This week alone, i single handedly managed to cause too much destruction. Is it healthy? I don't know, actually. Sometimes i wish i'll never grow up but seconds move faster that you expected and before you know it, you had created your own hate club. Maybe it's me or my hidden baggage. Seriously i am lost in my own doing. Nothing seemed real anymore. I am officially numb that i don't feel This is an ad revenue sharing blog. things the way i used to. When you were told that you had a certain lifespan left, the first thing you do is to go through your "life list" or get really drunk with a total stranger who thinks you are beautiful. For me, i get really drunk first and  then create some self destruction. Who really cares about medication? When you have to leave this world, you leave.. Every second someone is being born and someone dies, so what is so special about myself? I am even planning to make a funeral dress for myself. At least, i get to do it the glamourous way and even plan my outfit. No more baggages and no more worries on what i'll be doing in five years' time. Jealous? Oh well, you can't have my life. It's mine and at the moment, i am very happy with it. It's like carrying on the family tradition. Someone has leukaemia and so does the rest of the bloodline.