Ok so I am having these weird dreams of death. I am not sure what it means though I am pretty possitive it doesn't mean I am gonna die any time soon. Just my luck! I will probably be stuck living this shitty ass life forever...which is all well and good, that is just longer to make everyone miserable.

Speaking of death, Ri and I were talking last night. For anyone who has seen Million Dollar Baby you will know what I am talking about. Ya know where the mother is trying to get the girl to sign over all her stuff because she is paralyzed and dying and the sister says you have to stick the pen in her mouth? Well there is my mom and Nay. Mom trying to get me to sign over my money, kids life, and anything she might think is worth something while my sister is standing behind her saying " Mom ya gotta put the pen in her mouth." Well I have done told Ri I don't care what she has to do, she better pull the fuckin plug on me. I mean trip on it, inject me with some drug... hell she can hit me in the head with a hammer for all I care but she better make sure I die. My mother is not getting that kind of joy out of me.

And one more little line about death... I would so get away with killing. This being legally crazy is working well for me. I know they would put me in a mental hospital with the good drugs for the rest of my life. Right up my alley... EXH you better watch out, ya know you are the first on my list.