*sighs*

i wanna stash a knife, slice it through my neck then stare at my dripping blood..oh yeah, pure heaven! WAHOO! ain't that cool!

anyway, i am crazy again. YEESH! man, there are so many things i can be so DAMNED happy about, why even bother being so miserable because someone as pathetic as him doesn't like me back!??! AH pure irony! I haTE IT SO BAD! why am i acting like this, oh man! i even am degrading myself over the boy!? GOD, will i look at myself and try accesing to my brain how dumb i am acting as of now!?ARRR!!! thinking this only drives me insane!!!!!!!!

i positively hate myself, really..you have practicaly no idea..^___^

Whee..killing yourself might be the best medicine a doctor could prescribe...