I hate it... it seems i write more stupid than i ever did before!

erhmm..yeah. been trying out dozens of time to try concentrating making just a SIMPLE one-shot. The thing is, i can't get my butt to get down to business! A certain tinge of a devilish thought would overcome me and i would be fraught with excitement. i would swap the cord, untangle it, then run to the phone. I would vigorously pull off the phone wire, then... KABAM! Click the network icon, wait for the annoying tones of whateverness this service is trying to create...and authenticate...((XD it really does sound silly, but UNIQUE...XD))...3...2...1...!

INTERNET CONNECTED

46.6 Kbps

so there goes hours of trying to sponge out a story. To journalhome! To friendster! To Kaiyosei.net! To Fanfiction.net! Ah! Yes, the mere sites that had drained all the efforts, the hard works! Yes, you do that! Torture time, that i should do! And then what!? Because then, i would be surfing 8 sites at the same time, i would...what!?

ACCIDENTALY ERASE IT!

bwahahaha!!! There goes one supposed-to-be good story down the telephone wire. How happy.

I do not know why is it that i feel so bored and stupid these days. i have the whole week with no classes since we had to practice for the honor society presentations. I have no right to be lazy at all!-__-' oh madness. I need another inspirational boost! I want one! Calling! yoohoooo! It seems that nowadays, i cannot stand opening microsoft word and then i would just stare at it for couple of hours...with even no letter typed on it. I cannot just squeeze something out of my intolerable brain! It cannot function anymore! There's a missing screw. i 'ope that screw wouldn't be the cause of the emotion i am infuriatingly trying to get rid about.

I cannot stand seeing a blank document. It drives me nuts.

i wanna write again!

just like the same!

just like the first two months!

let's go!

*crosses her fingers*

*runs*

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*trips*

oooowwwwww....

uh...erm..yeah.