okay, okay...

things that have been happenin' to my pathetic life, you may ask?!

OH everything's just going fine, so fine, so fine it isn't fine already..^__^

anyway...

*sighs*

so, my friend asked him what he really does feel for me...

oh yeah, he told me that he loves me...

as his bestfriend.

and i bet you look so whimpery reading this...

oh, don't be..

the moment i heard of it, i sound like i have heard capitals N-O-T-H-I-N-G.

boy, air isn't reliable delivering sound waves, eh!?

i should be crying, i should be moping..

but oh god, you have no idea how much i want to...

but i can't!

for a stupid, pathetic reason i am going to waste my tears on!?!

HELL NO!

but damn!!!

i can't stop thinking about it!

yeash, i know i should've stopped before everything was still sublime...but...but...

it's not my fault@!!!!

why can't i be loved back just like other people can!?

is there something wrong with me!?

IS IT ME!?

aw i hate it so much! thinking just like this!!!!

arrr!!!!

oh yeah, have you any idea that i am forcing my tears to stop falling from my unbearable eyes!!!!!!!!?!?

i can't help it!

no matter how many laughs and smiles i do, i just can't help it!!!!

i feel so hurt!

i feel so hurt!!!!

i want to cry so much!!!!

SHIT!