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Emotions and Recollections Going Haywire

3/5/2006 - just when you thought everything was looking up..

they were all falling down. all at the same time.

just when you thought you were doing okay...

you were doing so badly...too bad...

just when you thought he really cares...

it suddenly comes to you that he was only pretending...

who would have thought it would hurt so bad..

that i cannot even have the authority, nor the right to be mad.

that my feelings are meant to be dismissed...

why didn't you tell me before, anyway?

I was really hoping like hell...i wanted to trust...

then you made me realize...

i can never trust anyone...not even you.

YOU!

I SHOULDN'T'VE TRUSTED YOU!

yOU OF all people...

the most-awaited occassion...your succeeding victory...the chair even...

fine...

the dream speaks for itself...

you're so pissed off, right?

WELL SORRY!

i wouldn't have pissed you or even angered you if you just told me the truth, anyway!

I wouldn't have! And i can definitely stand up to my word!

Sorry if you couldn't care less! SORRY!

I am sorry if you never dared even!

"...okay lang"

SO THAT'S WHAT YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO DO WHEN YOU'RE BESTFRIEND'S MAD AT YOU! THAT IS WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO SAY!

THAT EVERYTHING IS FRIGGIN' OKAY WHEN YOU'RE MAD AT ME!

"...tapos na naman ang finals eh."

WAIT...WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO SAY? ANYWAY, I'LL SAY THAT, TOO! BECAUSE, YOU KNOW, I'M WRONG!

I was never right...

I was a coward...

I never speak up...

I always think that maybe i am just making such a big deal out of the smallest stuff...

"Acquaintances hear what you say,
Friends listen to what you say,
Bestfriends listen to what you don't say."

The fact is, you never heard anything!

I'm not such a loss, so I'm sorry if i feel that way!

SORRY!

Really, I am.

KUNGsabagay...

"OKAY LANG."