okieee....hi, how are you!? feeling good!? you sure do!? wheee! complete insanity! yeah, i have been madly crazy for the last 10 hours of this freaking day....

i really dunno if i should believe what my friends are splitting hairs with me. we are arguing about the stupidest things a while ago...one told me that i should feel beautiful, because i really was and here are the other two. call me stupid, but these are the data i have collected from them a while ago...yeah, it's all about my relationship with mah ever beloved best bud whom i have forgotten ages ago!

this was last two months ago, when my friend told me that he was planning on courting me by the "right time" ((who knows what time that is))...the whole first week that i have heard that news, i can't stop thinking about it every moment that would try passing me by. but dun worry, i came to my senses and finally resolved not to believe it. besides, i was always the humble, unrightful best bud by the block. According to mah difficult and scientific with 65% of mathematical equations and contemplations, i have arrived to the conclusion that maybe he just told that to my friend so as not to dissapoint her! yeah! oh, excuse me, i still have to pass this ever exclusive and original conclusion of mine to upbeat newton's gravitational theory...XD

and with what happened just recently...see here, i just wrote to my friend's green book...or diary, if that's how it should be called ((my god, it was completely smothered with pictures of korean actors and actresses)) for a sissy love advice. yeah, a dumb, grossy love advice about her and her own uhmm..."bestfriend" if that is also how you should call him..^__^...anyway, since my friend loves me sooo much, she let him read my pathetic page with the dumb advice ((it really sounded so gross and romantic!))....that, believe it or not, makes sense this morning. he just read the first and skipped the second page...and unfortunately, he managed to clutch onto his sanity((from reading the stuffs)) just to read my last page...and the last sentence. According to my friends uncontrollable mouth, after reading the last sentence aloud, he immediately stopped between breaths. it seems that he just swallowed what seemed to be a chunk of frog in his throat as he tended to pause for a long time... my friend was a bit taken aback by the reaction, but then punched him jokingly saying, "HOI!". ANd yeah, he broke into insane laughter after that. hey, hey, i do know i am crazy, but dun ask me about that kind of behavior...i have no idea, trust me. by the way, the last sentence was "HAY TUTUT! HINDI NA KITA GUSTO!"

about the behavior...i honestly dun know! maybe he just paused because he was still contemplating over who might be the lucky person that i have not further been crushing on and when he figured out he just won the prize, he sprouted his laughs to what seem like a mushroom in a desert! blahahaha!! or maybe, the realization that the person you thought was madly in love with you actually condemns you surely would make you feel like a thousand pounds of consciences have been eliminated from your back! blahahaha again! see, see!? or maybe he felt such relief after the truth had been flashed from his mind's eye that i am no longer bugging him for the meantime and then broke into a laugh just realizing how fortune was so friggin' good to him!i am such a genius! there are so many ideas still boiling in my head, but i have to say it for now...getting really tired typing the SECOND time around...((i accidentally erased the first one....again!)) so there! blahahahah again and again!

anyway, me friend told me that he looked kind of sad with that, but i do know she's talking about complete bogus! of course he's happy! hahahaha!!!! hahahaha!!!! and i am now happy for him, and more importantly, for ME!!!!

YAP!!! YAY!!! i think i can now bring back the friendship i had ruined ages ago because of my incapability of handling my own emotions!

sooooo....

can anyone tell me why i want to like him back?!

told ya i was crazy.