会令我深深的感动的，但始终都是绝对的不可能的。这么大的北京好像就只有我一个人一样。没有忍住，于是就掉了几滴眼泪。第2天上午浑身无力，胃还在隐隐的作痛，只是一直这样痛着身体已经开始有些习惯了，真的是不想起来吃饭，想起了过去曾经还有人在这种时刻出现为我买饭送药，从天上掉下来的感觉始终都不会好。中午居然不知道怎么个状况，居然起来了，有点想吐但是没吐出来，为了怕弄脏人家的电梯，所以走的楼梯，还好不高只有8层。走了好久外面还飘着小雨，真是感到好像拍电影一样凄凉。到饭馆里吃了碗粥，去药店买了点药就回去了。直到晚上又出去吃了点东西以后这次估计算是结束了。

每次难受过病过以后，好像就会对生活有所改变，希望这次的转变能够快点来临，此时此刻的我真的很希望有个机会可以拉我一把。

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Seeing is believing
Seeing is believing
眼见为实。
希望是希望，目标是目标，承诺是承诺，行动是行动，结果是结果。
虽然有人说只有偏执狂才能生存，但也要分清这些，他们是矛盾又统一的。
：）
怎么办？人这一生就是起起落落，我是抓住了一个就不放。谁知道对错那。
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