Hi, I'm here again, good news.

Okay, so I sell out last June for updating for like 500 times last June, minus the two zeroes of course. It was an exhilarating month, but certainly most enjoyable. The gang's been stuck in McDonald's EVERYDAY, yea, you see it, EVERYDAY, and no, don't think we're all that rich to be hanging out in a fast food chain where the food costs either half our allowance or the whole or even higher, we just don't have anywhere to go to spend time together. We picked the cafeteria back then to study, and it worked out, though the situation of having college students now isn't helping anymore, so we migrated.((mind you, we did it only once..XP)) I'm so happy spending time with the rest of them..*sigh* I don't know what I am now if I weren't friends with them. Which reminds me, we went biking yesterday, it was so fun! Hahaha! We call it pedicade, literally because it was a pedicab and there were snakes, trees and the lake watching us! Haha! On one pedicab was Pangan, Yvette and Teresa, while the second one, in which Daniel fully paid for was occupied namely by him, ((duh)) Kim, Gennina and ME! Haha! Daniel drove at first, but when his feet got tired, I took over, and I was really GOOD! YEA! ((err..because I wasn't able to manage a single bikeXP))..Gennina next, and she kept barging us towards the lake! Hahaha! And then Kim, and Daniel and ME and Daniel again! OHOHOHO! I'm SO GOOD!

OK, fine, so you have every news about my barkada and my bespren...how bout Dea!? Oh, she looks cool on her new nurse uniform and some college people find her so pretty. She was once nominated as muse but didn't win, mainly because she threatened them not to. XP She visits the room whenever she gets the chance, and I'm perfectly okay with that. I had realizations and I know that I mustn't brush her away simply put that she deserves more than what I worth, so I am SORRY.T__T..So there, we miss her already, and we wish all the luck in the world!^^

So about Paola...T__T

I don't know what I am doing.

Eversince I told Laliz about..well, about how it's been difficult for me because we weren't able to spend any time together, and the doubts I had when I came into a realization that maybe I'm not anything worth her, and then how it kind of *ouched* me that...ARGH. How it hurts, how it really, really hurts...I don't want to admit this, mainly because I am such a stubborn little fool about ranking and chuchu..and ARGH...it's not like it's the biggest deal ever witnessed by Mr. World...but..b-but....it kind of hurts to know that the person you consider the most important person you've ever known, aside your family of course, doesn't think much of you like that...Okay, maybe only a part of it. Then I told Laliz that maybe she wasn't my bestfriend anymore...then I thought of the times when we tried keeping our relationship aside our differences and distances..and then I thought of how it was when she said she was goin' tuh leave...I realized the mark that I won't be much of a loss and there were a lot of people who understands her more than I do...who knows her more than I do..((oh gosh..I'm about to cry))...We may call each other bestfriends and you know how I am when it comes to names...and I always see my name on her cp which only named me as my plain name and nuthin' else and her name in mine had these weird asterisks and underscores and best ko! chuchu all over it, and it kind of made me jealous at first that there were people out there that...I CAN'T SAY IT! MAINLY BECAUSE IT'S WRONG! OH GOSH...I'M ACTING POSSESIVE! I don't own her, but this tendency of being jealous again..T_T..OY, I'M NOT LESBIAN, STUPID! Haha! I just miss her so much, and the test I've been putting on to see if I am worth something and if she does miss me tortures me. Maybe it affected her, seeing that I haven't contacted her for weeks or so... She doesn't care about rankings and all that crap, she tells me that she loves everyone...but no matter how we try to stop it, there'd always be people who are really important. Like she is to me, and like I am not to her. I don't want to talk about this because it would open a new problem, but I need to get it out. T___T I wanna cry. I just want her to know that I might be having mood swings..but it really hurts to know that I might be pushing myself to you..T__T...

Oh, problems.