Vik just called and said she was on the way to come get me... WONDERFUL!!! I get to be out of the house and listen to her bitch about Lukie all day....ah hell. At least I will be out of the house since I am now on 37 hours of straight sittin here losing my mind.

Speaking of losing my mind...Ri asks last night if there is a therapist that I could talk to that wouldn't dope me up? Well I am not sure but I know I haven't found one yet. It is so much easier to keep the crazy girl drugged than to just let her be mad and learn to work through it. So guess what I am going to do today? I am going to find a doc to dope me up I guess. Being doped sucks but if Ri is worried about me then maybe I should be too. That is the way I find out if I am too close to the edge...I let my real friends tell me "Girl do I need to hide the gun?" and then I know yeah, they might want to.