i want to quit of being a part of this organization. it's practically driving me nuts... i was just forced joining this because of mom...but i never wanted to be a part of it in the first place..

see here, we're going tuh Mindanao for a grand assembly...can you believe it!? I haven't gone to Baguio yet and you want me to fly there!? and they also say something about leading the crappy thing! sometimes, i just don't want to be reminded that, because i just don't want to care! I DON'T WANT TO! Fine! selfish you call me, but it's driving me nuts! they say, mingle with these old men, go there, pay here, GEEZ! I am a fifteen-year old girl and i still think i deserve not to worry! sure, maybe i do hafta learn even in my early years, but hear this...

I DO NOT WANT TO BE A PART OF IT!

I NEVER DID!

YOU'RE ALL STRESSING ME OUT!

you know what my plan is!? when i grow old and become a maj, i will disappear and i won't take any part of it! HAH! stop me! you're all burdens to my back! call me a backstabber, whatnot, the thing is, I WAS NOT WILLING TO BE A PART OF IT! I WAS FORCED TO! see?! i do not know why i let my mom talk me into this...do this for me! do this for you my foot! geez mom, i'd do just anything to please you, but i do not want me forcing myself to mingle with people i don't want to be with nor do something i do not want to do!it is not YOU who's having a hard time doing this, it's ME!

i am not saying that the people who's a part of it are living devils of the earth..it's just that i do not feel comfortable with them, you see!? they're just so old! they even drink! what the heck am i supposed to do! sheesh! i don't want responsibilities! i want to run away from them as much as i can! yea, i am IMMATURE! but i don't care..!

I DON'T CARE!!!

CAN YOU SEE THAT NOW!?

geez...you're all albatrosses around my neck you hear me!?

aaaarrrr...

fine, i am exploding...i've been keeping this up for exactly three years of my life, and i can't stand it already..i wanna quit! but how?! my mom's part of it, my cousins are part of it, what can i do!? if i did quit, they'd hate me and scorn me for all they care! AAAAAAAAH!!

one thing's for sure..

sh*t, i am trapped!

git me outta this hell!