i managed to dispatch myself from that stupid site. it isn't exactly stupid. i fancy it a lot, though, i have been planning on writing an entry about something, and i totally lost my enthusiasm about writing it since...ah, horrible fate..

YATTA!

my bestfriend just came back from LA, and i am very, very happy! happy, indeed! we went out last saturday to celebrate Dea's birthday, which actually was on friday. and yea, i met up with nanay, aj, tin,kat,ems,jemo,lek..i hope i didn't miss out on anybody..so there! i had so much fun! tomorrow, i'll be dropping off to school to see her. i do hope i'll wake up early..aw gee..i'm not really the person you'd expect to come in the exact time, you know. No matter how early i've been ready, there's something that has GOT to put a stop to it, and dun ask.

i'm enjoying my Harry Potter marathon a lot. I am down to the fourth..yea, i do admit it is a bit exhausting and a bit uhh, not that exciting since i've read them for like at least twice and seen their movies for the nth time, but reading such a very fantastic piece isn't something you should be missing. i idolize JK Rowling a lot and i've been wondering about my writing. i just don't know. i want to, but something holds me back. i lack imagination. I DON'T HAVE ANY OF IT. *sigh* i want to write again, really, i badly want to. but i don't know what to write. tha's one of the reasons why i'm off to reading again. maybe after the marathon and Jane Eyre, and as mum promised, Pride and Prejudice, Sense and Sensibility, maybe classics and an internation bestseller series will be enough to push me again. i do wish so.

one thing i hafta get rid off is this INTERNET. eversince we got the opportunity of surfing in a lot faster way, my brother and me got obsessed with it. aw crap. everytime i open this stupid computer, all i ever do is go surfing the web! i kept telling myself that i can manage cooking up a story in my might-as-well-wilt brain while i am enjoying the git of a pleasure of surfing all over the world...oh gosh. i gotta stop. and YOU! why do you make me want to blog so much! aaargh! now i haven't touched my diary lately. it's hopeless...*groans*

second thing, my brother has GOT to fancy and love reading. he HAS to. or else, his filthy hands would be glued to the keyboard along with his eyes on the monitor. whenever i see the opportunity, my brother has to bug me all throughout that he needs to use it.

third thing...can i actually save for a laptop!? i mean, writing in a laptop might seem to be better than here, though i guess, there are still some disadvantages...the laptop is better off without any internet connections! HAH!

fourth thing, i know i have might as well mastered the arts of not looking at the keyboard and still manage to type things that still make sense, but i have to:STOP BEING SO FRIGGIN' CARELESS all the time. just for this summer! look, i accidentally executed a not so friendly command just a few seconds ago and my heart leapt at the sight of my entry all gone in one go. good thing i pulled myself together and even manage on pressing the undo key and thus, recovering the whole lot entry again*whew*

fifth and the last, with concern still about my writing...i need to find this something that's been really bugging me. I DO NOT KNOW WHAT IT IS. yea, it sounds stupid, but 'tis really annoying the heck out of my nerves. there's really something that's so missing that i can't get myself to go writing again. maybe i need to get laziness off my dictionary at the moment...or...i really, really need an INSPIRATION! something that's worth a spark! that happened on my last summer, just when school was about to start and i don't want it happening so late like that! I had twenty ideas hindered by hectic schedules the stupid institution's been enforcing and the like, and i guess the enthusiasm of writing it had gone dooooown the drain. I NEED THE SPARK! SPARK!

so there, i have plan a,b,c,d,e! and no school can stop me! i still have the unnerving thought of having school tomorrow, you know, eventhough i have been on vacation for at least two months. that happens when i sit down in front of the computer in the evenings. maybe i'm just being too nervous and excited at the same time because i'll be meeting pao tomorrow, and please don't ask why i feel nervous. i just don't feel like going out in this heat, it's dreading me, really.

okay, so my mum's practically pulling me off the chair, i better go.

*controls herself from typing more and more* is there any job for this kind of obsession?! i need money, 'nyway...i have to do this!

awww boring, old heat. gerroffmeee!