I always write something then later read it and feel the need to explain...so um about the last entry. I am goin a little crazy with out something productive in my life. I have always had a million things going on at one time and now it is days of just sitting doing absolutely nothing. That is enough to wear on a girl's nerves for sure. Well that is the point it has gotten to. I mean you can only wash dishes so many times and do laundry so many times before everything is clean. And in the middle of the day there is nothing on tv, not that I like tv that much anyways, so you are stuck looking into open spaces adn reading too much into your own thoughts. I lose track of reality when I do not have enough reality goin on. I lose track of what I should be doing or what there is out in the big wide world when I never leave the inside of my tiny house. It is like I know and can feel there is a whole world of things out there but I cannot for the life of me seem to be able to get clothes on and make it out the front door to go explore it. I know it is just a small bout of depression and this too shall pass, but when? How long is it gonna hang on, creeping in to my thoughts, making me lose the already small amount of sleep I do get? When is it gonna leave this time, so I can go back to being happy?
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