been thinkin of u so much lately. and how i wish come december that you can come home.  3 years would be too long to wait, if you'll be staying with her ... :(( ... im not even sure of your true status with her. you say that you're not yet married, you say that you're not yet decided on marrying her. its something that i hold on to, something that keeps me hoping. i dont know why or how, but i still feel something for you. in due time, i know i shall understand what it truly is, but for now, humor me please. theres something inside of me that wanna be close again to you, i dunno if its because of our past, or because i am truly attracted to you ... O