...and I am insanely nervous...

Look, i just came from wedding rehearsals for my uhh..how should i put this..oh, yea, my uncle. And sure, it would've been so normal if it wasn't for the stupid fact that i'll be one of the bridesmaid for a different religion...I'll be attending in a church which i am friggin' unfamiliar to, which is the Iglesia ni Cristo... Look, all due respect people, but considering the threats((not threats, actually, more like warnings)) the priest or minister, however you should call him..it's really, really making my knees knobble. AAAACK.

See here, i don't even attend my church and i do not know any single prayer during masses, how else should i ever look like a normal person inside a church i am so unfamiliar to!? I feel so alienated! my mum told me i shouldn't fret because i have all due respect not to know anything about their whatever prayers and ceremonies and all that crap...but..ack..i just can't afford losing my sanity fretting now and then if i am still doing things right. geez...and the priest told us about sueing him if ever we get in trouble or do even an "honest" mistake. Oh crap. what if i trip!? geez! he'll kill me for that... he told us he had those uuhh..how do you spell that...dyokanes?! jokanes?! AAAAHHH! i'm goin' tuh die, and i just know it! why, oh, whyyyy do i have to end up doing the things i hate the most...i really, really, really hate:ADJUSTING. really, i really, really do. i feel so queasy doing the process, honestly. sure, it'll all going to be fine after that..but oooh, the pain of adjusting right. sure, i am not talking about losing individuality..but i kept worrying what people think of meeee!

so there. i have to do this. this'll be happening tomorrow at nine o'clock. i just have to do this..i can do this...i positively can do this! i know i can! yea! go! i can do this! i can!

God, save me...