really, forgive me for now...just for the thought, well, i am practicing my best to try avoid saying such quotations off my vocabulary, because right now, it's really shrinking myself even smaller than my height really is...-__-'

"I HATE MYSELF!"

"I AM SO UGLY."

"I WANT TO DIE!"

"I WANT TO BE LIKE HER!"

oh, yesh, yesh, it really did sound evah so pathetic, and believe me, it's like i am chanting the same four sentences for like, EVERYDAY! what is soooo much wrong about me is that i kept considering my flaws as...well, they really are defined as imperfections, right? but, my point is, my flaws could be my individuality...everybody isn't pettite, everybody isn't blessed with pimples! HAH! i do stand out from the crowd! and now, my flaws are not considered as what is wrong with me, but symbols that would signify my true strength! hell, why the heck should i care if other people would not think i am considered beautiful, i mean, they are not beautiful to begin with! being beautiful means appreciating beauty not only of yourself, but also the beauty of others. i kept on degrading myself over the stupidest things, and still, i haven't realized...there would be only one ME! ME! ME! right?! funny how a magazine could change my pessimistic point of view, ne!? THANKS CANDY! ^__^  yes, i know i may not be the ideal "crush ng bayan" or "miss highschool", but heck, there are so many things i could excel myself asiding these options! i know i can draw, i can deliver a speech successfully or so, i can write stories, i can even make my friends laugh out the blues, i even have my family beside my back!!!! isn't it enough for me?! NO, it wasn't, and it WAS so wrong... i kept on admitting that i didn't have this and that, and heck knows why it took me this long just to refrain myself to stop admitting, and try appreciating! i can't complain over to what God has blessed me, it's ME! and no one should complain! GOD! I FEEL SO CONFIDENT!

ah, i am small, i dun even know if i reached 5 feet, but i dun care! i dun need to be a 5'8 just to tell i am beautiful inside! i dun need to have that shimmering sparkly teeth the television flaunts over, nor that slim body those models have been fasting about, or even that TOO much of a flawless skin! i dun have that! even if i won't ever have that, i won't let myself be swallowed to what's in or not, because the real deal is that...hot or not, there'd always be ME. ^__^