from the dead..

*sigh* I think I've been dead for the past two days. I've been studying all night long for these two dumb subjects whom I consoled precious hours of sleeping to, and now I have managed to fail them. Gad. I don't want to think about it, but no matter how I run from it, it really, really bugs me. This is my first examination and I've managed to fail TWO subjects already. Darn.

But on the plus side, ((if we try not thinking about the minus side)), I feel really light as of now((again, completely ignoring the first paragraph))..light as a feather ((i'm a hundred times heavier than a feather, but come on..)). ((again,...*OH SHUT UP!* fine, fine)) You see here, I have finally put into action something that I've been telling all my friends a few centuries ago, which I have mastered a century after that which concerns about UNDERSTANDING my problem. I have to QUIT ranting about it, 'cause it won't get me anywhere, and I should be ACCEPTING the fact that the problem's already there, 'ayt? Besides, if I don't, then it'll get on much deeper and worse than I could ever imagine ((okay, you got me..it's all about the mushy stuff))...So, right now that I've been so open with myself, and had gotten out of the stupid clam of denial, even with my friends ((which right now are pretty irritated with me telling stories and all for nth times)) I think my liking onto him wasn't such a problem. It's just too normal, you know..so why do I have to stop doing it. I'd be demented right now if I refrained myself from doing it. OKAY!? SO I LIKE HIM, WHO CARES! Hahaha! I REALLY REALLY LIKE HIM, BUT NOT THAT MUCH... YOU KNOW WHY?! HE CUT HIS HAIR, FOR PETE'S SAKE! Hahaha! AND HE IDOLIZED ME AS MUCH AND GOT BRACES! Hahaha! GO GIRL! Hahahaha! YOU MADE THE WRONG DECISION, NOW I LIKE YOU LESS 4%!

Another thing that's been really uplifting me all these stupid times. You see, d'you remember the time when I asked Daniel first if he wanted to join our group then I asked him and told me that he would not be able to because Elena already asked him ((whoa, now I know why I'm a girl)) first and then I pouted then he told me, "Siya ang una mong tinanong, eh." Hahaha! Hilarious! It happened last Thursday, too, when I was ranting about hated Math and all that and then he told me, "Nandyan naman si Daniel, ano?". Ano konek?! Haha! Then I just got on ranting about how I didn't like him teaching me cause I was so dumb when it comes to Math and Daniel can understand me more rationally, and tha's it. hahaha! Are you thinking what I'm thinking? DON'T!

okay, hafta go, bro's bugging me again..curses!