pretend that my tears were letters.

i type just about 300 letters every minute.

oh well.

i feel like i'm running out of friends.

not like i don't want to be with them.

it's just that...i kept thinking that they're getting tired of me.

I mean, who the heck wants to hear the same stupid problem all over again?

I'm really getting tired, you know.

But if i can't kick everything out by tears, maybe because it'd be senseless if i do so, then maybe, i could do it some other way.

as of now, i discovered, blogging, writing and drawing.

so...i can't spit it out.

yea, well, i told it to people...

but..sure

it really, really really really hurts like hell...

it's creeping thru your eyes, then they burn those balls until you finally bathe yourself into useless tears...

wow..

it's really heavy you know...

it is making you scream...

but of course, it's not allowed...

gomen nasai...

What I thought wasn't mine
In the light
Was one of a kind,
A precious pearl
When I wanted to cry
I couldn't cause I
Wasn't allowed

Gomen nasai for everything
Gomen nasai, I know I let you down
Gomen nasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now
What I thought wasn't all
So innocent
Was a delicate doll
Of porcelain

When I wanted to call you
And ask you for help
I stopped myself
Gomen nasai for everything
Gomen nasai, I know I let you down
Gomen nasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

What I thought was a dream
A mirage
Was as real as it seemed
A privilege
When I wanted to tell you
I made a mistake
I walked away
Gomen nasai, for everything
Gomen nasai, Gomen nasai,
I never needed a friend,
Like I do now
Gomen nasai, I let you down
Gomen nasai, Gomen nasai,
Gomen nasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now