Imagine, in this infinite universe where Earth is regarded less than an amount of speck in it, what do you happen to call ourselves? No more that the 105th of a half dot.

What would the world be if we weren't here?

I've always asked that question everytime?I get time to think about it. Humans are selfish in nature, yes, I don't think you have to argue about that one. Think about it. Yes, there are things that we need, things that we cherish for our heart's delight...but you do know that eventhough all that fuss, it isn't only US who is affected, along with quintillions of things we are living among change its course caused by the smallest and unsuspicious movement or even just simple flicking of an eyebrow can make a difference.

After watching an inspirational movie, two documentaries and reading a great novel, Memoirs of A Geisha, it's not that it's only now that I have realized, we are all part of this BIG thing going on. Like a cycle...no one ever will know what will happen, no one even knows what's happening or what happened. We seem to be unaware, at the same time we are. It is because though we are blessed a complex mind, there are things meant to be unknown, and one true force, which I believe to be God does. We are insignificant, really. If we die, would the world stop revolving and consider crying?for your death? If we die, would Mother Nature suddenly realize to come to your funeral? No, I didn't think so. Look at the bigger picture. The world would go on, living as it always have.

We are significant. There is this one commercial from National Geographic Channel considering our existence as something to help Mother Earth (and not destroy it, which we partially have), because partly, we know what is going on, yet we do foolish things without even thinking about it. (I mean, come on, those snakes weren't doing anything to you! They serve themselves, they feed themselves, they protect themselves! They are predators, for goodness sake! They don't deserve to be some attraction for a festival nor designs for your stinky feet! I hope you get allergies! It's not that I'll hug one if it bites me, but, Jesus! Would you, or would not try and defend yourself if you were stepped squarely on your face!Think!) Ehem, anyway, so there. We still must consider ourselves something, a part of a bigger something, and we are obliged to see this view and learn from it, because there is a task. To make the world a better place to live in! Look, how else would we accomplish our task if we cannot make ourselves think BETTER, make our enegry? HIGHER, make our faiths?STRONGER. It's a matter of time to freshen ourselves, think of us as something who still has this vital thing going on, and?still thinks that there is?still hope for all of us to harmonize, for all of us to?feel PEACE. We need to think that life has it's own struggles to live upon, and we have to bear with it and live with it and learn from it, that we, ourselves continue to be a BETTER? person every second. Yes, there are?mistakes, and I am assured that you know what?their purpose is...to LEARN.

How the inspirational movie affected me (which I failed to catch the title) and Zhang Ziyi's documentary:

Struggles may seem like a knife cutting violently above your wrist and when you find why it is doing it and how, you think. When you do, you stop the knife. That is how you are supposed to survive. You are not some special creature, you know. You are still in level with animals, we are all animals. Remain humble, continue dreaming, keep on going. Trip and take a moment to think why you did, then stand up again and show the world that that trip made you stronger the second before. Get lost, and try to look for another path, show everybody that you've been straighter and more direct even before they realize it. Fail, and try to find a way to view and cherish triumph and show the audience that they can achieve it too, without looking like an overblown smug.

How Deadly Obsessions documentary about snakes and Memoirs of A Geisha affected me:

We try our best to be a better person, but still, as I have mentioned, we are still part of this enormous cycle. We do our part, they do theirs, and no matter how great the impact of our actions may be, it'll still be as big as how you've always done it. Quoted from the book itself, "But now I know that our world is no more permanent than a wave rising on the ocean. Whatever our struggles and triumphs, however we may suffer them, all too soon they bleed into a wash, just like watery ink on paper."-Sayuri Nitta/Sakamoto Chiyo.

This is what I have been contemplating about for the last few hours this day, and I must admit it must have been the most sensible thing I've ever done the whole summer. THINKING.

I better watch more documentaries and stuf f on Discovery Channel and National Geographic Channel. It does me a lot of good. I am not saying I am to give up my usual routine or interests but just thinking like this would make me see and get to know the world much deeper than I should. I know that there are still things that are as important as I have mentioned above, which I have never encountered on thinking, but really, I'm still fifteen and I bet you anything there are still loads of spaces in my brain to occupy. Spaces Algebra, Geometry, Trigonometry, Physics and Chemistry have failed to print upon. Maybe I still need to understand smaller pieces before I begin to the bigger ones, because really, I still want to hold on to that dream of passing UPCAT.

For a moment there, I thought I was part of the earth, and I am happy.